Am I?

When people ask you, are you lonely?
What do you usually answer them?
Yes, I am very lonely.
No, I am perfectly fine with being lonely.
Which one?

I got asked this question last night.
Going shopping alone, eating out alone, watching movie alone, and doing things alone, don't you feel lonely?
I insisted.
I said, no. I got used to it already.
But when I was asked once more,
i unknowingly said,
yes. But can I do anything with it?
Especially with trust issue and protective sides of me.
It's not easy.

Being alone is fine.
Being lonely isn't.
I have the same wish like everyone,
to be able to find one who can complete me,
and fill in this loneliness.
But,
who am I to decide this?
~sigh~

Jenny~