envy.

sometimes, when i browse thru my facebook and look at my news feed, there;s this little jealousy arising in me.. i envy those who looks so happy together in pics.. i envy those who looks so wonderful being in one another's embrace.. i envy seeing them capturing every memory that they went thru one by one.. i guess da main point here is i envy their bond..

smetimes, i juz wondered, am i being too much? do i care too much? do i think too much? do i feel too much? i juz wanna be someone that he can rely on, and be there for him.. sometimes i dont know what should i do, how should i act and stuffs like that.. sometimes its only me, myself who knows how this feel... its so hard to be strong when inside, im fragile.. its tiring to smile when inside is crying.. its tiring to act everything is ok when i know im not ok...

its tiring but im still carrying on with this journey coz i dont wanna give up.. no matter how tiring or treacherous the road seems, i still wanna carry on.. no matter how much pain and tears that i have to endure, i wanna go on with this road... coz i know God sent you to my life for a reason. and im holding on to that reason.

Jenny~