Reflection

31.12.2018.
It's finally new year eve, and tomorrow morning will be a new beginning for you and me.
2018 has been a great year filled with wonderful moments created and spent with people around me,
2018 is also a year where I experienced loss in many ways which in turn made me stronger.

I remembered entering 2018 with someone at my side,
thinking that he will remain at my side until the end of 2018,
but it didn't happen.
Things started to change between us,
we lost contact,
we stopped exchanging messages,
and we stopped caring for one another.
It hurts a lot to commit myself to this distance,
but putting him far away from my sight seems to be the best cure.
And today, we have already on our own paths of lives.

2018 was also the year where I worked really hard for my pupils as well as for my studies,
I spent a lot of my time in school,
trying to beat deadlines for school works and assignments,
and I eventually got addicted to it until it has now became my escape room.

2018 was also the year where I started my studies in my Masters.
And to be able to meet with new people,
creating new friendships with people who unknowingly became the closest people in my life,
I found back my happiness and smiles in them.
Memories were created with them and I am glad that 2018 has brought these new people into my life.

2018 was also the year where I lost my closest colleague.
A man who have been a source of comfort and laughter at school,
A man who works really hard for his family,
A man that I look up to as my ideal type of husband,
and a man who never fails to smile and say 'hi' whenever we walked passed one another.
My lunch partner every time we stayed back for work,
and my partner to tease around with.
I may lose him physically, but he will always be around deep in my memories.

2018 is also a year where my best friend got married.
The most important event for her as well as for myself,
to see her hitched with the man she truly loves,
and to be able to experience everlasting happiness is something that I have always wished to see one day,
and it finally came true.

It has been an awesome year,
being surrounded by my family and friends,
my amazing colleagues who never fail to be there when I need them the most,
for filling up the gaps in my heart and allowing me to be myself.
To my family, thank you for being at my side though we bicker a lot.
To my best friend, thank you for not leaving me even though you have changed status to madam.
To my new and old friends, thank you for being there to make me laugh at all times.
To my colleagues, thank you for being there especially when I needed to laugh or complain.
To the one who I have lost contact with, thank you for the past 3 years of laughter, tears, warmth and comfort.

Jenny~