Today.
She sat at her carriage,
drinking her favourite glass of latte,
reading her favourite novel,
and watching people going up and down the train at every stop.
Today,
she felt a little quiet in her carriage.
She looked around,
and realised that there were only one or two passengers in her carriage.
Most of them have went down at their own destinations,
and she is still travelling in her own carriage.
As the train reaches a stop,
she looked outside and saw someone familiar.
It was her friend.
He smiled at her and waved,
and she smiled back and waved back.
A simple act have made her feel so warm.
And she can't wait to see him again at the next stop soon.
And I can't wait to know how things would develop for her too!
Jenny~
25.11.2016.
Today marks the last day of school,
as well as the beginning of a wonderful upcoming end-of-the-year holidays!
Time indeed has passed by super fast,
and we have now reached November.
So many things have happened,
good ones and bad ones.
But in this post, let's look at all the good ones first.
Career.
UPSR results were out few days ago,
and I was glad that I have achieved my target for my class.
However, it is never the number of A's that I look forward,
but for my pupils' improvement in their academics and attitudes.
To be able to see them getting a C from the forever-D,
Seeing their tears of joy for getting really good results in subjects that they never knew they could do it,
those are what I was looking forward.
And thanks be to God, all this came true.
To my pupils, you never know how proud I was when I saw how all of you worked so hard and finally, achieved what you have worked for.
Friendship.
Along the year, I have met a lot of new people.
Built new friendships with people.
And met really nice people along the way.
And these are the people who put a smile on my face,
despite how difficult things are sometimes.
This has been a tough and tiring year,
but also a really happy and memorable year for me.
Despite all the things that have happened,
I am still strong and ready to take up challenges.
But for the meantime, I think it is indeed the time.
Time to get some quality rest,
away from workloads,
and more time to embrace and love myself more.
Therefore, happy holidays!
Jenny~
Today marks the last day of school,
as well as the beginning of a wonderful upcoming end-of-the-year holidays!
Time indeed has passed by super fast,
and we have now reached November.
So many things have happened,
good ones and bad ones.
But in this post, let's look at all the good ones first.
Career.
UPSR results were out few days ago,
and I was glad that I have achieved my target for my class.
However, it is never the number of A's that I look forward,
but for my pupils' improvement in their academics and attitudes.
To be able to see them getting a C from the forever-D,
Seeing their tears of joy for getting really good results in subjects that they never knew they could do it,
those are what I was looking forward.
And thanks be to God, all this came true.
To my pupils, you never know how proud I was when I saw how all of you worked so hard and finally, achieved what you have worked for.
Friendship.
Along the year, I have met a lot of new people.
Built new friendships with people.
And met really nice people along the way.
And these are the people who put a smile on my face,
despite how difficult things are sometimes.
This has been a tough and tiring year,
but also a really happy and memorable year for me.
Despite all the things that have happened,
I am still strong and ready to take up challenges.
But for the meantime, I think it is indeed the time.
Time to get some quality rest,
away from workloads,
and more time to embrace and love myself more.
Therefore, happy holidays!
Jenny~
Last night was a memorable night for her.
She hasn't done this for quite a while,
and being able to got through it one more time,
made her heart skip a beat.
She remembered how afraid was her when he invited her over,
going off the carriage even for one night made her nervous,
but she decided to do it.
And she didn't regret it at all.
All the long talks,
laughing and humming to the same songs,
eating and even got into a minor accident,
made her felt so different.
She couldn't describe this feeling,
nor can she tell anyone about it.
But it was indeed a memorable night for her,
she never knew she would be able to do such things anymore.
But she reminds herself,
not to overthink,
not to go high up,
not to get pumped up,
because things might not be what she think it is.
For the meantime,
she went back to the train,
waved and smiled,
and she continued her journey,
with a little prayer,
that this would happen for
one more night.
Jenny~
She hasn't done this for quite a while,
and being able to got through it one more time,
made her heart skip a beat.
She remembered how afraid was her when he invited her over,
going off the carriage even for one night made her nervous,
but she decided to do it.
And she didn't regret it at all.
All the long talks,
laughing and humming to the same songs,
eating and even got into a minor accident,
made her felt so different.
She couldn't describe this feeling,
nor can she tell anyone about it.
But it was indeed a memorable night for her,
she never knew she would be able to do such things anymore.
But she reminds herself,
not to overthink,
not to go high up,
not to get pumped up,
because things might not be what she think it is.
For the meantime,
she went back to the train,
waved and smiled,
and she continued her journey,
with a little prayer,
that this would happen for
one more night.
Jenny~
This is a late post about 11.11,
Singles' Awareness Day.
Being single for almost 5 years now,
though its been a while,
but there is this emptiness that I can still feel it from time to time.
Don't worry,
I don't reminisce the one who broke my heart,
but more of the time when my heart was a whole.
I am grateful that along the way,
I met so many supportive friends,
who not only comforted me,
but also made me forget about the pain of being single.
Whom opened my eyes to see a new perspective in relationship,
and those who have always there to fill in the gaps in my broken heart.
I am also extremely grateful to my family members,
though they never show it especially my parents,
but in a way or another,
they have stood there for me and always remind me that,
someone would come when the time is here.
And I hold on strong to this.
I believe that he is here.
I believe that he is watching over me.
I believe that he is caring to me.
And I believe that,
he will stand beside me,
under the sunshine and rain,
and will love me for the way I am,
like how I would also love him for the way he is.
Jenny~
Today, there were more crowds than before in the train,
she looked around and wondered to herself,
why are there so many people compared to the other days.
She asked her friend about it,
and he told her about a feast that is going on in the next station.
Feeling excited,
she asked why didn't he go to the feast as well,
and he told her that his presence in the feast wouldn't make any differences.
As they were approaching the next station,
she saw familiar faces and decorations.
And she remembered that she had such a celebration too last year.
She went off the station,
looking around and trying to reminisce back her memories in the previous feast.
She turned back and she saw a familiar back,
it was the guy who broke her heart few years ago,
and he was still with the girl that was supposed to be a plaster.
I guess the "plaster" eventually became a part of him already.
She thought she would feel sad or angry all over again,
but instead, she smiled and walked back to her train carriage,
she didn't feel any pain or anger anymore,
it was indeed in the past.
But she told herself again,
not to put high hopes on people's promises,
not to put 100% trust on people's "I won't",
and always trust your own feelings.
As the train started moving, her friend came to the train,
she smiled and continued her journey with this friend,
without looking back for the first time.
Jenny~
she looked around and wondered to herself,
why are there so many people compared to the other days.
She asked her friend about it,
and he told her about a feast that is going on in the next station.
Feeling excited,
she asked why didn't he go to the feast as well,
and he told her that his presence in the feast wouldn't make any differences.
As they were approaching the next station,
she saw familiar faces and decorations.
And she remembered that she had such a celebration too last year.
She went off the station,
looking around and trying to reminisce back her memories in the previous feast.
She turned back and she saw a familiar back,
it was the guy who broke her heart few years ago,
and he was still with the girl that was supposed to be a plaster.
I guess the "plaster" eventually became a part of him already.
She thought she would feel sad or angry all over again,
but instead, she smiled and walked back to her train carriage,
she didn't feel any pain or anger anymore,
it was indeed in the past.
But she told herself again,
not to put high hopes on people's promises,
not to put 100% trust on people's "I won't",
and always trust your own feelings.
As the train started moving, her friend came to the train,
she smiled and continued her journey with this friend,
without looking back for the first time.
Jenny~
Sometimes, I wish my life is like living in a snowball.
Where things stay the same.
It is scary seeing things around me,
people around me,
the environment around me,
change in an overnight.
Though I remember telling myself that change is indeed good,
but sometimes, I can't accept overnight changes.
It made me think,
was it my fault?
or was it not my fault?
People say, ask and you will be given the truth.
But I couldn't find the courage to do that anymore.
The last time I did that,
I ended up in pieces.
November is always like this.
Surrounding me in a mixed feelings vibe.
Making me confused and broken inside.
It isn't easy for me to accept overnight changes.
Particularly when it is amongst people around me.
Enlighten me,
please.
Jenny~
It's November.
November is a month that is always filled with mixed feelings.
Happy because it signifies almost the end of the year,
as well as time to get ready for a long holiday at my secret hideout.
But it is also quite a sad month,
as this is the month where my Year 6 pupils would be getting ready to leave,
and embark on their another new adventure.
Anxious,
as UPSR results are gonna be out soon,
and I can't wait to see how my pupils have been doing for the exam,
though of course no high hopes.
November is also a month that reminds me of things that shouldn't be reminded.
Sometimes I feel weird.
Happy things that happened to me,
when being shared to family and friends,
will tend to cease.
It feels like whenever I shared happy things with people,
happy things stopped happening.
And it made me feel a little fed up,
made me feel like I should just stop making myself over excited or happy,
because it will be taken away or disappear into the air when I start to indulge in it.
Sometimes, I just wish.
Wish that it would not cease,
wish that it would continue as how it has been happening,
but who am I to control it.
=sigh=
Jenny~
November is a month that is always filled with mixed feelings.
Happy because it signifies almost the end of the year,
as well as time to get ready for a long holiday at my secret hideout.
But it is also quite a sad month,
as this is the month where my Year 6 pupils would be getting ready to leave,
and embark on their another new adventure.
Anxious,
as UPSR results are gonna be out soon,
and I can't wait to see how my pupils have been doing for the exam,
though of course no high hopes.
November is also a month that reminds me of things that shouldn't be reminded.
Sometimes I feel weird.
Happy things that happened to me,
when being shared to family and friends,
will tend to cease.
It feels like whenever I shared happy things with people,
happy things stopped happening.
And it made me feel a little fed up,
made me feel like I should just stop making myself over excited or happy,
because it will be taken away or disappear into the air when I start to indulge in it.
Sometimes, I just wish.
Wish that it would not cease,
wish that it would continue as how it has been happening,
but who am I to control it.
=sigh=
Jenny~
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