i need.

i juz need u in my life...

its unthinkable if one day ur no longer here beside me..

sigh..

i dont even noe what to write in my blog..

i guess im juz tired with endless assignments n da thoughts of exams and stuffs like that..

sometimes i juz need a time out and him to actually accompany me..

juz simply sitting beside me and making his presence is already enough to soothe me..

juz simply holding my hands tightly to tell me that he's here for me is already more than enough...

i juz need u here..

Jenny~

when i thought it was easy.

PBS or SBE aka School-Based Experience for this semester requires us to actually conduct activity in the classroom which fulfills out assignment... and when all of us thought it would be easy since they are juz kids, so we especially i thought it would be an easy task... but it was super difficult.. maybe its different for those whose doin their PBS back at home whr they chose schools that have pupils that are proficient enough in the language..

the school i went to this semester has pupils who are totally not interested in english, super naughty ones who doent listen to u no matter how mad are u and some who are totally not into u... and now i understand the feelings of a teacher especially for the beginners.. its just so difficult to get the pupils' attention back to u when they are distracted, difficult to converse in english with them since they dont understand, difficult to fulfill everyone's needs since they are of different levels.. 

but i guess this is just a beginning.. there are more to come and if i give up on this, i would be giving up on my favourite career all this while.. i gotta be strong and learn from the mistakes that i did today.. will re-evaluate myself and fix myself up before practicum next year... gotta prove to those who look down at me that i can excel in my own ways too... GAMBATEH KUDASAI! FIGHTING! 

=im gonna excel=

Jenny~

for u.

meetin u is like an answered prayer,

all da waiting have been proved worthwhile,

and i thank God for what He has given to me..

a relationship where we love one another,

not only as a couple but also as a part of family where we take care of one another,

we argue like kids as well as adults but we still stick together..

we laughed like best friends and we still stick together..

though at times, we did mistakes and cried but still we stick together..

though at times i feel like a failure, u still support me by telling me that im not,

though at times im annoying and easily get into bad mood, we still stick together,

though i can sense that im not as perfect as ur previous one, we still stick together...

and bcoz of that, im thankful that i met someone like u..

though ur not romantic and have flaws here and there, but ur still da one right here in my heart..

Happy 1st Anniversary, piggy!

May God bless our relationship and that we are able to create more and more memories together...

love u more not only today but everyday..

Jenny~

updates..

updating myself now.. hehe... ok, its gonna be da end of holidays soon and am gonna be back to routine life soon... so holidays treat me super well especially with da care from both my mum and dad... good food n entertainment at home makes me love holidays more and more.. hehe... so lets go thru wit all my updates:

1. juz reached campus and have to crack my head to think on what to do for da activities that am gonna conduct during the School-Based Experience... sigh... but will manage it soon.. hehe...

2. bought most of my necessities and yeah, i bought my new lappie d... though my dad was da one who sponsored all but of course i did my part by making sure that all my flight tickets will be sponsored by me, myself and i.. ehhe...

3. went to an English Camp at my alma mater... and it was reli fun and enjoyable especially when im able to observe da types of activities conducted... not only that, am able to gain insights and ideas for my future practical... and i bet its gonna be an interesting semester next year, hopefully... hehe...

4. my anniversary is around da corner and yet i haven think of what to do for him.. i wanna make it simple and yet memorable, so i'll be thinking of sth tonite though.. hehe..

i guess that's all for me to update though.. will be updating this blog from time to time.. hehe....

Jenny~

bad day.

u know how much i love to blog, no matter when its on small matter or on big matter, or whether i am in a good mood, bad mood sad mood or whatever mood.. and i guess right now, my mood is more on the angry mood. i mean things never go my way...

there are stuffs that i have delegate to people to do.. coz ppl told me to trust on those who have been elected for the job... and of course im like handing da stuffs that ppl supposed to do and i would do my own work... but ppl never stop deceivin me... i mean i trust u on this job so u do it accordingly.. come on, u think ur da only one whose busy in life and im like sitting on a comfy armchair juz givin orders to u ppl.. if and only if my life is that easy!

sheesh... so try standing in my own position.. try being in my position where ppl scolded u for somethin u didnt do. try getting blames and labels telling that u procrastinate for somethin that u didnt do.. try being in a situation where u have to do everything on ur own without trusting ppl... or better still, trying being me...

u and i face da same situation.. we juggle our time between assignments and life... we manage out time being activities that u were da one who suggested and eventually completely conducted by me.. sometimes, i get so sick being myself and how i wish i can change my soul with u and putting u into me... try being a person who cannot get mad because u cant stand being hated on, try being a person who has to pretend to be happy and cool about everything when da real thing is u hate that situation.. try being a person who has to put on a fake mask in front of everyone so that no one can see ur weaker side... try being me!

sometimes things reli get hard for me.. but who actually cares right.. only me, myself and i who knows ow does it really feel..

Jenny~

simple updates

its seems i have been missing a lot and havent been updating this bloggie for quite some time..
life has been a routine but burdened with endless assignments and activities here and there..
relationship has been good and stays on the same flow like usual...
friendship has remain stable and improved so much compared to last year.. old acquaintances become good friends of mine and so forth..
but bad news are,
im not havin enuf rest and time for my own personal well-being,
im havin difficult times to find relaxation in my place till i took da drastic action to go back home for the short hol to get the rest i needed so much...
my lappie broke down and passed away at the critical time when there's so many things to be done using lappie.. which breaks my heart a lot..
but for every little bad thing that happen in life, there's little good thing that comes along...
and honestly, i believe in that after seeing things that happen and made little changes in life...
i guess evrythin happens for a reason. dont u think so?

Jenny~

sigh.

will be updating after i get my new lappie... ^^