today.

not really sure what to post for today..
what i am sure is da word busy has not faded away from my life..
just finished UAK today and yeah, this is the only time i can rest and do something i like..
before i have to start doing 5 reflections for 3 different subjects..
and the great thing is im gonna have to hand it in tomolo...
and then we will be havin first aid workshops which will take up da whole weekends..
and then folio for girl guide and not to mention the log book has to be handed in on mon...

its not the case of me procrastinating..
but its the case where things juz keep coming in merciless..
sigh..
i guess this is the life of a student right?
even after finish studying, the word tired does still exist right?
and in that time, where will the "me-time" goes?
sigh...

i wan my me-time~
Jenny~

happy bday to me..

finally reaches 20 years old..
thanx to God for allowing me to be alive till now..
thank u Lord Jesus Christ for allowing me to experience so much miracles and Your presence in my life all this while..
and thank u Lord for giving me chances to experience life..

thank u to both my mommy n daddy for giving me a chance to see the world..
now im a big girl and its my responsibility to take good care of u two..
thanx to my loved one for being wit me this year for my bday..
i wish that u will owes celebrate this important day with me every year..
i know there's no promises but at least im hoping for it..
thanx to my best friends for remembering my bday and da delicious cakes..
u noe its fattening for me and yet u still but my favourite ones.. thanx so much!
thanx to all those who wished in fb either thru writing on my walls as well as thru messages..
i appreciate every single thoughts..
and thanx to both my friends who are couple for their unexpected gift..
da gift meant a lot to me.. =)

and thanx to those who prayed for me, showered me with love and food (hehe), and ur warmest thoughts and care.. thank u so much and my prayers are with all of you.. love all of u loads.. xoxo.. =)

Jenny~

stay strong

i have thought about it..
and finally i have decided..
i am going to stay strong and hold on to it..
im not sure how far we can go but when seeing my best friend once in my condition too,
and finally has been accepted,
i felt hope..

i might get hurt or happy in da end,
but for now, i wanna appreciate everythin that is happening to me,
i dont wanna think of our future,
coz i noe God has His own ways for you and me..
so for now, all i could ask for u is to stay strong and hold on to me..
coz im not gonna let go..
as long as there is the littlest hope,
as long as i am still breathing,
as long as i am still in love with u,
i will keep holding on..

love makes me realise ur significance.
Jenny~

unexpected.

things happen when i least expected it..
i guess this is juz another process of life..
i receive what has been planned to me and im giving myself time to be prepared for whatever comes to me.
i never regret nor have i ever felt disappointed..
instead im happy and appreciate everything that happen to me..
and right now, i guess i juz wanna appreciate every single moment,
i wanna treasure all this memories so that i wont feel regret once all of this might disappear..
i know God has something in plan for me, so i guess i will follow Him and His plans..
God knows me better than anyone..

Jenny~

lucky.

my parents~

my siblings.

                                        
                                                                              my high-school mates

                 

me n my bestie~

me n my new friends.. =)

me and my girls.. ^^

and me n my him.

sometimes when i look around me, i feel really lucky..

blessed with a family that loves and cares for me no matter what happened,

blessed with friends from my primary schools who still remember me and find me through facebook, my high school friends who still maintain contact with me as well as my college mates who become my really good friends after going through so much including the new ones...

and blessed with someone who has entered my life and become my best companion..

unlike some of my friends who came from broken family, who has friends that backstab them in the end, or having a partner that cheats on them or deceive their feelings again and again...

sometimes, i learn from them..

i learn by looking at how they handle the matter as well as how they overcome this hardships as well as their sadness..

and i doubt i could be as strong like them when such things happen to me..

and i pray that these things dont happen to me..

maybe because of that, i feel really grateful for what God has given me...

Im grateful for the family that has been given to me..

though our home is juz an ordinary home and i have parents and siblings that are as normal as other family, i still love them a lot...

im grateful for the friends that has been given to me..

though some might have forgotten me, not as close like last time with me as well as might hate for my attitude, im still grateful that im able to learn stuffs from them... and for the new friends that i have made, im grateful for the friendship bond that u are willing to tie with me..

and im grateful for the one God has sent to me to end my waiting..

though i am not sure whether u are gonna be the one who will be waiting for me at the end of the aisle, but what im sure for now is i still love u for who u are..

 though i might be annoying and imperfect, but i hope u will be able to accept me as i am..
though ur not romantic and am not Mr. Perfect, i still love u as da old u.. hehe..

May God bless my family, my friends and my loved one so that we will remain attached with one another till forever.. Amen.. ^^

Jenny~

i need.

i juz need u in my life...

its unthinkable if one day ur no longer here beside me..

sigh..

i dont even noe what to write in my blog..

i guess im juz tired with endless assignments n da thoughts of exams and stuffs like that..

sometimes i juz need a time out and him to actually accompany me..

juz simply sitting beside me and making his presence is already enough to soothe me..

juz simply holding my hands tightly to tell me that he's here for me is already more than enough...

i juz need u here..

Jenny~

when i thought it was easy.

PBS or SBE aka School-Based Experience for this semester requires us to actually conduct activity in the classroom which fulfills out assignment... and when all of us thought it would be easy since they are juz kids, so we especially i thought it would be an easy task... but it was super difficult.. maybe its different for those whose doin their PBS back at home whr they chose schools that have pupils that are proficient enough in the language..

the school i went to this semester has pupils who are totally not interested in english, super naughty ones who doent listen to u no matter how mad are u and some who are totally not into u... and now i understand the feelings of a teacher especially for the beginners.. its just so difficult to get the pupils' attention back to u when they are distracted, difficult to converse in english with them since they dont understand, difficult to fulfill everyone's needs since they are of different levels.. 

but i guess this is just a beginning.. there are more to come and if i give up on this, i would be giving up on my favourite career all this while.. i gotta be strong and learn from the mistakes that i did today.. will re-evaluate myself and fix myself up before practicum next year... gotta prove to those who look down at me that i can excel in my own ways too... GAMBATEH KUDASAI! FIGHTING! 

=im gonna excel=

Jenny~