Overnight

Sometimes, I wish my life is like living in a snowball.

Where things stay the same.

It is scary seeing things around me,

people around me,

the environment around me,

change in an overnight.

Though I remember telling myself that change is indeed good,

but sometimes, I can't accept overnight changes.

It made me think,

was it my fault?

or was it not my fault?

People say, ask and you will be given the truth.

But I couldn't find the courage to do that anymore.

The last time I did that,

I ended up in pieces.

November is always like this.

Surrounding me in a mixed feelings vibe.

Making me confused and broken inside.

It isn't easy for me to accept overnight changes.

Particularly when it is amongst people around me.

Enlighten me,

please.

Jenny~