Resolutions: Then and Now.

Resolutions.
I remembered having set some resolutions in 2019.
Let's recap and reflect on those goals that I have set in 2019.

1. To work hard in both my career and studies.
= Well, I achieved this goal for sure. 2019 was the year where I worked my ass off in both career and my studies. I remembered how fulfilling and tiring it was at the same time trying to balance both my career and studies at the same time. There were times when I had meltdown as I was contemplating and started to regret on the amount of workloads that I have brought upon to myself. But at the end of the day, I was glad that I pulled through those lonely nights, trying to complete my assignments as well as preparing my lessons and meeting deadlines for both aspects.

= Good news for 2020?
- Workloads seem to be still the same but a little exciting as I am going to be involved in organising several events which I can go out and meet new people!
- Studies are coming to an end! All is left is editing my project paper as well as my article, going off for a conference and get my paper published and then, #road toconvocation!

2. To pick up a dance class for the sake of my career
= I didnt achieve this goal at all. I didnt sign up for a class as I was too preoccupied of getting my work done at school as well as in my studies.

= Good news for 2020?
- Well, I don't think I am going to pick up the class after all. I rather spend the time on myself and try to rest and relax as much as possible after having such 2 hectic years that were mostly comprised of going back and forth to school as well as university.

3. To be happy regardless of what happens throughout the year.
= 2019 is the year that I achieved this goal though there were several roadblocks on the way. One of it was meeting him in a briefing for a competition and receiving endless updates about him. And the only way to push him away from my life was being occupied with works. And that's the best thing that ever happened to me as I grew happier and more comfortable with the current condition I am in.

4. To be less troubled with matters that are out of my control.
= 2019 is also the year where I reset my mindset and my view on things that are out of my control which includes relationship. And that was the best decision that I ever made as I was able to focus on myself, my career and my self development instead of weeping about relationship. 2019 was also the year where I stopped searching and just truly enjoy living with how things are. And 2019 was also the year where I stopped talking about how lonely I am as well as how much I missed those old days with him. A pat to myself!

All in all, 2019 was a pretty good year for me.
A year where I was flourishing in my career,
A year where my sanity was tested with countless number of assignments to be completed in the shortest time,
A year where I get to go to new places for the sake of work demands and enjoy being solo,
And a year where I decided to love myself instead of loving the past.

2020.
My goal for 2020 is going to be simple.
To love myself more,
To find happiness in whatever that occurs in life,
and always anticipate the unknown ventures.

Jenny~