change.

i might or might not change in appearance, but my heart never change..

Jenny~

300th post.

Well, this is my 300th post and will be playin this game entitled, "50 truths about you"... kinda interesting and i guess its time to expose a little about myself here and there.. hehe.. so enjoy... ^^

[ONE] Who was your last text from?

- from my piggy.. =)

[TWO] Where was your default pic taken?

-taken back at brunei while waiting to go back home after a long day shopping.. hehe...

  

[THREE] Your relationship status?

-in a relationship.. =)

[FOUR] Have you ever lost a close friend?

- lost one but eventually we patched up and became ok.. =)

[FIVE] What is your current mood?

-tired with all kinds of stuffs... =.=

[SIX] What's your brother(s)/sister(s) names?

- Brother = Collin and Sister = Grace.

[SEVEN] Have you ever been torn between two lovers?

-Nope... never had da chance to be loved by two person at the same time (which is good and less frustrating)..

[EIGHT] where do you wish you are right now?

- home...

[NINE] Have a crazy side?

- o, yes i do.. and a lot... ask my bestie or my piggy.. they know me da best.. haha..

[TEN] Have you ever had a near death experience?

- nope...

[ELEVEN] Something you do a lot?

- online and reading articles here and there... 

[TWELVE] Angry at anyone??

- right now, nope... =)

[THIRTEEN] When was the last time you cried? 

- few days ago... 

[FOURTEEN] Is there anyone you would do anything for?

- yeah, my parents.. =)

[FIFTEEN] What do you think about when you are falling asleep?

- i think about him a lot..

  

[SIXTEEN] Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?

- my mom if im not mistaken... =)

[SEVENTEEN] What is your favorite song?

- t-ara's new song, day by day.. lovely and meaningful.. =)

[EIGHTEEN] What are you doing right now?

- answering all these questions.. =.=

[TWENTY] Who do you trust right now?

- myself..

[TWENTY-ONE] Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?

- my mom made it for me.. hehehe...

[TWENTY-TWO] Have you kissed someone in the past week?

- nope... 

[TWENTY-THREE] Who are your friends that live closest to you?

- right now? my bestie whose next door to me.. ^^

[TWENTY-FOUR] Describe your life in one word.

- routine.

[TWENTY-FIVE] Who are you thinking of right now?

- my piggy..

[TWENTY-SIX] What should you be doing right now?

- i should be going to facebook and read up some articles on cakes.. hehe..

[TWENTY-SEVEN] What are you listening to?

- t-ara's song entiteld we were in love (instrumental)... love it.. 

[TWENTY-EIGHT] Who was the last person who gave you a hug?

- my piggy.. =)

[TWENTY-NINE] Who was the last person who yelled at you?

- i cant remember.. seems like none.. =)

[THIRTY] What is your natural hair color?

- black and a little white here and there...

[THIRTY-TWO] Who was the last person to make you laugh?

 - my bestie.. hehe..

[THIRTY-THREE] Who was the last person to make you sad?

 - someone really close to me..

[THIRTY-FOUR] What do you hear?

 - hear wat?

[THIRTY-FIVE] Is your hair curly or straight?

 - straight..

[THIRTY-SIX] Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?

- nope, i mean what does it mean anywayz?

[THIRTY-SEVEN] Do you have a best friend?

- yeap..

[THIRTY-EIGHT] Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?

- nope...

[THIRTY-NINE] Do you use smiley faces on the computer?

- yeah, like always.. =)

[FORTY] Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?

- omg, yeah... and its kinda embarrassing.. hehe/.. 

[FORTY-ONE] Are you happy with life right now?

 - kinda but i wish it would get better...

[FORTY-TWO] Are you currently jealous?

 - nope...

[FORTY-THREE] What jewelry are you currently wearing?

- none...

[FORTY-FOUR] What were you doing last Friday night?

 - i was on the internet...

[FORTY-FIVE] Have you ever had your heart broken?

 - yes.

Jenny~

[FORTY-SIX] Have you ever broke someone's heart?

[FORTY-SEVEN] Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?

[FORTY-EIGHT] What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?

[FORTY-NINE] How late did you stay up last night and why?

[FIFTY]Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?

now.

mood swing finally passed me..
and im back to normal..
seriously, i felt that mood swing nearly jeopardise my relationship..
i mean i was like thinking so much and wasting so much tears on things that i thought so much..
i was really not ok...
but now, am feeling like myself..

im back to da normal me..
da one who dont usually think a lot..
hehe...
well, am gonna be back to my hometown in 2 weeks time..
and i simply cant wait to go home...
i mean i need to be at home, around my parents for a while..
and assignments are dropping in one by one,
not mentioning activities here and there...
and im still waiting for my sweet getaway soon with my pig and friends..
i seriously need a little vacation from everythin..

and ta-daa, me in simple make-up..
i love my looks so much no matter with or without make-up... (PHOTOBOMB!)

Jenny~

wat did i do wrong?

sometimes i feel like am trapped in between...
its not like i wanna flirt here and there..
but some ppl juz need a friend to talk to..
someone they can trust their feelings on..
someone to tell bout their pain...

and when i became that someone,
ppl especially their unclear partner's status starts puttin blame on u,
starts accusin u of being a flirt,
starts sayin till i wanna find another one when my boy is enough for me..

i juz wanna be a friend,
and yet ur sayin as if im gettin in between u two,
i care for ppl as a friend,
but ur sayin as if im gonna take away him..
if u love him so much, then start caring for him and stop hurting him..
cant u see how irrational ur becomin into?

if i know such things happen,
i would not step into this again...
sigh.

Jenny~

deserve to share.

a picture means a thousand words.. ^^

Jenny~

envy.

sometimes, when i browse thru my facebook and look at my news feed, there;s this little jealousy arising in me.. i envy those who looks so happy together in pics.. i envy those who looks so wonderful being in one another's embrace.. i envy seeing them capturing every memory that they went thru one by one.. i guess da main point here is i envy their bond..

smetimes, i juz wondered, am i being too much? do i care too much? do i think too much? do i feel too much? i juz wanna be someone that he can rely on, and be there for him.. sometimes i dont know what should i do, how should i act and stuffs like that.. sometimes its only me, myself who knows how this feel... its so hard to be strong when inside, im fragile.. its tiring to smile when inside is crying.. its tiring to act everything is ok when i know im not ok...

its tiring but im still carrying on with this journey coz i dont wanna give up.. no matter how tiring or treacherous the road seems, i still wanna carry on.. no matter how much pain and tears that i have to endure, i wanna go on with this road... coz i know God sent you to my life for a reason. and im holding on to that reason.

Jenny~

tired.

Juz got back from my camp which was in Lagud Sebrang, Tenom... and it was actually at the taman pertanian in tenom itself.. and it was so fun though it kept raining for da past few days we were having our camp... but da scenery, fresh air and the environment itself really make me feel like stayin there for a few more days.. and i wanna go there again.. seriously... and this time will be either with my boy or with my family during holidays..

well, back to campus equal to back to reality... handling English Week which continuously being bugged by unexpected activities somehow make me feel really tired... assignments, tutorials powerpoint and studies seem so tiring for me.. sigh... and with my current pointer, i must not procrastinate unless i wanna fall off and get myself hurt again.. sigh... nvr mind, life must go on right?

-Jenny

sometimes

sometimes i feel so small and the world feel so big..
sometimes i feel so insignificant..
sometimes i feel so unimportant in this world..
maybe im juz feeling too much or thinking too much..
maybe i juz need a bit of magic to make myself feel significant...

Jenny~

current me.

guess what, after the major water disruption, im facing major electricity disruption.. i mean seriously, life is not getting better after what we are going through.. well, i heard that some technician would be coming and fixing it anytime soon and well get to enjoy electricity like everyone else.. i mean its really difficult sleeping with the candles on since it just gets really hot.. but thanks to God for listening to our prayers and gave rain to us so that we are able to enjoy a chilling night..

results juz came out and i guess i did tremendously well... for those who knows my pointer, yeah, i guess i was just lucky or my prayers were answered.. because seriously i never expected such results since i did little preparation and my assignments are just normal, i guess.. but thanks be to God and also with little preparations here and there, i got to maintain and get the accumulated pointer that i seriously aimed for.. but the challenge just started.. i mean people will start to look at you expecting u to do much more better and i guess maintainin it is another challenge for me this year.. i guess i have to start getting prepared if i wanna maintain such results..

other than that, everythin is in a smooth condition... my relationship is ok and nothing to talk about since we cant really hang out always due to financial problems as well as time management... but we still maintain close contact with one another though we dont look like it in the surface.. tat person hasnt appeared yet and im still waitin for that person to appear... i mean im like seeing his look-alikes everyday... -sigh-

Jenny~