am cool~

ok, forgive me for those bad words tat i implement in my post previously... oh well, blog is da oni place for me to vent my anger, sadness, happiness and stuffs like tat... i mean, wats da point of keeping a blog when evrythin ur writing is happy... not evryone's life is filled with happiness ok... so i was mad and now i've cooled off... u seem, sometimes when im not in a reli good mood, even da slightest mistake one do to me, will reli piss me off...

but i juz dont like being angry... it makes me look so bad and evil,... plus it juz makes me feel worse... and i never like hating ppl bcoz of wat they did wrong to me... im a hper sensitive person and tat might explain why i juz get agitated easily... i might look like an angel but at times, i need to break out from being nice all da time... i noe how to get angry ok....

oh well, no matter howangry i am, i would rather keep it in me and explode thru posts in blog than expressing it verbally and physically... which i think will bring more harm than good... haha... u will never noe wat i can do when im super angry... for now, peace...

im not someone who wont get angry...
Jenny~

ANGER BURSTING!

u know how does it feels when ur beautiful mornin is being spoiled by a jerk??? omg~ do u hav to speak tat loud and bother like evryone in da class... i tink im like reli nice to u these days but sometimes ur stupid as in ur DUMB actions reli make ppl pissed off ok.... stop shouting and make ppl stuff their earphones into their ears juz bcoz of PATHETIC voice... dont u noe how does it feel as if someone is shouting at ur ears..... DAMN BASTARD AH!

nxt, if u dont wanna follow us by using taxi and doesnt hav da money to pay at least rm 30, THEN DONT! NO ONE ASK U TO FOLLOW US AND FYI, i have enuf money to pay even if thrs oni 3 person.... ur juz INVITed... get the meanin,,,, invited!!!!!!!!!! so stop makin a fuss and shut ur DAMN mouth and follow if u wan..... STUPID IDIOT BASTARD!

to tat IDIOTIC GUY READIN TIS, u juz make me hate u even more........... get tat or u wan me to CAPS LOCK IT, HATE! and now, im like not in a mood and gues wat, thanx to u, i dont feel nice now..... wit my eye condition like tis, u juz make me feel worse NOT NOW BUT FOR DA WHOLE DAY./......... and thanx to you, i never felt this kind of anger like since last time and guess wat, i juz felt like shouting at u, BASTARD........ if its not bcoz i respect u, DUMB BASTARD, i would hav slap da asss of u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID F**KER!

If u dont wanna read tis, den buzz off... dont mess wit me when im angry!
Jenny~

stars~

there's one night when my friends and i were walkin from our hostel to da lecture room for some talks and when i looked up, it was filled wit stars (and of course satellites) and da moon was reli round and big... somehow, it reminds me of my childhood memories....

when i was like 5 or 6 (which is when my sis wasnt born yet), i went back to my village and thrs one nite when we juz sat outside my kampung house lookin at da sky.. and it was full of stars, shimmering and blinking... when u look up da stars, it seems like they 're tryin to communicate wit u and somehow it juz make me feel calm and thankful to God for His creations...

when im sad or happy, i guess i juz nid a shining star beside me... and i wonder who might be a star to me... guidin me when im lost, cheer me up when im down and da best thing, make me shine like the way i am... i believe that thr will be a shining star not oni for me but also for evryone... u might meet ur star but im still here waitin for my own star to come and shine...

when will i get to c u, my shining star?
Jenny~

100th post~

i have like a lot of things to write in this pretty blog of mine but since its my 100th post, i guess i'll juz post something interesting... well, i guess i never expose da real facts about me i guess i'll take tis chance to list down 25 facts about me.. and credits to Dayu, my junior who tag me on da similar topic.. haha.. ok, here it goes:

1. my name is Jenny Lu and everyone calls me Jenny... oni those who are close to me are allowed to call me Jenn... so dont mind me if i juz show u a smile (which u wont noe if its true or fake) when u call me Jenn though i dont know u well....

2. i love window shopping.. i love seeing things though im not gonna buy it and da best thing is that during window shopping, it juz give me ideas to make something unique for my frens... =)

3. i admit that i am a hypocrite... i can be happy in front of u and angry with u behind u... so u juz gotta watch out wat u say, da way u act and da most important thing is da way ur tryin to joke wit me and not knowin its offendin me...

4. i forgive ppl too easily... agree? oh well, that's me.. i juz cant stay angry at a person for a long time.. but thogh i forgive ppl easily, i dont forget easily... i'll try to make walls against da person so i wont get hurt again...

5. i love makin friends and i LOVE them too... no explanations needed here.. hahaha...

6. i love my family like a lot... last time, i simply think that my parents are over-controllin me and right now, im thankful for wat they did... mayb bcoz of da way they brought me up, which forms me like da way i am now...

7. love and relationship is something im not lucky in.. END OF STORY...

8. da one i love doesnt love me back and da one i dont love keeps comin to me... haiz~ nvr mind...

9. random facts: my phone credits are always loaded and im not afraid of da number "RM 0.00" when i check my balance.. which da reason y i call home like evryday n night.. hahaha...

10: my fav color is NOT pink though u c me wearin it like evrytime im out... i prefer colors that juz strike me out...

11. i love watchin make-up tutorials but cant apply it since i dont hav da equipments... am gonna get one when im 20... hahahaha.....

12. i love Taylor Swift.. her lyrics and her songs juz make me feel like she knows my story... and listenin to her songs make me calm.. =)

13. i love surprises and i love when ppl surprise me on my bday wit anythin.. no matter wit gifts or words, as long as i can feel da sincerity in it...

14. im not smart or genius... im juz a last-minute girl who gets lucky at times... ahahaha...

15. i love to eat and i dont mind gainin weight if its eatin wat my mom cook for me.. hahaha... after tat, den baru lose weight mah.. haha..

16. im a stingy person... i love spendin my money on things that i reli need and things that will reli catch my eyes and heart... haha.. but da funny thing is that i dont mind spendin money on food!

17. im a friendly person (isit?) and im approachable to evryone as long as tat person dont take advantage on me.. i hate and sincerely hate those who get reli close to me and step over my head da nxt day!

18. i prefer walkin den joggin... honestly... walking makes me feel relaxed and its another way to keep fit bah aside from joggin...

19. this is my first time bein in sabah and da funny thing is when i told my mum i wanna be on plane like my bro when he went overseas, im in one rite now evry yr.. hahaha....

20. this i somethin i nvr said but i love my siblings.. i love my bangak punya brother and my piggy punya sis.. its juz tat we show our love thru different ways which is thru quarrels and arguments.. haha...

21. i dont noe how to show my love and da worst thing is i done even noe how to be a gf when im gonna be one.. so to my future Prince Charming, u gotta lead me....

22. i talk a lot and somehow ppl thinks tats annoying.. but da funny thing is tat when i stop talkin or i keep quiet, ppl tot im sick/bad mood/PMS and many more... =.='"

23. though im da youngest in class and in da batch itself, ppl owes think im same age or older than them (refer to juniors)... they say im mature and think maturely... oh well, i'll juz accept it jak lah...

24. i never do household chores and tis means i cant cook and other stuffs which u consider as household chores... hahaha.. and tat was changed since i entered hostel... ahhaha...

25. im a weak n fragile person... meanin i can cry over a slightest matter though i dont do it in front of others.. im super sensitive and u wont wanna mess wit me when im in my worst days...

so yeah, that's da 25 facts bout me.. i think i shud make tis frequently.. oh well, another 25 random facts as in SUPER RANDOM about me will be posted in my 150th post.. so wait and make sure to check it out ya... =)

im me and u cant change tat...
Jenny~

child development~

One of da compulsory topic that we hav to take in our degree years is child development.. as in learning bout how a child grows and develops in different aspects, learn to think like a child so that we know and understand about how our future pupils think and understand on wat we're teachin and stuffs like that...

for me, tis is one of da most interesting topic coz its like studying psychology which is wat i wanted to take when i was in my secondary school.. haha.. and da funniest thing is that when we're learnin about how a child grows which is when the mother is pregnant till given birth and stuffs like that, its like preparing us to be a mom eh.. honestly! and that was fun... haha... somehow it do give me impacts on preparing myself to be a mom.. haha...

talkin about being a mom... ok, last time i think that im super young to talk about tis bcoz im not ready to be someone's wife and hav kids.. plus im super phobic in matters that could cause pain to me so yeah, i keep tellin myself that im still a teen (which i am still one)... ahha... but thrs one time it struck to me that i am a woman and eventually i hav to get married one day... u might find it funny but i wanna get married and fulfill my dream of havin my own family...

mayb bcoz of that, im tryin to start another new life where i hav to stop dependin on my frens and my family and try to do things on my own no matter im learnin it in an easy or hard way.. haha... and rite now, da most important course that i muz take is cooking.. like wat ppl say, to get a man's heart is thru his stomach... bwahaha... oh well, wish me luck ppl...

single is an option but love is a must~
Jenny~

fighting addiction!

haha.. da topic sounds as if its so serious rite... addiction happens to everyone and on many aspects.. some are addicted to shopping which we call da "shopaholics", and so forth.... im not addicted to shopping coz i got this thinking where i believe that i shud use my money on da stuffs where i think its worth it... clothes and accessories are worth it when they are super suit me... haha...

anywayz, i believe that im addicted to chips as in POTATO CHIPS! OMG!! and these days i have been reli fightin my temptation to grab one at da malls and start munching it... coz based on sem 3, chips are da main factor of me gainin weight reli fast... ok, 2nd factor is due to my sleepin habit... haha... so this year, i hav to stop myself from takin chips.. sound childish but come on lah, chips are like drugs to me.. once u start to munch it, u wont get over wit it.. u juz wan more, more and MORE!

im glad that i am able to fight my temptation for chips and thus controlling my weight and body shape... haha.. though there are still several problematic areas but i believe that i will get back my original size... i MUST get back to my original body shape... haha.... pray for me, readers... ^^

eat to live and not live to eat~
JEnny~

monday~

monday... monday is da day when i felt blue as in reli blue.. haha.. i mean honestly that is the oni day which i do not reli like unless that day will make me like go high and happy.. haha... da reason why i dont like monday especially bcoz its like da startin day of da week and im juz not prepared to start lesson again... hahaha.... and its da tiring day of the week... imagine class started at 730am till 6pm (though we can go back early at times which is also around 530pm).. haha... and da good thing is that at least i can feel how a degree student start his or her life in da institute or college or even da university...

but da bad thing is that i lost my nap especially my beauty sleep... haha.. i love as in LOVE to sleep a lot.. and losing one of my beauty sleep is so depressing... hahaha.... and i think i juz look like a zombie without my sleep... haha... ok, gotta cut tat habit down as in reli down coz im so gonna be a pig in da end of da day... so in conclusion, monday is simply another hard day to endure... haha..

sleep is my medicine~
Jenny~