She once told me

She once told me,
to go out and meet people,
mix and mingle until I find the right one.

She once told me,
to find a man whose not only emotionally available but also, financially ready,
and that, I deserve a better life.

She once told me,
to find a man who can pamper with luxuries and the things I want,
and to feel complete with his love and materials.

She once told me,
to never give up,
and continue to pursue in my search.

After she got married,
she told me,
to continuously pray for the right man to appear,
that unexpected course will happen at the most unexpected time.

And she asked me,
3 questions.
And told me to go and search,
for the man that answers that 3 questions.

And I realised,
how foolish am I,
for always giving my time,
putting things in my priority list,
when I was never a priority.

How stuck I am in my fantasy world,
that if I just stay being myself,
someone would come along and accept me as I am.

How stuck I am in my dreamy world,
that unexpected would happen in a blink,
when I was not even doing anything.

And how stuck I am in my own imagination,
that giving all of me,
has never been sufficient to someone who never sees me as a whole.

It's time to change.
It's time to take the lest traveled road.
It's time to pack up and leave.
It's time for the next phase.

Jenny~