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I remember my previous birthdays were always celebrated alone at home with my own home-cooked food and a slice of cake that I bought for myself.

I remember the happiest day was 5 years ago when my pupils made a surprise party for me,

and showered me with lots of love and gifts too.

After that, it was a mundane celebration where I celebrated by having lunch with my colleagues,

and then home alone on that day.

I remember the birthday which was celebrated on top of the hill, waiting for sunset but ended up a rainy day,

I thought that would be the last thing someone would ever do for me,

and that my upcoming birthdays would be celebrated with me, myself and I.

Years passed by and as I expected the same thing to happen again this year,

it didn't.

Life is always filled with unexpected surprises and twists.

And yes, I agree.

This year, I am blessed with lovely birthday wishes from colleagues and friends from every part of the country.

This year, I received 3 cakes from my best friend, boyfriend and my kids.

This year, I received my first bouquet of flowers and a tiny pot of flowers which are my favourite kinds.

This year, I was able to not cook for myself and served with yummy food despite getting take away due to Covid.

This year, I received my very first handwritten letter from my other half.

And this year, my birthday has been the happiest day of my life,

and all thanks to those who celebrated with me indirectly and directly.

To my best friend,

thank you for the cake, baby breath and the video despite how it showed my past pictures. 

To my colleagues and friends from all over the country,

thank you for remembering and blessing me with lovely wishes.

To my parents,

thank you for giving birth to me into this world despite how you always told me the story of me not wanting to come out to the world as easily as you always expect it to be.

and to my other half,

thank you for making me the happiest woman that night with all your lovely gifts, food, cupcakes,

and most important, your attention and time for me.

You do not know how much it meant for me when you gave me all your attention and time.

Thank you love.

Jenny~

Update.

Hello April.

My favourite month is already here and it has started in a good way.

School has been reopened despite the pandemic,

and though I was worried of how to handle and meet my pupils at this time,

I am glad that I was able to stand in a classroom filled with my favourite people,

and do my work like how I have always enjoyed it.

Even though it was tiring waking up early in the morning,

the thought of seeing those excited faces and hearing their laughter in the class,

those are the things that kept me wanting to do more for them even though in a limited situation.

Relationship has been going well.

Despite the days we couldn't meet due to us being close contacts or casual contacts of an infected person,

we tried our best to be there for each other through text messages and phone calls,

and it helped us to pull through this situation together.

And I am thankful that everyone who was involved were tested negative,

and that both of us are able to meet again soon.

Do pray for us that everything is going to be okay for us soon.

Last but not least, I have started and ended my drama session despite taking such a long time to do so.

It was a great drama and I cried a lot at most of the scenes.

And somehow, I felt that instead of crying at love scenes, 

I cried more when it comes to family scenes or when it was about just being there for each other.

Those are the scenes that somehow tug my heartstring and make me felt touched.

For the times when I was lonely,

For the times when I wished someone was beside me,

to comfort me, to make me laugh, to listen to me and to be there when I cry,

those were the times where the feelings were akin to how the characters in there must have felt.

Therefore, I thank God for that particular moment,

the moment where I coincidentally met you. 

Here is a quote that I fell in love to in the drama,

a quote that I could relate to so much,

a quote that reminds me that no matter how much fear or doubt I had in me,

it will always take me to my destination when time comes.

"I got on the wrong train, and that very train brought me here. 

It brought me to the place I've yearned to come every morning and night. 

It brought me to my destination."-CLOY-

Jenny~

09.04.2021

Our second month.

Grateful to be in love and be loved.

To more days being together,

To more days listening and comforting each other,

To more days being in each other's presence despite the obstacles faced during this pandemic,

To more days eating together,

To more days laughing together,

To more days disturbing and making fun of each other,

To more days of sharing "common" knowledge with each other,

To more days to lying next to each other and embracing each other while feeling warm, 

and to more days enjoying each minute as we are close to one another.

Despite the constant fear of this pandemic and the risks it might pose to both of us,

I thank God each day for His protection on both of us and people around us.

Thank you for being close to my heart at all times.

Jenny~