achievement.

Today is the last day of February,
and I ended it with a good bang..
I was selected by my PK 1 to prepare my pupils for a poetry recitation competition,
and of course, i gave it a yellow light as I have never composed any poems,
what more, participating a poetry recitation competition by myself..
But, challenge is something that keeps us going,
and so, I took up the challenge..
And who knows, I was only given 5 days to train them and prepare them..
But due to CNY holidays, i slacked off and yeah, eventually finished my poem in two days,
looking at my poem, it felt....
funny.
weird.
simple.

so many thoughts came to my head,
is this ok?
will this be acceptable?
can we even get anything from this?
But nevertheless, i went with it,
train them, make them enjoy the poem, and most importantly, injecting them with confidence..
telling them to do their best, give all out and then, leave the stage with a contented feeling..
And seeing them perform so well in front makes me feel so proud of them,
and who could figure out?
Such a simple and last minute poem can garner third place!
this was my first achievement and just started my career at the right mark..
And because of this, I felt even motivated,
that no matter what or who, as long as we put our mind into it, 
everything will become a success.
And this is only the beginning.
A sweet beginning.

will be sharing my poem in this blog,
feel free to take and share it to others,
as i believe sharing is caring.
Jenny~

today

Studies and works..

Similarities?

they are both hectic, difficult, tiring and always make you wish for the another one..

Differences?

Studies seldom offer you opportunities,

but a job gives you ample of opportunities..

Only when you know how to grasp your chances,

or make yourself heard and known by the others..

So, yeah, I do love being a teacher,

But the part that i love the most is,

preparing them to go for competitions,

challenging them,

as well as challenging myself,

to see how far could i go and how much are my limits,

to see them feel proud of their achievements and learn to never give up,

Coz that is what my teachers made me into,

someone whose always proud of my achievements and never give up,

showing the others who I am and make myself heard...

This is what I want the most out of my career,

and to be given the chance to train pupils for competitions and preparing them,

makes me overjoyed,

makes me happy and in love with this career.

I guess to love something, we can't embrace all of it,

but to find that one thing we love in it, and embrace that point.

Jenny~

back to blogging

Hello world!
Omg, such a long time d not back to blogging..
Well, gotta blame me though..
Spoilt the second laptop d due to me over excessive usage of my laptop,
well, laptop has somehow became my source of life these days,
and not having one, makes me distract myself with my phone and food.
Well, nothing more interesting in this world aside from what's on the phone as well as food..

Anywayz, updates!
I got my posting few weeks ago and thank God!
I got in Miri, right at the centre of the city itself..
Pros?
Near to home, no ticket booking, no homesick, and for sure a lot of ways to upgrade myself..
Cons?
Hectic schedule, seriously big school with flights of stairs that I have to go up and down like almost everyday, hot, things are expensive.
But!
I am coping myself with the situations and currently, trying to adapt myself and making myself to love this place a little bit..

What else to update?
Relationship?
Totally zero. 

Ooo, resolutions!
Ok, my resolutions for 2015 should be:
1. Work hard, find ways to upgrade myself in terms of career.
2. Enjoy hard, find ways to enjoy this life in cheaper options.
3. Spoil hard, find ways to spoil myself at least once in four months in order to show appreciation to myself.
4. Last but not least, love. Love people around me and try to appreciate them in everything they do for me.

Jenny~

January 2015

It's almost middle of the month,
and here it goes.
First post of 2015.

Let's do some updates..
I have been spending a great time at home,
while waiting for job..
And the pro is i look better at home,
no white hairs,
no pimples,
no eyebags,
and most importantly, i feel better..

The con is basically i gained weight.
A LOT of weight..
And planning to lose them when i got my job..
And speaking of job, no announcement yet.
Still keeping my finger crossed..
Sigh..
I dread to start work but i also dread of spending my time at home too much..
It make me lazy, not thinking and also weight gaining..
Ooo, New year resolution?
Too relaxed to think about it..
I guess I will share on that on the next post before the end of this month..
I seriously hope..
At the meantime, keep my posting in prayers..
Please let me get posted at somewhere near with someone I knew and hopefully, somewhere I could meet "people"..
teehee..

Jenny~

The Longest Post (I think....)

Today is 31^st December 2014,

A date that signify the end of a good year, 2014,

That also signify a new beginning for me into a new life, new routine, new people, and maybe new feelings after all.

Throughout the year 2014, I went through a lot.

The good and bitter memories,

Building and breaking of strings,

Remembering and forgetting memories,

Meeting and avoiding certain people,

I went through turbulences of four major things, Experience. Memories. People. Feelings.

        Experience

-          Being in a campus for five and a half years, experience is the most valuable thing that I have gained. Able to learn new things, new skills, and to identify the most valuable potential that I have is something that I experienced in 2014. Able to look into me and my needs plus wants also help me to keep experiencing things and learn from them. These experiences brought me up and change me, my perspectives and my views about almost everything.

Memories

-          Memories. They never left actually. The laughter I had with my friends, my rumet and with people I hung out were the best memories. The tears I had all alone under my blankets were also the bitter memories that I still remember.  The fluttering feelings of seeing a good looking guys and the teases that arose from my friends still makes me feel fluttery and smiling. But the breaking feelings of seeing someone once so close now became a stranger also still breaks and left me wondering, where was that person I knew been? Meeting new people and became close makes me smile. But avoiding them when they became a stranger sometimes breaks me. But everything is what I call memories, where I can never dwell in it. Only for the sake of reminiscing it is already enough.

People

-          People. The good one. The bad ones. The funny ones. The pretending ones. The strong ones. The good but bad ones. The bad but good ones. And the ones I fall in and out. These people decorated my life in campus. And in 2014, I was friends with these people. But I realised, caring about these people doesn’t make me a saint. Doesn’t make me happy. But only create negative me when I don’t get the same thing in return. And thus, a new me was reborn. The one who protects herself a lot. The one who still could smile despite not having anyone beside her. The one who could walk alone in life. The one who still care but not getting the same things in return no longer hurt. That’s the one I am now slowly turning into.

Feelings

-          Feelings. Particularly love? Yes, 2014 was filled with love. Love to my friends, the church, and family. How bout particular one person? Yes, I do in 2014. Ending was? The train left without me knowing and I didn’t get to buy the entrance ticket. I guess I have to wait for another train at another station next year. Do I regret? I don’t. If I have bought the entrance ticket and head towards the train, I might get into another accident in which I don’t know if I still could walk after that. But what if taking the train would be my happy ending? It will never be a happy ending. Don’t ask me how I know. I just know.

To end this post, I wanna say Goodbye to my campus in Keningau. You have given me the most wonderful experiences, as well as the worst memories. But after all, you will always be remembered. And I will be back there, but this time, as an ex-student and as a visitor. Last but not least, I shall end this post by officially closing the chapters in 2014, and preparing myself for another fresh post in 2015.

Happy New Year 2015!  Signing off from 2014,

Jenny~

Ho...Ho...Ho...

From the title itself, 
all of you know the content would be about ....
CHRISTMAS!
Still not too late to wish all of you a Merry merry and blessed Christmas!
hehe..
Hope all you spent it either with your families or loved ones..
As for me, I spent it with my family despite several things happening at home..
But then again, with prayers and blessings from God, I am pretty sure things will be ok again.. hehe..
And I just opened my Facebook and yeah,
typical common notifications,
weddings!

Well, to those who got married,
I am so happy for you!
May your marriage be blessed and your love will last till death you apart.. 
And to those whose engaged,
get married fast!
Who knows what turbulence you two might face amidst all the busy preparations.. 
and to those whose still single like me,
love the status first and things will happen to fall in the right place..
like me!
I mean, i am loving the status and still awaiting for things to fall in the right place..

Anyways, just received notification about results!
Well, basically I have went through three BIG things this year which are namely:
1. SPP interview
2. Final exams
3. Posting (determine my future and future partner... hhaha on the latter part)

Therefore, the first result came out and ....
I passed!
The perfect Christmas gift ever..
So now, still keeping my finger-crossed for the next two.. May these two be another good surprises to end this year.. =)

Jenny~

11.11

Beautiful date indeed.
11.11.
And i just knew from facebook as well as google that is the Singles' Awareness Day..
And so, big shout-out to the singles including me,
HAPPY SINGLES' DAY to all the singles!
Have you given a gift for yourself?
Or maybe go pampering yourself all alone?
Or maybe have a fine dining on your own?
Well, if you haven't, I haven't too!
But i guess, the best gift to give myself is to be happy and blocking all negative thoughts from overpowering me.
hehe..

Anywayz, it has another meaning too.
I mean the date.
It also a day for the couples to profess their love to their "only one".
So, couples.
You know what you should do.
hehe..
So, I guess that's it..
For those married or in a relationship, hope you are happy with you "one and only one", not only today, but every single day of your life.
For the singles and seeking for someone right now and then, all the best and I pray for your success. Seek one not because he/she is handsome of pretty, but because of that spark!
And for myself, I wish myself to be happy regardless of my status and continuously pursue happiness in various forms of love. 

Jenny~