Since I am updating, let's update more!
Finally compiled a whole wishlist for the things I wanna do before I turned 30!
So let's see how much I can achieve and by the age of 30, I will come up with another new set of wishlist,
and most importantly, update on whether I achieved all these,
or major changes have happened!
Here we go.
1. Get a car (checked!)
2. Join a dance or aerobic classes!
3. Join more church activities especially when it involves young working adults.
4. Try out spa (I've been massage centre but not spa!)
5. Attend Chinese language classes (not able to read and write in Chinese! Urgh!)
6. Participating more competitions with the kids especially in English!
7. Set a good record in academic achievements especially in English.
8. Find opportunities to apply for scholarships for Masters!
9. Eat all the good food in Miri! (hahahahahaha....)
10. Last but not least, love.
So, let's put all this into challenge, and we'll see how much I achieve, how much I didnt achieve, and how much changes will happen to this wishlist! #letsdothis
Who knew i would really realised my childhood dream to be a teacher?
Thankful to God for the opportunity He has given me,
Thankful to my primary school teachers who inspired me to be an English teacher just like them,
Thankful to my secondary school teachers who strengthened and motivated me by showing me the path to be a teacher,
Thankful to my lecturers who never gave up on me for 5 and a half years in educating me and making me into a teacher right now,
Thankful to my friends esp my bestie for the endless revision and passed each exam with good grades,
Who knew that all the wishes I wished for when I was just a little girl would come true?
But wishes that came true isnt as easy as I imagined when I was a kid.
To earn something, comes along hard works and endless determination.
And somehow this turn me into a workaholic of some sort..
I got frustrated when the kids dont achieve what I expected,
not to them, but to myself.
And eventually made myself in a bad mood.
But like what a friend told me,
U can only spend 25 hrs feeling sad, and then get up, and start all over again.
And as a teacher who doesnt take her salary for nothing,
I am determined.
Determined to create a record,
Determined to improve myself for them,
and determined to give all out as much as I can to help them.
And all this is because of one thing,
because I am a teacher.
Jenny~
Thankful to God for the opportunity He has given me,
Thankful to my primary school teachers who inspired me to be an English teacher just like them,
Thankful to my secondary school teachers who strengthened and motivated me by showing me the path to be a teacher,
Thankful to my lecturers who never gave up on me for 5 and a half years in educating me and making me into a teacher right now,
Thankful to my friends esp my bestie for the endless revision and passed each exam with good grades,
Who knew that all the wishes I wished for when I was just a little girl would come true?
But wishes that came true isnt as easy as I imagined when I was a kid.
To earn something, comes along hard works and endless determination.
And somehow this turn me into a workaholic of some sort..
I got frustrated when the kids dont achieve what I expected,
not to them, but to myself.
And eventually made myself in a bad mood.
But like what a friend told me,
U can only spend 25 hrs feeling sad, and then get up, and start all over again.
And as a teacher who doesnt take her salary for nothing,
I am determined.
Determined to create a record,
Determined to improve myself for them,
and determined to give all out as much as I can to help them.
And all this is because of one thing,
because I am a teacher.
Jenny~
At one point of the year, I tend to look back all my blog posts.
Starting from 2010 which I began my very first post,
until now 2015.
this blog grew up with me in many ways.
From my writing styles to the stuffs that I shared in my blog.
To the happiest day of my life to the worst day in my life.
Everything was in this blog.
Everything.
Even those I have permanently erased from my mind.
It still exists in this blog.
Not deleting it means testing myself,
Am I still gonna reminisce all those moments?
Do I still remember everything?
And I tested myself just now,
to open back and read through each and every post that I wrote.
From the childish temporary happiness into the permanent maturing pain.
And I realised one thing.
I grew up a lot from the pain.
From how I always shared happy stuffs in my blog, into sharing even more sad and emo stuffs in the blog.
And how it slowly revolved into sharing only updates and serious stuffs.
And I asked myself,
where did the old me go?
where did that girl whose always cheerful, having the positive imagination that everything will turn out well goes?
where did that girl who believe in love so much go?
and where did that girl who said she will wait go?
All that is left right now is a lady whose cheerful outside, inside feeling cold.
having positive thinking n less imagination.
a lady who sees love as just something. nothing less than something.
and a lady who still sits in the train carriage alone,
and instead of staring while waiting for the one to sit opposite her,
now tends to make herself busy with coffee and books and her surroundings.
And they will say, when the right one comes, you will change.
My questions to them, when the right one comes, will I lift my head from those books and cups of coffee to see?
can he bring the same warmth as a cup of coffee and interest me like those piles of books?
will he able to make me look up and come down from the train carriage once more?
will or will not he?
Jenny~
Starting from 2010 which I began my very first post,
until now 2015.
this blog grew up with me in many ways.
From my writing styles to the stuffs that I shared in my blog.
To the happiest day of my life to the worst day in my life.
Everything was in this blog.
Everything.
Even those I have permanently erased from my mind.
It still exists in this blog.
Not deleting it means testing myself,
Am I still gonna reminisce all those moments?
Do I still remember everything?
And I tested myself just now,
to open back and read through each and every post that I wrote.
From the childish temporary happiness into the permanent maturing pain.
And I realised one thing.
I grew up a lot from the pain.
From how I always shared happy stuffs in my blog, into sharing even more sad and emo stuffs in the blog.
And how it slowly revolved into sharing only updates and serious stuffs.
And I asked myself,
where did the old me go?
where did that girl whose always cheerful, having the positive imagination that everything will turn out well goes?
where did that girl who believe in love so much go?
and where did that girl who said she will wait go?
All that is left right now is a lady whose cheerful outside, inside feeling cold.
having positive thinking n less imagination.
a lady who sees love as just something. nothing less than something.
and a lady who still sits in the train carriage alone,
and instead of staring while waiting for the one to sit opposite her,
now tends to make herself busy with coffee and books and her surroundings.
And they will say, when the right one comes, you will change.
My questions to them, when the right one comes, will I lift my head from those books and cups of coffee to see?
can he bring the same warmth as a cup of coffee and interest me like those piles of books?
will he able to make me look up and come down from the train carriage once more?
will or will not he?
Jenny~
May.
So many things that I missed sharing in this blog due to the hectic as well as me being lazy..
So, let's update..
Firstly, my cooking skills.
Renting and living outside all by myself has pushed me into a corner of desperation,
and because of this desperation, I have to cook on my own!
A seriously big challenge coz I dont cook,
and I dont help out in cooking.
I prefer watching cooking shows than cooking itself.
But desperation has pushed me into refining and mastering cooking.
And I am proud to say that, it is improving..
So, does this fulfill one of the biggest criteria of being a wife? *wink
Secondly, my pupils.
I seriously got really hyped up and motivated when my pupils started to enjoy my company.
When their faces just lit up and got so excited when I entered their classes either for teaching or sit-in purposes,
When they keep telling me that I am fun and wanted me to play more games with them,
and also when they longed for me to enter the class just to share with them something.
and of course, some of them got scared with me (I made 3 boys cried just in two months.)
I guess I am able to tell my lecturers now that I know what children seek in me and what are my strengths in this career.
And I hope that this passion will keep on burning for my pupils' sake,
and also to further move forward in my career.
Thirdly, competition!
I seriously got even hyped up when I was assigned to lead my school for a choir and orchestra competition in conjunction of the Independence Day on August.
FYI, my school has no choir group yet and yes, it's gonna be our first time.
But yeah, as long as I have not submit the registration form, this will still be kept as low as possible.
Will update on this once decision has been made.
Fourthly, Miri City Day Run!
Seriously. speechless.
Prefects came running and looking for me.
Asking me to fill in my IC no and shirt size.
And when I saw my name in that event in which I am required to run 5km marathon,
I got shocked. speechless.
I didnt even run during my Jogathon in IPG Keningau,
what more this?
But, names has been sent.
Just finger-crossing that it doesn't rain and my auntie doesn't collide on the same day (please auntie dont.)
And I guess that's it.
Will be updating this blog again when I thought of what to update..
Till then, take care..
Jenny~
So many things that I missed sharing in this blog due to the hectic as well as me being lazy..
So, let's update..
Firstly, my cooking skills.
Renting and living outside all by myself has pushed me into a corner of desperation,
and because of this desperation, I have to cook on my own!
A seriously big challenge coz I dont cook,
and I dont help out in cooking.
I prefer watching cooking shows than cooking itself.
But desperation has pushed me into refining and mastering cooking.
And I am proud to say that, it is improving..
So, does this fulfill one of the biggest criteria of being a wife? *wink
Secondly, my pupils.
I seriously got really hyped up and motivated when my pupils started to enjoy my company.
When their faces just lit up and got so excited when I entered their classes either for teaching or sit-in purposes,
When they keep telling me that I am fun and wanted me to play more games with them,
and also when they longed for me to enter the class just to share with them something.
and of course, some of them got scared with me (I made 3 boys cried just in two months.)
I guess I am able to tell my lecturers now that I know what children seek in me and what are my strengths in this career.
And I hope that this passion will keep on burning for my pupils' sake,
and also to further move forward in my career.
Thirdly, competition!
I seriously got even hyped up when I was assigned to lead my school for a choir and orchestra competition in conjunction of the Independence Day on August.
FYI, my school has no choir group yet and yes, it's gonna be our first time.
But yeah, as long as I have not submit the registration form, this will still be kept as low as possible.
Will update on this once decision has been made.
Fourthly, Miri City Day Run!
Seriously. speechless.
Prefects came running and looking for me.
Asking me to fill in my IC no and shirt size.
And when I saw my name in that event in which I am required to run 5km marathon,
I got shocked. speechless.
I didnt even run during my Jogathon in IPG Keningau,
what more this?
But, names has been sent.
Just finger-crossing that it doesn't rain and my auntie doesn't collide on the same day (please auntie dont.)
And I guess that's it.
Will be updating this blog again when I thought of what to update..
Till then, take care..
Jenny~
Challenges.
Present almost everywhere.
From making decisions at my workplace into making decisions in the kitchen.
Everything pose a challenge to me.
Working has never been easy.
Love life has never been as easy as a pie.
And making decisions even at the slightest things are never my expertise.
Working has been fun with supportive teachers,
but tiring at times.
Everyone is lamenting on how tired they are,
or how wicked some teachers or clerks are to them,
or the workloads.
And yes, I experience the same stuffs going on.
But at the end of the day, it is how we think.
If we think that it is stressful or tiring, even going into your class would be stressful and tiring.
Easier said than done?
Well, I am trying to do it every single day.
I am not saying I am good in it, but at least I am trying.
So, why don't each one of us try?
Let's try to complain less and eventually stop complaining.
This applies to me as well, and reminding myself to do so.
Love life.
Nothing.
Zero.
I felt nothing.
No particular attractions.
No particular excitement and "shaking hands" phenomenon.
No electrical feelings going through.
Nothing.
And the question to myself is,
Am I getting back into the cold shells?
Or maybe I have not met the one who could melt me away every single time?
Now, I need an ice-cream.
To melt away all the negative and emo-ness in me.
So, bring me an ice-cream.
Jenny~
Present almost everywhere.
From making decisions at my workplace into making decisions in the kitchen.
Everything pose a challenge to me.
Working has never been easy.
Love life has never been as easy as a pie.
And making decisions even at the slightest things are never my expertise.
Working has been fun with supportive teachers,
but tiring at times.
Everyone is lamenting on how tired they are,
or how wicked some teachers or clerks are to them,
or the workloads.
And yes, I experience the same stuffs going on.
But at the end of the day, it is how we think.
If we think that it is stressful or tiring, even going into your class would be stressful and tiring.
Easier said than done?
Well, I am trying to do it every single day.
I am not saying I am good in it, but at least I am trying.
So, why don't each one of us try?
Let's try to complain less and eventually stop complaining.
This applies to me as well, and reminding myself to do so.
Love life.
Nothing.
Zero.
I felt nothing.
No particular attractions.
No particular excitement and "shaking hands" phenomenon.
No electrical feelings going through.
Nothing.
And the question to myself is,
Am I getting back into the cold shells?
Or maybe I have not met the one who could melt me away every single time?
Now, I need an ice-cream.
To melt away all the negative and emo-ness in me.
So, bring me an ice-cream.
Jenny~
Finally, little time to sit here and blog.
I guess some might have clearly known how hectic it is teaching in urban school right?
I felt like practicum all over again.
the staying-back, painting, murals,
reminded me the old times.
But, I guess I am getting used to the title as a "teacher".
Everything I did,
I felt like it should be done to help the school to progress.
And because of that, I became the mastermind for most of my school's project.
It is really tiring,
but it is worth it.
The last-time me looks things in short waves,
All I can do is lament and complain on why should I be the one doing this,
and eventually piled up all the works on myself.
But the now-time me looks things differently,
I started to see the long period of time,
I started to imagine how this school could one day excel with me in the picture.
I guess I started to aim for something different.
Glory is what I aim for.
But to achieve it,
sacrifice is something that must be done.
And I hope, the sacrifice that I will be doing will lead me to something even better,
and not lead me to an old, lonely life at the end (hahahah!)
Oh well, hectic schedules that caused me to be back at 4pm almost everyday is a challenge for me to go out and meet people.
But things will change.
I know it will.
Coz He will show me when the time comes.
I know He will.
Jenny~
I guess some might have clearly known how hectic it is teaching in urban school right?
I felt like practicum all over again.
the staying-back, painting, murals,
reminded me the old times.
But, I guess I am getting used to the title as a "teacher".
Everything I did,
I felt like it should be done to help the school to progress.
And because of that, I became the mastermind for most of my school's project.
It is really tiring,
but it is worth it.
The last-time me looks things in short waves,
All I can do is lament and complain on why should I be the one doing this,
and eventually piled up all the works on myself.
But the now-time me looks things differently,
I started to see the long period of time,
I started to imagine how this school could one day excel with me in the picture.
I guess I started to aim for something different.
Glory is what I aim for.
But to achieve it,
sacrifice is something that must be done.
And I hope, the sacrifice that I will be doing will lead me to something even better,
and not lead me to an old, lonely life at the end (hahahah!)
Oh well, hectic schedules that caused me to be back at 4pm almost everyday is a challenge for me to go out and meet people.
But things will change.
I know it will.
Coz He will show me when the time comes.
I know He will.
Jenny~
Seriously, work has taken up a lot of my time,
and arriving back home at 4pm almost everyday is killing my drives to even blog,
but nevertheless, yesterday 15.04.2015 was a big day for me.
A day when I grew one year older, one year wiser, one year mature and one year prettier(?).. hahaha...
There wasn't any grand celebrations, no cakes or surprises,
Just normal well-wishing from friends and teachers,
Went out for a normal dinner with siblings,
and that's it.
But as I grow older, the thought of a birthday celebration became simpler.
When I was in my "younger" age, I wanted surprises, presents, cakes and spend it with a lot of friends..
But right now, I prefer quiet dinner with my family and closest friends.
Surprises become less expected and I live fine without em.
Presents are more to an optional where I prefer sincere thoughts and wishes than materials in which I can buy it using my own money.
And spending it with a lot of people become something I would like to avoid.
I guess I grew mature. in a good way of course.
Therefore, I would like to thank all,
for your kind and well wishes,
I would say Amen to all the wishes that has been made,
and may all of them do come true.
For remembering it without me having to remind everyone or thru Facebook notifications,
thank you for your sincerity.
For those who wished me on Facebook, Whatsapp or SMS,
thanx for taking that little time to do such a simple but meaningful thing for me.
And for the blog post (you know who you are.. hahaha..),
thank you. I nearly cried (but I didn't coz I laughed more).
It meant a lot to me. =)
23 is not a sign of being old.
It is a starting point for me to grow towards excellence and a better person.
#23 #letsdothis
Jenny~
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