specially for U

seeing u makes me smile...
seeing u makes my heart beat faster...
seeing u makes me feel appreciated...
seeing u makes me feel calm...
seeing u makes me feel like da way u do...
seeing u makes me feel like ur a superstar n im a fan...
and most important,
seeing u makes me feel that love might be possible for me...

thank u for being in my memory all this while...
Jenny~

CNY~

CHINESE NEW YEAR is comin! haha.. da feeling is hitting straight into my heart.. gosh! haha... i mean cny doesnt reli bring any significant meaning to me last time excpet for da reunion dinner and oso da angpaos.. haha.. i mean those were when i was a kid.. but right now, after seeing so many cny stuffs on sale, wore a cheongsam last year and most importantly, being involved in a cny event juz make me feel so nervous and anticipates for it..

i wast able to go back last year in whic i have redeemed it tis yr by bookind da earliest flight back.. haha... i juz miss da family kind of environment which was like in me since i was a kid.. and this is another reason to be at home before da next trip back... and da happiest thing is that my mummy were super kind to make me a cheongsam and even bought a skirt for me.. haha... she's super duper nice.. ahha.. not forgettin my dady of course whose super nice in givin money fo my mummy ot spend on me.. haha... so i juz cant wait to go back home and celebrate cny!

CNY is not oni about angpao, its about togetherness..
Jenny~

childhood dreams~

everyone has a childhood dream/s rite including me... im not destined to be a teacher when i was small nor do i even thought of being a teacher when i was in my reli young age, say 6-10... at that time, i have a lot of ambitions and it kept changin till i found da rite one which is to be a teacher... i wanted to be a singer, artist, model, stewardess and even a nun (since i nevr thought of love at tat age)... haha.. but none reli came true since being a:

1. singer - i dont hav an angelic voice nor could i sing in a high pitch.. i dont reli can sing well like my other frens in which i do envy them... but at least i can sing without goin off da pitch and creating voices whr ppl would be irritated... haha...

2. artist - im not a pretty girl and i do not have da chance to be one.. haaha.... da truth is tat i wanted to be on tv like those celebrities but i juz couldnt overcome da shyness.. plus at tat time i never notice my real talents... i owes thought i couldnt act, sing or even be like an artist.. so tat one was out of da list...

3. model - haha.... tis is so impossible.. i dont hav da heights and da beauty like da models hav... am juz a normal girl whom beauty seems so far and difficult to reach... thus becomin a model was like a fantasy for me... mayb bcoz i juz dont noe how to make myself pretty like others or mayb i havent get da chance to learn... haha...

4. stewardess - another dream tat went into the drain.. da heights were not even attainable for me plus my parents were laughin at me when i told them that.. haha.. mayb i dont suit da job since im a bit phobic wit great heights and those stuffs... haha.. pluz another real reason is im juz not tat pretty... ahaha....

but somehow, a person made one of my dream came true... haha... and he's da irritating guy whom suggested us to make a special performance for an upcomin event.. haha.. n thrs when my dream of becomin an artist (part-time jak pun) came true.. haha.. i hav no fear to cameras and i do act well.. haha.. thoug its juz a short thingy but i was impressed of myself.. though im not as pretty like others but i can feel da confidence that outshine.. haha....

last but not least, i guess thrs chances for all my childhood dreams to come true though its gonna be juz for a short while... haha... im able to experience new things thanx to da chances that was given to me and da happiest thing is learnin somethin tat i have dread to learn like ages...

~can i be a child again?
Jenny~

Nt too late~

i guess its not too late to do some recap for 2010 rite... since tis is such a beautiful date: 11.01.2011, i guess i would reli love to share some of da happiest and saddest memory...

1. entered 2nd and 3rd sems in foundation and became da first mc for cny thingy... it was AWESOME and i love da feeling, support and also da environment tat simply can make u go high... haha...

2. my first loneliest bday celebration.. haha.. which eventually got into a havoc... haha.... all started when i, da usual naive ones, believe in my frens whom splashes me wit water mixed wit flour aka air tepung... my phone "followed" me into da party and guess wat, my frens who caused my phone to go sot2x, helped me to fix it on da nite itself... haha.. though we didnt hav cakes or stuffs like tat, but da best thing is they remembered...

3. went to salong for our first class trip and it was fun... da place was simply beautiful and da scenery was reli breathtaking... went thr for 2days 1 nite and da downside is tat thr were no phone signal at all, n da way to go thr was a lil harsh... crossed over da unstable bridge and actually overcome da fear of height... haha... but i tink da funniest thing is tat when a fren of mine acted like he's so brave but eventually started to get cold sweat coz of his fear of heights... bwahaha...

4. went to kk, esp la salle for drama competition amongst secondary skool... and da moments were great,.. learnt a lot from their skills and also how da teachers put all their knowledge into their hands.. but da downside is tat i got reli sick when i was on my way to kk till i felt like stopping at da nearby road and get down... haha... i simply cant stand da windy road....

5. had da first drama ever, macbeth... i was da narrator which is chosen by me since i dont hav any liking to da characters (oni if our guys are much more handsome...).. haha.. anywayz, i got a lot of attention since tat nite and i simply love da attention.. i juz got used to it and da best thing tat when da spotlight is juz shining on u, u juz feel like ur a superstar standin in da middle of the stage...

6. last but not least, did somethin wrong and causes a lot of frustration and unhappiness not only to me but also to my own frens... but one way or another, its a lesson tat taught me a lot of things in life... doesnt wish to mention it again since its a past and sometimes talkin bout it will juz make da matter worst intead of solvin it...

anywayz, i believe tat 2011 is gonna be a great and hectic yr for me.. but i hope tat tis yr, i will be able to discover da real me and hopefully conflicts will stop comin to me...

BFFs arent owes gonna be forever...
JEnny~

>,

i have feelings so do u... i understand ur feeling but do u? if u think im ok wit it juz bcoz im smilin and stuffs like tat, ur wrong... thrs time whr i juz wanna step away from evrythin that's bothering and juz stay alone... evrythin seems like not goin rite..... and i kinda hate da feeling... da feeling whr u dont noe whether they're fake or real... whether they're sincere or not.... and im super bored wit evrythin tats goin around me.... changes make me feel bored and sick of evythin......

- if oni i can turn da time back, i wouldnt hav to go thru such things......

Jenny~

changes in 2011....

ok, there were several changes happenin in my life in da yr 2011... some are which ought to be happy with and some, are mayb a bit depressing... i juz tink mayb im not used to da changes made plus i've get used to da old lifestyle so changin it requires new adjustments and alignments...

1. entered degree years
= a good thing and shud be happy wit it... coz its da yr of adulthood and yeah, mindset gotta change for a better year ahead,.. but da downside is that, its gonna be pretty busy year with camps all around and pbs (school-based learnin) coming soon.... it juz seem so fast and i wonder if im ready to accept da challenge or not....

2. changing roomate
= a good thing coz u gotta get used wit evryone... i mean tis yr, my good fren became my roomate so i tink it shdu be a happy thing.. but da depressing part is that i juz got used wit my old roomie and kinda miss her like a lot... and da best thing is that she misses me too... haha... i mean we juz got used to our craziness and rite now, we're somehow livin in a total silence condition is u understand wat i mean... im nice to evryone outside but when im back in da room, i juz dont get used to da environment d...

3. life and my own perception
= changes in it will make me feel defended and not bein stepped over like what i experience last times.. its time to stand up and speak... no more frightened Jenny, but a much mature and able to state what i want... though at times, i have to make decision based on majority's agreement, there are rules to stick... da disadvantage is that some ppl seem like they cant get used to it so gotta do it slowly...

4. lotsa activities
=ok, i admit im a real couch potato as in reli inactive.... sometimes im simply lazy... haha.. but now, with all kinds of camps and vigorous activities, i think its time to change... gotta be fit and not been looked down by my friends so hav to get up and start walkin or joggin... and all of this will start mayb nxt week... i dont mind goin alone since being alone sometimes do help me relax for a while... haha...

changes happened like evryday in our life... it depends on how we manage it and whether we are able to tackle it properly.. i hope wit all these changes, i could actually learn somethin from it and become someone whose strong not only physically but emotionally.... but one thins that will remain da same is that i will still hold my status as a SINGLE LADY... haha... =D

-changes are something tat happens evryday which will bring benefits or disadvantages dependin on how u take it....

JEnny~

pics...

me~

this is during dinner~

hiking at my mom's hometown...

my sis prize giving nite....

last but not least, F4....

ok, these are several pics that i have chosen to upload... for da other pics, juz check it out on my fb... enjoy~ =)

life is all about appreciatin da memories~
Jenny~