lets talk~

kept tis in me for a quite a time so yeah, time to let it out... first and foremost, am enjoyin my hols.. at least by avoidin certain ppl, i feel much happier here and am lovin it.. holiday plans havent work out coz am waitin for dmy dad to get his vacation.. and then it will be a whole lot of fun and pics will be comin out in fb n bloggie~~

nxt, i wanna stress here tat if ur reli close to me n understand me, u wud noe wat type of person i am.. seriously! so dont go around, labeling me and then tell ppl u noe me.. coz tats da worst thing u wud ever do to someone u wud consider as a FREN...

nxt up, i noe wat kind of person u are.. dont think u can treat me like tis today and then change the other day.. i sense and i noe.. so juz come to me and tell me wat did it went wrong.. if u cant say, then txt me or mail me... at least i noe... but for now, i dont reli care.. i guess treated like tis for da second times means total let go....

i hate the feelings and i went thru once,,.. for makin me go thru twice, i'll make sure i wont fall for those sweet talks and innocent face anymore.. coz now i noe who u reli are...

~wat goes around comes around~
Jenny~

I'm coming Home~

its saturday and guess wat, i'll be back soon, real soon... after 2 more torturin n suffocatin papers, and im gonna be back home! am gonna spend my first nite at da airport.. wonder how does tat feel... and i noe, dont worry, i have a partner wit me... haha... and i cant wait to sleep at my bed, watch my tv, and do stuffs tat i like.. but da bad thing is tat im not gonna be able to check my fb n update my blog... hmm, but its ok compared wit all da fun im gonna hav durin my long, long hols... haha...

anywayz, keep in touch wit me wit all da means u can think of aside from internet k... haha... will update my blog again b4 i leave for my hols... woohoo!

home without love is not a home...

JEnny~

time do pass~

SEM 1 - SEM 3
(is thr changes?)

i could still remember the first day i reached sabah and entered IPG Kampus Keningau... da whole journey was filled wit joy, anticipation and of course wit pride since im able to fulfill my childhood dreams... but the first week was terrible... orientation tat doesnt seem like one... filled wit much memories and most of it are bad ones... haha.. but somehow it bonds us with the seniors and actually, they are not tat evil though... haha...

then sem 1 started off wit a rather idle schedule.. mayb its bcoz we're da vry first batch here and no TESL seniors to assist us, we decided to be independent... and guess wat, evry sems, we do have conflicts to solve.. its da matter of internal conflicts or external ones.. anywayz, wont be talkin bout tat... and assignments started to come in without an end, and tats when all of us bcome cute "pandas"... stayin up till 3-4am was not a big deal for us tat time.. as long as we can finish our work, den ok na man.... haha... (i love tagalog!)

den all da feelings of homesick, missing home and lotsa flooded my head and heart and of course, till now, i juz wanna be at home.... sem 2 kick start wit a lot, a lot of fun activities and not to mention da tiring and stressful events we had to conduct... but those were fun, real fun.. got myself makeover for CNY and yeah, it became like da "ugly duckling who turn into a swan"... but it never last... ahaha.. anywayz, received criticisms which some were accepted and most are rejected... its juz a matter of some ppl who kept puttin his nose into my matter...

then, sem 3... sem 3 almost finish wit 2 more papers and DONE! sem 3 is mostly on courseworks, and study study study.... den wit all da attentions and pressure from various sides, we sat for our exams... and hopefully, all of us will get reli good results or at least da result that we all hope for... so da main point here is that, time waits no man.. sometimes i feel like goin back to sem 1 where evrythin was fun... and at least he's still thr, nxt to me unlike now, he turned into another person whom i dont think i know him anymore... but one thing that doesnt change is my friendship wit my BFFS (i love u girls!)....

and now i wonder wats nxt in degree programme...

Reflection of da day:
when u say u love someone, do u reli mean it or its juz merely words?

Jenny~

further lessons~

last nite, i somehow chatted wit a fren of mine who gave me like a lot of lessons bout life and love... i'll juz summarize da point here and yeah, it is up to one to evaluate the lessons given...

1. put thoughts into words and words into action...
2. change for someone else so that in the end ur not only main a favor to urself but oso to others... of course change for good and not the otherwise...
3. no point saying time heals if actions are not taken since the scar will always remain there...

ok, suddenly i cant remember wats da other so da person who sort of givin tis lessons to me, remind me if i forgotten anythin.. haha... anywayz, im juz a listener and im not in any position to comment on anythin... i have not been in a relationship juz yet so i could oni listen and thus try my best to giv my point of views... at times it might not be accepted but its up to u rite... its not like i noe evrythin bout love... so yeah, tats y i prefer to keep quiet and listen to wat others got to say...

oh ya, credits to Ulysses for the lessons given... haha... though i dont reli agree wit evrythin but i have my point and yeah, u have ur own point too... haha...

its difficult to forgive and forget... but dont u think its even suffering to keep rememberin all those memories tat keep stabbin ur heart?

JEnny~

lesson 1

ok, i noe i shud be bloggin bout my exam which started today... but, i dont think so... haha.. i dont wanna share not bcoz im selfish or i think im sper genius or stuffs like tat... i will only share my results since i myself am not reli confident wit my own skills of answerin da paper... but da best thing is tat the hardest part is finally done.. and now, my head is like thinkin of HOME!

anywayz, lesson 1? wats tat? lesson on english again? or literature? haha.. nope... its a lesson in life which i juz got from a fren of mine... last nite, we actually chatted and he told me this easy yet meaningful phrase, "time will not heal us if we do not take actions." i think by reading the statement, all of us would understand wat it is trying to tell us rite... time is like an agent which facilitates healin either physical wounds or inner pain... but without actions, nothing wil be fixed rite?

for example, if u hurt urself, of course u'll find bandage and start takin actions on the wound so that it will heal fast rite? same goes to ur heart... when it is hurt, u gotta start takin actions and treat it b4 it get worse... i noe it takes a long time to heal it especially for those couples who broke up after being together for a period of time... but if destiny or fate was meant for u two to go in separate ways, why dont juz accept it and face it wit courage... mayb im not an expert of these things coz i have been livin in da world of single... haha... but after listenin to so many stories and cases, why not move forward in life and stop putting urself in da past....

when we start to move forward in our life, we will eventually meet someone new whr u can avoid all the mistakes u have done against ur previous ones... juz love her or him without comparing her or him wit ur previous ones...

P.S: do u noe how painful it is knowin tat u are being considered as a "spare part"?

Jenny~