Always.

Holidays have started and ended in a glimpse.
And this time, I spent my week long holiday back in UKM as I am still on my journey to get my Masters.
I didn't regret the choice as I was able to meet back my friends,
and experiencing hostel life again.
It does bring back a lot of memories,
especially when it is spent with close friends.

Before I went back to Miri,
I spent some time with one of my closest friends,
talking about what has been going on in my life and relationship,
and without noticing,
I was already telling her stories about that one man whom I encountered 10 years ago during my studies back in Keningau.
And all the memories came back to me like it had just happened the day before.
I could still remember his eyes,
his smiles,
his awkward gestures,
and most importantly, his sincerity.

I always wondered why I couldn't move past him though it has been 10 years already.
My friends especially my ex-roommate was also asking me the same thing as to why he always appear in our conversations whenever we talked about relationships.
And last night, it just hit me.
He is, was and always will be a part of my memory because of his sincerity,
because of how sincere he waited for me and always tried to be close to me though we were separated from one another,
about how he wasn't shy or embarrassed to leave his counter during work just to say hi to me.
and about how, miraculously, he appeared during the saddest moment of my life,
and turned it around.

He was the only guy that my heart and mind still remember every little detail,
He was the only guy that I could still remember his voice clearly,
and he was the only guy that grab hold of my heart until today.
I wish to see him again,
not to build any relationship,
but to thank him for the wonderful memories that he indirectly left for me,
as well as for being the benchmark of what kind of guy I am looking for in my life.

Seek a man who stares at you like he did,
at the most sincere manner,
Seek a man who is brave enough to come close to you,
without having any fear of being judged,
And seek a man who would always look after you without you noticing,
someone who could make you remember him for another 10 years.

Jenny~