Her fault

Today, while on the train, a lady passed by her carriage.
She was actually selling magazines and books in the train,
so she bought one and read about it.

And she came across an article.
She read about it and immediately, she placed down the magazine,
and stared outside her carriage.
The words struck her,
and awaken the real her.

Since when she became so rushed?
Since when she defy her own principles,
and became someone she told herself not to?
Since when she started to build her fantasy,
and no longer remember that it was only a fantasy?

She was disappointed with herself,
She was disappointed with the words she once said,
and yet she didn't do it.
She was disappointed at how she rushed in things,
and eventually blaming others when things fell apart.
She was even hurt when she realised that it was she who cause it,
and not the other person.

She took out her yellow notes,
and started to scribble notes to herself,
and stick it at places that she could see.
"Take your time."
"Whatever will be, will be."
and lastly,

"Learn to stay when you should stay. Learn to let go when you should let go."

Jenny~