24.03.2013

Jenny~

22.03.2013

today marks the first day on the march hols..
and it also marks to me the resting period for me before heading back to another bz life..
and guess waht,
i cancelled my plan to go home..
one part coz  wanna finish my work here before practicum starts..
and another one, im still holding on miracles..

sometimes, i feel like i still care too much..
and bcoz of that, i feel sad..
ppl tell me to take it slowly and soon, i'll be ok..
but for me, the process of being fully and completely ok seems so far..
when im in my friends' company, i dont think bout it and felt good..
but when im all alone like now, all the memories juz came to me and yeah, break my heart again..

so what should i do?
let time heal me?
i dont know.

Jenny~

19.03.2013

today was a turning point of my life once upon a time.
a time where my life went from being alone into being in a relationship..
a time where i experience what i have wished for all this while..
and a time in which i did not see the end..

but today, it became another turning point in my life..
a time where my life went back to the old and usual routine..
a time where i experienced what i saw ppl going thru with so much hardships and tears..
and a time in which i do not know when will be the end..

thanx for the memories that were given to me during this date, once upon a time..
thanx for everything..

Jenny~

17.03.2013

are u a fan of "How I Met Your Mother?" series?
if u watched that series, i bet u would remember this scene..
whr marshall and lily were in a pub talking to robin who just broke up with barney..
though robin looks cool and happy with her single life, they didnt know the truth in her..
so when marshall and lily were saying about how barney starts looking for another new girl and how he looks after his appearance and stuffs like that, robin could only kept a straight face..
and eventually she cried in a place where no one sees her..
because she doesnt want ppl to see how fragile and weak is she..
though she was no longer attached to barney, but all those words still hurts her..

and guess what, i was in robin' state yesterday..
some words or jokes still hurts, in case u dont know..
im not as strong like others who could accept everything and laugh it off..
those feelings are fading but it is still there..
and da scars will bleed again when it is touched...
and mayb because of that, i was like robin, looking for somewhere to hide all these tears away..
but eventually i found a better place to shed all those sadness..
nature has brought me to a better place..
listening to taylor swift and had a long walk made this heart feel better...

i guess im still weak and fragile..
Jenny~

14.03.2013

guess what, am blogging this post in the dark since its raining and my rumet is sleeping..
and why do i hav to post at such hours?
coz i dont have anymore time later to blog or even to take a breath...
i should be lying down on my bed and getting some rest before another round of exhaustion..
but am sitting here writing this post..

this post is to remind me,
how sensitive i am..
how fragile i am,
how weak i am,
how bad-tempered i am..

this week is really putting my mood into a challenging  one..
one that i cannot control myself..
everyone beside me seems so annoying..
and da ones who i wish to approach ignore me..
or make me felt even sensitive..
blame who?
blame me and my complicated mood.

nothing is gonna remain da same..
everything is bound to change..
but the only one who cant accept it is me..

moments i hate is the moments u make me feel like im da worst person in the world,,,
Jenny~

9.03.2013

so, since i havent been posting much of my current pics in this blog.. so these are me... always stay awesome no matter what you are doing! coz life is always awesome.. =)

the awesome me.. hahaha....

me and my bestie~~ =D

me in the early of the year.. =)

and us, the awesome team who gave all our best to win... and we're always be a winner..

Jenny~

8.03.2013

~Did you ever feel that what you think is right might be wrong?~

Got this from one of the blog that i have been following..
and somehow it reflects me...

i mean i was thinking of doing something which i myself dont know whether it is right or wrong..

after stumbling to his blog and got this statement, somehow it makes think back..

is it right to do it?

even if it feels like it is the right thing to do now, but will i regret of doing it later on?

will it make me feel awkward again when i meet him back?

so, somehow this guy lighten me up..

and there are several nice quotes (i think) that somehow makes me think a lot..

somehow u can say it inspires me in writing a post... haha...

one of it is this:

do you prefer to be happy all the time or is being sad a good experience?

so what do you think?

which do you prefer?

if its me, being happy all the time is my wish..

but without feeling sad and cry, i wouldnt know how life is truly is..

without the heartaches and scars, i wouldnt know how love is truly is..

so i guess being happy is important but maybe we should learn something from the sadness that we might feel at times..

maybe there is something good in it if we look at it in another perspectives, right?

credit to : http://apistakkisah.blogspot.com

Jenny~