Indecisive

Went out for a casual hangout with a guy friend,

something that I have not done probably in 3 years after my break-up?

But it was a good meeting and catch-up sessions..

And it somehow sparked at how indecisive I am about my future goals..

When being asked about my long term plans,

I couldn't answer directly..

I was indecisive about what I really wanted.

I wanted glory at first, and then I wanted goal,

And then I wanted a relationship but I felt like I couldn't sacrifice yet..

That was really one time that I felt I became indecisive..

I wanted everything.

I wanted to achieve what my siblings might not be able to do,

I want to be in the limelight..

But I didnt think of the next step.

After getting a masters/PhD, what's next?

After being in the limelight, what's next?

If I am determined not to be able to find the one, what's next?

If I do get married, what's next?

Who knew growing up was this difficult?

Dear 16-years old Jenny, life isn't great at 23.. 

Jenny~