busy, busy, busy!

ok, busy is da word to define my remaining months before goin back home... and y is tat... da list are as follows:

1. BIG camp where all of us hav to participate.. and its gonna be 4 days and 3 nights of da most grueling and strict camp.. in short, its so gonna be survival camp where i dont reli noe how am i gonna endure it...

2. MUET where learning, speaking, listenin and writing is put to test right after da camp... imagine speakin in english wit da person-in-charge after goin thru so many tests, activities and fatigue... im so afraid im gonna get low grades...

3. UAK aka UJIAn akhir kursus for my minors... gosh! and this means books, books and loads of books~~

4. assignments.... u think its over, but its not... its like nightmare haunting each and everyone of us.. how i wish i can finish my assignments in my dream and wakin up finding that everythin is done... gosh, tats so kiddish of me! haha...

and this make me realise i hav little time to spend on myself and also to my someone... and bcoz of that, i wanna dedicate a special post to my someone soon~ haha.. so check it out soon... haha.. and before i end this post, i wanna say im afraid, nervous and worry... im havin all kind of feelings right now.. excited bcoz am gonna be in camp which wil be so fun n memorable, worry coz i noe my stamina is weak, nervous coz am afraid i dont have time to cope evrythin, and all kinds of thoughts come to me... i hope i can cope all of this before i break down and start pourin evrythin thru tears again... but now i noe who to find when i nid to cry...

=i wanna get over all this a.s.a.p=
Jenny~

updates~

ok, lets start updating... juz finish SBE (School Based Experience) last week... a tiring, fun (i guess) and memorable times in skool... so da program is like a must to all of us and will be conducted once evry semester.. ok da fun part is tat when ur given the chance to interact wit kids and that they juz pay attention to u when u conduct activity... so when i was standing in front of the class, it feels like ur on stage again, juz different audience... da boring part is when u hav no classes to go and u juz sit in da cold office for da whole day, doin nth.. haha.. oh well, i guess da second SBE will be done better...

next, like wat i posted previously... yes, im in love.. and im happy to be in love.. im not posting this to make ppl jealous or to show off that im in love... like wat i say, this is for sharing.. so if u dont wanna read this, leave... anywayz, yes im in love wit a guy whom i nvr thought i would fall for.. and da feeling is great.. and im happy to be in love wit him.. he is not perfect, handsome or anything.. but it my heart, he is always perfect and handsome.. hihi.... i don noe whether he will read this post, but if he's readin this, i wanna say, "me love u!"

furthermore, lotsa camps are comin around and activities and tests... ooo, am freaking out... coz im afraid im gonna break down again.. and i dont wanna procrastinate but it seems like i wanna juz get my mind off from work for a little while... oh well, i cant avoid work so yeah, hav to endure it... and right now, i cant wait to get some time off and spend it wit my loved one... haha..

last but not least, i love my life now... and i realise the best thing being a single once and da amazing feeling being loved.... i guess im juz lucky to find someone who loves me juz the way i am... thanx for da love! <3

=me love u!=
Jenny~

now.

Now, im able to say im in love...

=love without reasons are the most beautiful ones=
Jenny~

love story~

once upon a time, there is a girl named samantha... she never fell in love before but had went through several failed crushes... and tats da point when she prefer being single than being in any relationship.. she thinks that couple is trouble... and she thinks single is da best option... but inside, she longs for someone who juz love her for who she is and not bcoz of her appearance and stuffs like that... and she thought she wouldnt find someone like that in her life...

until a guy entered her life... she thought mayb this is the one.. he was super nice wit her... and it lasted for a period of life... she though she had fallen for him bcoz of his character and sweet words.. and she reli thought she will be able to find the right one for her... but when da truth was revealed, she was devastated again... a guy that been her best friend and a place where she confided her problems turn away from her when she is not needed.. and this again make her feel difficult and gave up on da chances to fall in love again... she thought every guy she met had made her like a pillow, hugged when needed and thrown aside when not needed...

but another guy entered her life.. and she didnt care much of him... since she believed that same thing will happen again.. but da funny part is that this guy seems like he doesnt care of whatever that is goin around him.. and she loves to be with him.. though his words are irritating but da way he says it make her laugh and feel enjoyable whenever he's there.. and he will always be at the spot where she can see him and laugh at his jokes.... and they maintained contact... textin one another and lookin after one another esp when she is sad and angry.... and she never knew she hav developed a feeling to him.. she isnt dare to confirm that feeling but then, da happiest day came..

he came with her favourite gift and presented her wit another surprise.. when she saw it a t first, she didnt understand what it is all about.. but soon, she knew it.. she IS in love wit this guy... and eventually, the guy confessed to her and they are now in a relationship... an unofficial one not bcoz she don wan anyone to know or she is ashamed about it.. she juz wanna have a peaceful relationship and that a lasting one.. coz she know that if she is heartbroken this time, she wouldnt be able to regain her heart again... but right now, she is simply enjoyin da feeling of being loved, cared and most important, to be heard and not be regarded as another pillow.... dont ask her why she chose him coz she simply don hav any reasons... and im praying that her relationship will stay long with this man she love deeply...

=samantha will owes love this guy=
Jenny

My hero~

me n daddy (2009)

Mariah Carey - hero

Hmm
There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

Oh oooh
Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away, hey yeah
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way
Mhhh
That a hero lies in
You

~this song is dedicated to my daddy who has been a hero to me since i was small and till now.. though he seldom shows his love to us but i know deep inside, he has been striving so hard in order to keep us educated and to help us build a brighter future... i love my daddy a lot and am thankful that I have my daddy with me... God bless my daddy...

=i love my daddy=
Jenny~

love.

I love this keychain!

=surprises doesnt have to come out big n expensive=
Jenny~

i turn to you.

"I turn to You" - Christina Aguilera

When I'm lost in the rain,
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way.
And when I'm scared,
And losing ground,
When my world is going crazy,
You can turn it all around.
And when I'm down you're there
pushing me to the top, girl.
You're always there,
giving me all you've got.

For a shield from the storm,
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you.
For the strength to be strong,
For the will to carry on
For everything you do,
for everything that's true

When I lose the will to win,
I just reach for you and
I can reach the sky again.
I can do anything
'Cause your love is so amazing,
'Cause your love inspires me.
And when I need a friend,
You're always on my side
Giving me faith
that gets me through the night.


For the arms to be my shelter
through all the rain,
For truth that will never change,
For someone to lean on
For a heart I can rely on through anything,
For that one who I can run to...

a song that caught my heart tonite with its meaningful lyrics and i dedicate this song to my friends whom have protected me and to my dearest parents for givin me faith and trust... and this song is dedicated to u~
=i hope u will always be there for me=
Jenny~