Hate me or love me

 When I was in my twenties, 

I found myself wanting to be liked by everyone,

and would always worry and felt uneasy whenever I feel that someone didn't like me,

or give the cold shoulders.

I would sacrifice so much to please others,

and I would always think of what I did or said that might have made them despise me.

And it was tiring.

Now, entering the world of 30s,

I started to not give a damn about it.

People have their rights to hate me,

talk about me behind my backs,

despise me for my relationship with the higher authorities and admins,

but they would never know the real thing that is happening to me,

they would never know the great deal of maintaining these good rapport with them,

and they would never know the things that I have been doing to make their lives easier.

And because I don't give a damn about the cold shoulders I got,

the stares that people give to me,

the negative vibe that they exude around me,

I decided to look past those haters,

and work hard for my own benefits.

I decided to ignore the naysayers,

and only focus on how to be better in my work.

To those who hates or dislikes me,

haters gonna hate,

lovers gonna love,

I don't need your approval to thrive in this world.

Jenny~

Starting the 3-series

 Today marks the end of my 2-series journey and a new beginning with the number 3 in front of my age.

Reflecting back on my 20s definitely gives me a lot of mixed feelings,

beginning my early 20s in IPG and surrounded by lovely friends who had filled my days with love and joy,

entering mid-life crisis at the age of 25 with internal and external conflicts,

meeting the supposedly right guy which ended up in the worst heartbreak ever,

thinking that meeting the right colleagues and forming strong bonds would help in my career ended up being used and treated coldly for no apparent reason,

having the worst anxiety and panic attacks,

and struggling to pull through each day without crying myself to sleep every night.

And thank God, late 20s were the phase when I finally got over all the crisis and spent each year meaningfully in one way or another,

going for my Masters,

flying off for courses and to fulfill work obligations which earned me free trips and hotels,

enjoying food like there was no tomorrow until I reached the ultimate weight of 72kg, 

and not forgetting, the challenge of losing weight to be in the best shape for my friend's wedding,

with the main goal of scoring a man which I finally did,

and meeting my other half and spending my 29th birthday with the amazing partner by my side.

Life in 20s definitely was a rollercoaster,

and I am thankful to have rode on that rollercoaster that brought me mixed feelings every time I went through each and every post I wrote,

It definitely taught me a lot,

and it definitely help to shape the person I am right now.

Time to step into a new beginning,

and time to start a brand new day being in the 3-series.

May good things come in my way,

may more awesome adventures come in my sight,

and may more happy things coming in my life.

Let's do this!

Jenny.