today.

holidays make me learn a lot.
learn to cook.
learn to sew and making sewing as another method for me to relax.
and learn to face da reality.
reality is difficult to face and rather live in lies..
but its best facing da reality..
at least we know what we should do when we face such things again..
well, im not pro at facin reality.
but at least im tryin.

Jenny~

stronger.

i became stronger.

things became what we have expected.

and i feel much better.

Jenny~

i dont care.

received a message that shocked me this morning..
i knew its gonna happen but not this soon...
and i dont wanna give up...
so much memories, love and acts that keep repeating in my head..
though i know why but i just couldnt face da reality..
i rather stay in lies than breaking out and feel da pain..

i've felt it once,
i never thought i would feel it twice..
no matter how much pain it puts me through,
i still wanna hold on to this..
i dont care what is da future..
i mean who knows da future, right?
coz i still wanna be in this...

we went thru this once,
and im putting all my hopes, prayers to God
that He will allow us to go thru this once more..
by da time, future comes knockin my door,
and it still remains da same,
den i would accept it..
but for now,
pls stay this way..

Jenny~

change?

back home.

full relaxation.

gain weight. =.="'

sigh..

i hate gaining weights..

but i love food..

and its so tempting...

i know, ppl say i should control my food intake,

or go for a walk and exercise..

but this laziness is killing me..

ahhaha..

well, started zumba-ing for a better me after holidays..

and start to change my hairstyle which might takes up da whole holidays..

not much, but juz a bit..

i guess change is good for me..

not that i faces any problems but at times, changes will make me feel much more confident..

^^

Jenny~

finally.

finally, da day that i anticipates the most..
HOLIDAYS~~~~
yeah, it's here and will be off for about one and a half month...
am anticipating what am i gonna be doing during thee holidays..
hehe...

btw, am so thankful to all my friends who went to kk together...
though we din walk together, but we did spend time talking all nite right?
P.S. for the RM 7.80 slice of cake will be paid soon.. hehe.. (u know what im talkin right?)
and i was so happy that my piggy was thr!
i mean last yr he directly went back...
but this time, he actually willing to go KK early and spent time with me thr...
aaawww, he's sweet...
love u piggy~

hehe..
well, this blog will be updated constantly with pics and feelings..
but overall,
i wanna wish everyone Happy Holidays and stay tuned to my latest posts ya..

Jenny~

funny~

for those whose always keep updated with my blog for da past 2 years (not including this year), i'm sure u would remember a post where i actually list down the type of guy i want to be my future partner right? well, i stumbled back to the post and guess what, let's see if my piggy actually fit in the list that i have made 2 years ago.. ehehe.. this is gonna be so funny~

1. older than me at least a few years lah.. but not more than 10 yrs....
- din went correctly.. my pig is at the same age with me and im older that him a few months.. ahaha....

2. mature and able to think independently (as in having their own principles)
- my pig? well, i guess so... i mean mayb in certain conditions? haha...

3. taller than me (MUST!)
- yeah, he's taller than me but if i wore high heels, i think we're at the same height or i might be taller? hahaha...

4. looks come second lah.. i mean at least he muz have a kind of looks that pleases my eyes.. haha..
- oh yeah, my pig isnt reli good-looking.. but at least he's pleasing for me.. haha...

5. caring and loving...
- yeah, total agree though he seldom shows it.. ehhe.. i can feel it.. =)

6. has those kinds of eyes and smiles that can make me smile..
- haha... this one makes me laugh... omg~ he doesnt have, i think.. someone else have it. hahaha..

7. able to entertain me when im bored
- yeah, he'll crack up some stupid jokes and eventually i laughed.. haha..


8. loves to make me laugh
- naaa, seldom... coz i owes make myself laugh with my thoughts and my naiveness hahaha..

9. confident with himself and not the type tats over-possessive
- yeah, he's super not over-possessive.. i mean he doesnt think of me like im his woman or something.. haha...

10. gives me freedom when i needed one as in i dont have to be 24 hrs stickin to him...
- yeah, agree... im da one who owes stick to him when thrs time.. ahha...

11. loves me as much as i do
- haha.. i guess so?

12. able to make me laugh when i cry
- haha.. nope, he'll juz look at me when i cry... haha...

13. always at my side when i needed him at all times
- i guess so, but at some point in life, i'll lean to my best friend.. =)

14. broad shouldered (reason: so tat i can lean on his shoulder whenever i want)
- hahaha... does he? i guess so. i mean enuf for me to lean on his shoulder when i want to.. hehehe..

15. someone who wud give me a peck on the forehead
- haha... yeah.. =)

16: someone who would giv me free hugs when i needed one
- haha.. always~ but of course not in public.. =)

17. and a guy who can make me feel safe and protected
- yeah, though he doesnt show it, ut i feel safe with him.. i mean he knows when i need him.. hehe..

so yeah, looking back to the list, some were achieved while some are not achieved.. i guess what's important is we look after one another care about one another and make sure our love stay strong.. though he doesnt fit in all the aspects that i have mentioned in the past, but right now he's still da person i held strongly in this relationship.. hehe... aaawww, am is sweet? haha...

Jenny~

happy.

tomorrow's last paper..
and i cant wait to finish it...
finish up da last paper, get some rest mentally, and start packing for home..
check in and then fly home..
and enjoy my long vacation.. hehe...
and of course im gonna miss everyone includin my pig~ hehe..

Jenny~

wrong?

i know i should be focusing on exams now..
and i know i should be worries of my own exams..
but i am also worried for yours too..
whether u need any help or maybe u dont understand something, and i can help..
so its wrong if i do worry bout u is it?
so its unnecessary for me to worry about u is it?

i worry because i care.
Jenny~

exams n u.

exams were progressing well like i expected...
not that i did it really well, but one paper after another like what we all expected..
dont ask me how was it..
i myself dont know how i did..
all i could do is to leave it to those who are responsible and pray for the best..

well, thrs two more papers to go..
and yeah, am reli excited to get over those two papers...
why? nt that i am prepared but i just wanna go home..
hehe...

talkin bout u.
i knew im gonna mention u again after all those past posts..
but seriously, i dont even wanna see u..
seeing u gives me nightmares..
seeing u reminds me of those memories..
and i wanna forget those memories...

coz i moved on.
and i dont want those past memories tying me down.

Jenny~