Interesting journey

Do you still remember the girl on the train?

The one who continued her journey on the train alone?

I remembered she once said that she decided,

decided to push back all her books in front of her,

and getting her own cup of coffee.

But life has its own unexpected twist.

When she was getting up to get her own cup of coffee,

she saw it on her desk,

and the person who brought it for her.

She didnt expect his presence at all.

She smiled, 

and started to reconnect with him.

Like a long lost friend,

she had the most wonderful conversation with this person.

Something that she hasn't experienced for quite some time.

Everytime he came to her carriage,

they would talk endlessly,

laughed at each other's silly jokes,

and making plans ahead.

They shared their favourite books and shows,

commenting on every single thing that they saw when the train passed by.

For the first time,

she felt that her journey became less lonely.

For the first time,

she felt that her journey is getting more interesting.

And for the first time,

she smiles throughout her journey.

Indirectly, with his presence,

she finally found a little ray of light in her journey.

Jenny~

Counting days

Is it me or is the time passing really fast this year?
October is coming to its end in a blink of eyes,
and it's kinda scary thinking that it's November in a few more days to come.
Nevertheless, let's do some recaps on what has been going on in the past few months.

Career.
Have been really busy after UPSR,
handling the year 6 kids' stuffs,
online applications as well as preparing documents for the pupils for their secondary schools intake.
But it is still manageable in my own limit.
However, I learnt to put more trust in my own abilities than in other people.
Not because I am selfish and unwilling to divide works among one another,
but because I know that I am able to do it without faults,
and that I wouldn't disappoint myself by giving me last minutes disappearances.

Friendship.
My friendship with my school colleagues are getting better.
It feels nice making friends with people that are in the same working field as me.
By chatting with them or hanging out with them in the canteen during our free periods, I am able to share my worries as well as my frustration with them.
Basically, they are my anxiety and stress relievers in school.
And I am so lucky to have them at my side.

Relationship.
I don't really have much to say when it comes to this topic.
Past injuries have caused me to seal up my feelings if possible.
Previously, I am the type that shows my feelings through my words and actions.
But nowadays, I try be careful with what I say or do.
Not because I do not want other people to get the wrong idea,
but because I do not want to get the wrong idea and end up feeling too much,
which the other person might not be feeling the same like me.
*Therefore, tips to get my heart, tell me you love me when you are ready to love me.*

But overall, I enjoyed myself in the past few months.
All the chatter and fun moments spent in school with my colleagues,
as well as the warm and kind treatments by a friend,
made me felt different this year.
Turned me from a cold and reserved person, into a warm and open person.
Will continue to update in the following month,
as I believe there would be a lot of school activities,
emotions,
and feelings that will be going on.
Till then.

xoxo
Jenny~

Marriage

Today's post would be more on the serious side of me.
So, let's start.
One man and one woman meet,
fell in love,
got married, 
have babies,
and live a happy life.

So that's what I thought this world is made up.
But it isn't.
Getting posted to my current school opened up my eyes a lot.
Seeing kids from broken families,
with either their fathers ran away or got married with other women,
or the mothers are the ones who ran away or got married with other men,
and who are the ones who suffer?
Their children!

I don't understand certain parents' mentality.
Like how can they just divorce and eventually dumped their children to their parents to take care.
Not even providing the basic needs as well as financial needs for those innocent ones.
And the next question would be,
why get married if at the end of the day, you will eventually lose feelings to your partner?
why make those innocent little ones suffer under your childish acts?
Is marriage solely based on your lust for one another?
To make sex between the two of you look much more "valid" after getting marriage certificates?

These are the people that I despise the most.
The ones who get married in their young ages in the name of love,
and eventually couldn't resist temptations out there,
and thus, sacrifice their little ones for their own selfish purposes.
If getting married is only for sex or only to share in your st**id social medias,
or to gain as much likes as possible in your pre-wed photos,
or to just wear that wedding dresses that you dream of,
then please, like seriously please, dont get married.
Dont mar your life just for your stupid fantasy.

Marriage is responsibility and commitment.
If you can't handle these two big things,
then don't even get started with it.
Marriage should be beautiful.
So please keep the beauty in it,
and dont ruin it just for your selfish reasons.

There goes my long post of the night. Hope you enjoyed reading a little piece of my mind. 
Jenny~

This friend

Have you watched, "Miss Peregrine's Home for the Peculiar Children"?
It's one of the most amazing movies that I have watched this year,
and all this thanks to my new friend whom have brought me out into this world.
Sometimes, I think our meeting has been arranged,
who knew from the first conversation, 
we moved on and became friends.

From a person who rarely goes to cinema into a person who now enjoys going to cinema,
From a person who always putting only the good side into a person who now shows her true self,
From a person who always spend time at home into a person who anticipates to go out,
All this happened after meeting this friend.

There are times that I am touched,
by this friend's kind gestures,
actions,
and words.
It reminded me of my best friend as well.
And because of that, I wish I could create my own time loop like how Ms Peregrine did in the movie.

Creating a time loop that encompasses all the good conversations I had with this friend,
Re-watching back this friend's kind gestures and actions on me,
and re-living it again.
If I could do it, 
I would now be the happiest person in the world.
Therefore, to this friend,
thank you for entering into this dark life of mine,
and making me believe that there is light somewhere in this dark tunnel.
Here's to more to come.

Jenny~