Christmas

Christmas is two days away,
and I can feel the spirit of Christmas in malls, TV as well as in most of my social medias.
As for me, 
Christmas is the same every year.
Celebrating it in the church with others, having a simple dinner with family and I guess that's it.
The way of celebrating it has became the same every year.
However, as I grow more mature,
I learnt that it's not about the materials,
or the decorations,
or the food at the table that matters the most.

What matters the most,
is with who we are celebrating it.
As for me, I am lucky I am celebrating it with my family every year.
Celebrating it with my loved ones are the most important to me,
though at times, I do hope that I could celebrate it differently.
But no matter what, I wanna wish everyone whose reading it a blessed Christmas!
May this Christmas makes all your wishes come true!

And as for me,
my personal Christmas wish list?
Peace and happiness for my family and closest friends,
and someone to celebrate the future Christmases. ^^

Jenny~

Letter

Today,
as she sat on her couch,
staring outside the window as usual,
a man came and passed her a rose and a letter,
telling her that it is from someone she knows.

Feeling curious, 
she opened the letter and it was from the person she knows,
her heart flutters reading the letter,
and smiled all the way,
until she read the last line of the letter.

She doesn't understand it,
she doesn't know how to react to an ambiguous line,
she doesn't know whether she should be happy with it,
or should she remain poker face with it,
she quickly wrote a reply,
asking for a clarification and asked the man to deliver it to him.

And she waits,
and waits.
At first, she was trembling with excitement,
thinking that finally, she could get off this carriage.
But then, she started to have mixed feelings.
What if all of this is just simply a joke?
What if the person she knows was just simply playing around with her?
What if it wasn't the truth and he is simply referring to other people?

For the first time,
she couldn't wait to get off at the next stop to meet him.
To finally hear the truth,
that could either break her heart one more time,
or bring her to the everlasting freedom which she was eager to feel again.

Jenny~

December

Holidays have been monotonous so far,
which leads to my lack of updates in my blog these days.
But December is here,
and it is indeed some time to update here and there a bit.

Career is put into a halt during the holidays.
It feels different not waking up in the early morning, preparing for work,
meeting colleagues, meeting kids for classes and juggling with various needs.
It feels nice not having to wake up early in the morning and dealing with works,
but I do miss all the rush and workloads,
it somehow takes my mind off from stuffs that I shouldn't be overthinking.

Relationship is a total zero if it was with a guy.
Relationship is a total mess if if it's related to work.
Well, the conclusion here is, never be too nice and never treat what other people says about you as the true you.
No one knows me better than I do,
and most importantly, I am not afraid to receive comments and criticisms,
as long as it is based on facts.

Nevertheless,
11 more days to Christmas,
and 2 more weeks to another brand new year!
And will be updating this blog with my personal Christmas wish list,
reflecting on this year's resolution,
and will be posting up new resolutions for next year!
Till then.

Jenny~

Quiet

Today.
She sat at her carriage, 
drinking her favourite glass of latte,
reading her favourite novel,
and watching people going up and down the train at every stop.

Today,
she felt a little quiet in her carriage.
She looked around,
and realised that there were only one or two passengers in her carriage.
Most of them have went down at their own destinations,
and she is still travelling in her own carriage.

As the train reaches a stop,
she looked outside and saw someone familiar.
It was her friend.
He smiled at her and waved,
and she smiled back and waved back.
A simple act have made her feel so warm.
And she can't wait to see him again at the next stop soon.
And I can't wait to know how things would develop for her too!

Jenny~

Holidays!

25.11.2016.
Today marks the last day of school,
as well as the beginning of a wonderful upcoming end-of-the-year holidays!
Time indeed has passed by super fast,
and we have now reached November.
So many things have happened,
good ones and bad ones.
But in this post, let's look at all the good ones first.

Career.
UPSR results were out few days ago,
and I was glad that I have achieved my target for my class.
However, it is never the number of A's that I look forward,
but for my pupils' improvement in their academics and attitudes.
To be able to see them getting a C from the forever-D,
Seeing their tears of joy for getting really good results in subjects that they never knew they could do it,
those are what I was looking forward.
And thanks be to God, all this came true.
To my pupils, you never know how proud I was when I saw how all of you worked so hard and finally, achieved what you have worked for.

Friendship.
Along the year, I have met a lot of new people.
Built new friendships with people.
And met really nice people along the way.
And these are the people who put a smile on my face,
despite how difficult things are sometimes.

This has been a tough and tiring year,
but also a really happy and memorable year for me.
Despite all the things that have happened,
I am still strong and ready to take up challenges.
But for the meantime, I think it is indeed the time.
Time to get some quality rest,
away from workloads,
and more time to embrace and love myself more.
Therefore, happy holidays! 

Jenny~

Last night

Last night was a memorable night for her.
She hasn't done this for quite a while,
and being able to got through it one more time,
made her heart skip a beat.

She remembered how afraid was her when he invited her over,
going off the carriage even for one night made her nervous,
but she decided to do it.
And she didn't regret it at all.
All the long talks,
laughing and humming to the same songs,
eating and even got into a minor accident,
made her felt so different.

She couldn't describe this feeling,
nor can she tell anyone about it.
But it was indeed a memorable night for her,
she never knew she would be able to do such things anymore.
But she reminds herself,
not to overthink,
not to go high up,
not to get pumped up,
because things might not be what she think it is.

For the meantime,
she went back to the train,
waved and smiled,
and she continued her journey,
with a little prayer,
that this would happen for
one more night.

Jenny~

Late post.

This is a late post about 11.11,
Singles' Awareness Day.
Being single for almost 5 years now,
though its been a while,
but there is this emptiness that I can still feel it from time to time.
Don't worry,
I don't reminisce the one who broke my heart,
but more of the time when my heart was a whole.

I am grateful that along the way,
I met so many supportive friends,
who not only comforted me,
but also made me forget about the pain of being single.
Whom opened my eyes to see a new perspective in relationship,
and those who have always there to fill in the gaps in my broken heart.

I am also extremely grateful to my family members,
though they never show it especially my parents,
but in a way or another,
they have stood there for me and always remind me that,
someone would come when the time is here.
And I hold on strong to this.

I believe that he is here.
I believe that he is watching over me.
I believe that he is caring to me.
And I believe that,
he will stand beside me,
under the sunshine and rain,
and will love me for the way I am,
like how I would also love him for the way he is.

Jenny~