new and final.

so, just got back from one month long of holidays,
and yeah,
welcoming myself to the new and final semester..
time indeed passed really fast,
without knowing it,
i am now already in the final semester and will be out to work real soon..
all those dreams of being in the last semester, doing and completing thesis as well as convocation right now seems so near to me..
when i actually thought back about what i have went through here throughout the five years of studies,
i realised that,
there were so many memories built in here,
the good ones,
the bad ones,
the sweet ones that i wish to cherish for a long time,
as well as the bitter ones that i wish to forget and never remember it back..

but all those memories are the ones that build me to be the one i am right now..
the changes that occur to me,
the changes in the way i think and look at life,
the changes in the way i see a relationship,
all these are the results of the experience and observations that i have done throughout the years,
and all this,
i believe,
have created a better me.

it's already hectic within the first week,
and all i could say is,
to get on the business,
finish what i unfinished,
and when the time comes,
pack up,
look ahead,
and venture into another new chapter.
and until that time come,
i will remain strong to overcome whatever that comes in my way.

Jenny~

holiday 2nd week

ok, i think its the second week of the holidays,

or is it third week?

i'm lost in my holidays..

anywayz, holidays has taken a toll on me,

and i have gained weight!

like seriously...

omg~

ok, im making a big issue out of this..

actually, its not so much weight gain,

just that sometimes i felt like i look so big especially at those problematic areas..

sigh..

i seriously hope all those walks could help me to at least cut down a bit..

and during holidays,

i did a lot of thinking,

i thought about whether should i make a change,

whether the changes that i have planned for myself will bring benefits to me,

and whether i should or should not implement these changes.

these days, 

i felt like its time to start putting myself in the first place.

not that i am not gonna be good to everyone,

just that, its time to really look into a person before deciding on how i should act to them.

why?

because my feelings are much more important to be cared of instead of someone else's feelings.

because yeah, i can take care of others' feelings but whose gonna take care of mine at the end of da day?

Jenny~

stranger perhaps?

ok, i have started my long holidays by merely being at home.
like seriously.
friends have been venturing out to work,
and i dont really feel like hanging out,
just wanna get some relaxation and healing as well at home.
and due to the long hours at home, i started to look back on my facebook.
on the pictures, wall posts, my status previously,
and also on my notes in which i have written quite some interesting things.
and one of it was about something that i have retrieved during my blog-walking session two years ago.
reading it back makes me wonder,
why do strangers who enters my life always end up being a stranger back?
anywayz, the post is as below (forgive me if i have blogged about this, but my memory sucks big time these days.. teehee)

Have you ever met someone who can light up your whole day? Someone who suddenly appears out of nowhere but made you smile every time you see each other? Maybe you met that person in your town, at work, at the store or through a friend. But you find out that they’re not from here. They live far away, and in a few days they are going back home. The last day before leaving, you decide to meet up for a little while. But you missed one other, so you have to go back home with an empty heart and a question constantly ringing in your head. Will you ever meet again? You have not a name, a phone number or Facebook. What are the odds that you will ever meet again? Very very minimal..

reading back this post reminds me of the past,
reminds me of the people whom i have met that brought smiles to me,
reminds me of the little hopes that i built every Sunday,
not because i can't accept the fact,
but sometimes, able to be put some hopes on things that not even me know whether it would or would not happen,
somehow feels nice.
to keep on believing and hoping,
that one day,
that particular rainbow would appear in my clouds,
might be called silly by some of you,
but for me,
no one can understand if they were not in my shoes.

Jenny~

the end.

the end of semester 7..
the end of a hectic semester filled with lotsa sleepless nights..
with the end of the last paper yesterday which was a killer for me,
i took the decision to look ahead,
and regardless of the results that i will obtain,
i have next semester to make it up,
i hope.

anywayz, am gonna be going back home and start my one month-full holidays,
and the only things that i have planned during this holidays?
is to rest fully,
eat good food,
get good workout,
maintain my weight,
and the most important thing,
being myself.

thus, wishing everyone happy holidays,
safe journey to respective homes,
and have fun especially with our beloved families..
will be updating this blog from time to time, no worries..
teehee..

Jenny~

new chapter.

these days, i got hooked up with the first Chinese Malaysian movie entitled, "The Journey"..
and somehow, i really love this movie because it is something that i felt would happen to me one day..
but anywayz, i find that the themes in this movie varies,
from love to culture and to remembering old friends..
and from this movie,
it made me think,
what would happen if i was the female character?
what would happen when i am already old?
will i still be able to gather up all my college as well as my high school friends and reminisce about our past times jokes?
will we still be as close as we used to?

and in this movie,
i got addicted to the song entitled "New Chapter" which was sung by Malaysia artist as well, Geraldine Gan.
and there were two versions,
the Chinese and the English..
my personal bias would be the Chinese one, of course,
but the lyric is English is interesting..
and the part i love the most is short and yet meaningful,
and in which i find it suitable to end my post for today.. =)

"Just as you thought all good things come to an end,
That's when the new chapter just began."

Jenny~

update.

ok, its been like a long time for me not updating my blog..
and sadly to say, its because of my super hectic schedule,
and yeah, now i finally had some little time to actually update this blog.
so, let's look what i have been through...

firstly, I had MQA..
super crazy people who would come surprisingly to check our files with the main purpose of seeing our learning progress,
for me, 
they are a bunch of people who doesnt have things to do,
and those who do not know the meaning of technology and conserve the world.
anywayz, i know there are the pros and cons of their job,
and i dont blame them for the job they took..

however, 5 days of completing MQA was a super hectic moments,
but one of the best moments shared with my classmates,
its those difficult times that i felt really bonded with my classmates,
and i know that deep inside our hearts, we will miss the moment but not the filing system since all of us nearly vomit papers during the printing sessions..
and now, exam week is on and i have just completed my first paper,
which is a result of 3 days revision only.
and dont ask me how was it,
i myself dont even know what i have done.

but no matter what,
as long as i have done my best, i guess that's the best.
and finally, im gonna be at home this weekend, if there is nothing on...
and this is the part i really want the most right now,
time spent with family!
and i guess that's it..
my other parts of life seems just fine like how it usually is,
and somehow,
i kinda accept my current situations and yeah,
im happy to say that i am now really happy.

Jenny~

me.

these days,

i have been laughing,

being in a good mood,

and really felt like the old me again..

no longer wasting time on thinking endlessly about the past in which i usually did last time.

after deleting and discarding all the old stuffs,

i asked myself,

what's next?

and i find myself unable to answer it.

i dont know what's the next move.

neither do i have any options to choose from.

and all i can do,

is to just go on and carry out my life.

last time, i cried easily.

whenever i hear songs or watch videos or movies that remind me of the past, 

tears flowed.

but now,

i cant cry like last time.

i found no reason to do so anymore,

is that a good sign?

does this tell me that i have moved on?

does this tell me that i have completely healed?

im still seeking for the answers.

nevertheless,

my life is now better in its own way.

Jenny~