My 600th post!

To commemorate my 600th post in this wonderful blog, I present to you another 50 random facts about me that I have got from the Internet! So, here it goes:

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?

I don't remember anyone who said I love you to me except for my ex a couple of years ago. And I dont think he meant it though. Moving on...

2. Would you date an 18 year old at the age you are now?

Umm, 18 year old guy and a 24 year old woman? I dont think so. 

3. When was the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?

I never felt that way before. Is it a good thing or not?

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?

I do that almost everyday no matter where I am. =)

5. Is there someone mad because you are dating/ talking to the person you are?

No, I dont think there is anyone.

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?

No, I haven't played any songs up today.

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?

I am wearing my batik pyjamas which are custom made to fit my irregular body shape and to make me feel comfy as always.

8. How often do you listen to music?

I listen to music at all time.. Can't live without music around me. =D

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?

Sweats.. Jeans just dont fit into me. It makes me feel really fat and uncomfortable as I am stuffing and shoving all those "stuffs" into one pair of jeans. 

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2020?

Well, I hope so. I do hope by then, I am either married happily with 2 kids and a loving husband, or out there working my dreams up high and meeting new people.

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?

I think I am in between two. I would socialise when I feel like I want to and turn into an antisocial when I need some me-time, or when I dont feel like talking. 

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?

Nope.

13. What about ‘R’?

Nope.

14. Can you drive a stick shift?

I drove it once to get my driving license. And I think I still can drive it now but only until gear 2.. Hahaha..

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?

Yes, I do even though I try to tell myself that I couldn't do anything to stop it from happening, but yeah, I do care.

16. Are you going out of town soon?

I don't think so.

17. When was the last time you cried?

Last week when I was watching a Thai commercial. They always make me teared up.

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?

I dont. As a matter of fact, its been quite a while for me telling someone that I do love them. 

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?

I would love to change it into blue eyes. 

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?

I am ready to do absolutely everything for the man whom I havent found yet. Meanwhile, it would be my dad. 

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.

The weather, I guess. It's really scorching hot out there!

22. Is it cute when girls kiss you on your forehead?

That is never gonna happen. Like seriously.

23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?

Of course not. She is my best friend who has a boyfriend and yet sometimes, treat me like the information counter for almost everything.

24. What are you sitting on right now?

My chair in my living room.

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?

Nope. Asians have the tendency of showing their loves through some other ways and not by saying the three burdensome words.

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

Yes, I do. Always.

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?

My best friend.

28. Do you get a lot of colds?

Just got out from one 2 weeks ago.

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?

From my mom.

30. Does anyone hate you?

I am not so sure about that. But I couldn't care less if there is anyone who hates me. I am not born to please everyone in this world.

31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?

Of course not.

32. Do you like watching scary movies?

I loved it until I experienced paranormal experiences. And then, I stopped entirely.

33. Do you want your tongue pierced?

Eww, gross.

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

The year I said yes to my ex. That would have salvaged my fantasy on love and prince charming. And it would have not turn me into someone cold like now.

35. Did you have a dream last night?

Nope.

36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

I dont know. 4 years ago?

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

I hope so. Finger-crossed.

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

I am not sure about that. I cant detect anyone having any feelings towards me yet.

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

I do hope that I am now lingering in someone's mind, in a good way..

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?

Yes, I do. Had the best haircut and I spent my whole day lazing around after a hectic working month.

41. Think back 2 months ago. Were you in a relationship?

I have not been in a relationship for almost 4 years.

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?

Yes, and that would be my sister.

43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

No, and that would be the sweetest thing to hear after 4 years being lost in a jungle of despair.

44. What’s the best part about school?

Meeting up with friends, catching up and gossiping about other people. And have the laugh of your time all the time. 

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?

Yes, I do.

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?

Yes, I always do such stuffs in school especially when I was in Physics class. 

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?

Yes, I do.

48. Were you single over the last summer?

I was single almost all the seasons for 4 years.

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?

No, it was not. And I pretty love this type of lifestyle despite the hectic schedules and less social times with people.

50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?

Playing games?

And there it goes, my 50 random facts. Will be sharing more stuffs about myself again the next 700th post! Till then, happy holidays to those who are having their holidays, and happy resting.

Jenny

Appreciate

These days I have been listening to many stories,
reading up so many stories from Facebook,
and realised that people dont really appreciate what they have,
and I am one of them.

A friend has been staying in his aunt's house,
and instead of appreciating for the food, shelter and even Wifi,
he stole her money which is for me,
unforgivable.

A cousin is now pregnant,
got scanned and found out that it was a baby girl!
Isnt that a good news?
But not for her whose got married into a family with the only guy,
and with a traditional minded father in law,
this news isnt something to be happy about.

A cousin who has been already dating the man for almost 10 years,
always talking bout marriage and babies, 
always talking bout where would her children be studying and all,
and yet still rejects proposal from the man she loves.

All in all,
it makes me wonder,
why cant we appreciate what we have now?
There is someone out there who has no food, shelther, and heck, Wifi.
There is someone out there who wanted a baby irregardless of the gender and still couldnt have one,
There is also someone out there who has been single and being pressured to get married.
So why cant we appreciate more?

To those who is reading this,
Please be thankful for what you have right now.
There is always someone who does not have what you have right now.

xoxo
Jenny~

Hope.

She sat at her train, staring outside.
It was a rainy day and yeah, she caught a cold herself.
Wrapped in her own sweater and thick blankets with aromatic coffee,
she sat and started to read her books,
when she caught a glimpse of the man she saw the other day.

The man walked to her carriage,
introduced himself,
and started what might have been a short conversation into a long one.
They shared the same interests,
laughed around at each other's jokes,
and shared some of their personal stories.

She thought that this might be the one,
she was happy hanging out with the man,
and at the time when she thought she dont need such company,
she needed one.

Until one day.
The man stopped visiting her carriage.
She thought she wasnt affected by it,
but she was.
She then realised that she shouldnt have placed any hopes.
shouldnt have hoped for a longer conversation,
shouldnt be too happy for it,
shouldnt think of it too much.

Wrapped in her blanket,
she stopped staring at the hallway with hope,
she has decided.
the one who deserves her would not make her wait hopelessly,
and would no longer make her stare at the hallways with hope.

xoxo
Jenny~

I change

Isn't it weird?

I once was very excited when people asked me for my number,

I always imagined how excited it would be for me to start texting this particular person,

I always asked people that I met for the first time whether they are single or not,

and I always tried to act not myself,

in order to attract their attention on me.

But now,

things changed.

I dont feel the fluttering feelings when people asked me for my number,

when I gave it out, I no longer waited around my phone,

hoping for the person to text me or me trying to figure out how to text the person first,

I no longer asked people if they are single or not, 

I no longer act cute or talk weirdly like I wasnt supposed to,

I acted like the true me.

Things changed.

I changed too.

I guess right now, I am more of leaving everything to Him.

I started to learn and understand that, 

there are things that I can never predict and control,

and those things should be left alone,

with efforts being put with care.

I dont want to feel pain,

neither do I want to feel my hopes being crushed.

I am happy with this feeling,

and I hope this numbness can prolong,

until I am ready for the 2nd round. 

xoxo

Jenny~

The other day.

Today's train was as usual,
filled with kids, couples and people that she doesn't really know.
Stopped at the terminal,
and few passengers went off,
and a few came up.

She caught a sight of a new passenger.
A tall, tanned and filled with smiles looking at her.
She smiled back and acted as if nothing happened.
The weird thing?
For that moment, she tried to find something to talk to him.
and eventually, she did though it was a casual talk.
The feeling was indeed warm, like talking to a new friend.

And when the train stopped for a short break,
he went off.
For the first time, he turned his back for her and waited.
That feeling was familiar to her.
But of course, she took little notice about it.
Well, I guess she doesnt want to get too hyped up with everything,
and eventually, got hurt.

And as he changed to the next train,
and she went back to her own journey,
she noticed,
he turned his back again,
and smiled.

And she wonders,
was there any significance?
or was it only a coincidence?

xoxo
Jenny~

Our Times

 

I rarely blogged about movies or dramas that I watched,

and if I do, it means that the drama or movie is really good.

And for today, I would like to blog about a movie that I just watched online,

"Our Times".

It is a Taiwanese drama and why it is so good?

It is about love between young students in school during the 90s,

and it was really relatable to me.

When I watched the movie for the first time, I bawled horribly.

Every scene touched my heart,

and without realising it, I was crying during the whole time.

And then, I watched the second time.

And this time, I cried at certain scenes.

Without knowing it, I realised that I could relate to the lead actor's feelings.

Every action and the words said reminds me of the past.

When the lead actor helped the actress with the bag and protected her all this while,

it reminded me of the feelings of being protected in a relationship.

When the lead actor pushes the actress to the guy she was supposed to like,

it reminded me of the feelings of being happy for the person I liked being with another person.

When the actress cried in the rain, 

the feelings were still there.

When the lead actor told the guy on how to take care of the girl he was in love with,

I bawled horribly because I know how it feels.

It wasnt easy to let go.

And the best quote in the movie was,

"I remember what you say."

It stirs up my feelings again and reminded me of the person who always remembers what I said though it seems like he doesnt care.

But the ending was good.

They ended up being together and I cried of joy.

This movie deserves 10/10,

for stirring up my feelings once again,

and of course, by making me cry endlessly.

This movie reminds me of the past, but it doesnt mean I am still stuck there.

Visiting the past is enough.

Time to carry on my currents steps.

xoxo

Jenny~

24

Last Friday, 15.04.2016 marks the new age for me.
First and foremost, thank you, Father for giving me another opportunity to continue to be in this world and allows me to continue carry out duties given to me.
I would also like to thank my mom and dad as well, for enduring the pains and obstacles of having me from baby till now.
To all my friends who remembered with or without Facebook notifcations, thank you for all the well wishes and prayers over me.
To my best friend, though it was simple but thank you for wishing me too. It meant a lot.
To my kids in schools, thank you for celebrating my birthday with surprise party and singing "Happy Birthday" songs to me the whole time. 

Being 24 means greater challenges and more things to anticipate,
My personal wishes for my birthday are:
1. for my kids to achieve the best results in their upcoming UPSR
2. for myself to achieve greater happiness in various aspects.

Thank you everyone for everything that you have done during my birthday.
Though simple, but I will cherish it.
Thank you.

xoxo
Jenny~