holidays!

yeap, holidays have started and im back home.. oo, da place where i belong to.. haha.. and yeah, im happy to be at home, doin stuffs i wanted and most importantly, there isnt da need to see books anymore for another 3 weeks... however, i do miss my friends a lot esp my BFF.. haha... oh well, am gonna see her soon...

and my holidays started wit food (home-cooked) and a lot of readin novels and writing this n tat.. oo, did i mention im gonna start keepin diaries again? i mean not tat i dont wanna post stuffs in tis blog but i guess thrs certain things which i wanna keep it in me and shared it wit oni some ppl.. so yeah, am gonna write it in a diary and will oni share it when i tink its time...

in conclusion, am gonna be uploadin pics on my holidays soon when i get to and yeah, im missin ppl already... take good k of urself ya.. =)

=imy=
Jenny~

holidays

ok, one paper had passed, and three more to go... the upcomin week seems to bring so much joy and "suffering" bcoz:

1: im gonna sit for three papers in three consecutive days...

2: two of da papers are my major papers in which i am super worried about...

3: and i hav so limited n critical time to actually flip back all da stories....

but wat makes da upcomin week reli fun and highly anticipated by me is bcoz:

1: EXAM IS FINISH FOR SEM 1...

2: am gonna pack, pack and pack....

3: am gonna be in kk and shop for da family...

4: and am gonna take da afternoon flight and back to home...

i need home a lot... kinda miss home esp when my mom owes say that she's gonna story2x me when i reach back... haha.. and i miss home-coked food.. so yeah, cant wait for da 3 weeks hols... hopefully im not gonna stuck at my home in brunei for 3 weeks... am so gonna be in my missing mood again by then... haha...

=missin=

Jenny~

Picture of love

Title: Renai Shashin (Picture of Love)

Romaji:
aoao to shita yozora no shita de
anata ga miteta ushiro koi sugata

tokiori miseru mujaki na negao
atashi ga miteta koishii sugata

donna hitotoki mo subete
wasure nai you ni
muchuu de shattaa kiru atashi no kokoro wa
setsunai shiawase daata

tada kimi wo aishiteru
tada kimi wo aishiteru
tada kimi wo aishiteru
tada sore dake de yokatta noni

ame furu toki no kawashi ta kisu wa
tsunaga re te yuku futari no sugata

isshou ni mou nai kono kimochi
umaku ie nai kedo
anata ni deatte atashi no mainichi wa
kirakira to kagayai ta yo

tada kimi wo aishiteru
tada kimi wo aishiteru
tada kimi wo aishiteru
anata ga kure ta shiawase yo

tada kimi wo aishiteru
tada kimi wo aishiteru
tada kimi wo aishiteru
tada sore dake de yokatta no ni

chiisana heya ni kazara re te iru
futari no egao renai shashin

Translation:
Under the green night sky
You saw the back of love

Sometimes you show your innocent sleeping face
And I saw your dear appearance

No matter what
I can’t forget everything
In dreams, the shutter of my heart turns off
In painful bliss

However, I still love you
However, I still love you
However, I still love you
However I’m glad even if that’s all it is

The kiss we exchanged when it was raining
Ties the both of us together

This feeling will not last my entire life
I can’t explain it well, but
After meeting with you, every day of my life
Has shone brightly

However, I still love you
However, I still love you
However, I still love you
You gave me happiness

However, I still love you
However, I still love you
However, I still love you
However I’m glad even if that’s all it is

Decorating this tiny room
Are 2 smiling faces—a photo of love

i love this song like a lot and kept playin it since i downloaded it like last year... it juz strike a chord deep in my heart and make me fall in love wit this song over and over again....

=u&me=

Jenny

5!

5 more days to go before MAY 19TH! and its exam.... guess wat, im not 100% prepared for it.... im juz 50% prepared for tat big exam in which i dont even noe how im gonna pass for all da 4 subs esp linguistics and literature criticisms.... Gosh!

and i wonder why does important stuffs muz happen on such a wonderful day... (sigh)... and im officially declaring war wit exam.. no matter how i wanna avoid da fact tat exam is like marching right in front of me, i juz hav to face it... like wat my daddy say, 2 more weeks and den u'll be back home... YEAP, HOME!

but even HOME sounds so far wit all these exams.... and even after hols, there's another scary part where results are waitin to be taken... and guess wat, tats da scariest part in examination... i dont even noe how to describe it but its super scary.... (sigh).... all i need now i some love and hug tellin me tat im able to do evrythin right and all i shud do i try my best..... (sigh)..

=only u can make me smile at these times=

Jenny~

counting days~

am counting down days to EXAM! one more week and TADAAAA, Mr. Exam is here and ready to make me go HHHUUUU-HHHHAAAAA...... (im stress)...

and guess wat, these will be da little bits that im gonna experience during this week:

~decreased appetite on food...

~headache attackin..

~sudden cravin on food..

~mau minta lebih kasih sayang (hahahaha)...

~emotional breakdown

~cry like a baby, laugh like Jenny (ok, random!)

so to those who sees me goin "HIGH" and laughin always this week, u shud noe im tryin to decrease my stress... hihi.. so bear wit me k... I LOVE U!

~this post is written during my random period.. so forgive me if it sounds crazy.. =)

=im random=

Jenny~

smile~

without ice-cream and hello panda at these kind of moments, chocolates serve da same purpose... which is to make me, Jenny Elizabeth Lu, cheer up and stay active... gosh, exams are here.. i can feel da intensity of da stress produced due to exam.. and yeah, im still here, enjoyin myself and updating my blog.. GOOD JOB JENNY~ ok, tat sounds sarcastic...

but da problem is i cant study... evrythin juz enter and exit from my brain.. and i dont noe when can i get serious.. wit all da events goina round me, i hardly find time to get serious... and plz la, when its study week, den its study week.. so wats da point organising so many events? weird ppl wit weird thinking... anywayz, all i can think of now is how to get da massive info into my brain and pour it out on my exam paper.. after exam, will be da session which i like and hate da most.. PACKING! and after packing, will be home at last...

cant wait to be at home and learn to be a good housewife... though im gonna be unreachable for a few days, but yeah, my fb is owes on.. haha... oh well, i gonna miss my frens especially him when i reach home.. super duper gonna miss him... oh well, wrap it up a phrase: study hard and study smart... don study till u get dumb...

=love n study=

Jenny~

fun, fun, fun!

last nite was like one of da greatest nite ever i had.. i mean at least wat i wished for had came true.. i actually went to da fun fair held here.. ok, mayb u guys think its like kiddish and stuffs like tat, but hey, i nvr reli been to one and guess wat, i nvr been to one wit such awesome frens and him.. haha.. so it was super exciting and i was like super lucky since it was da last nite d..

so we went and went thru all da games and activities that are held thr.. we watched ppl played and yeah, i did try out some games.. and guess wat, i got body aches after one of it.. haha.. but tat is like one of da best though i have push around in order to get in line... but it was super awesome... unluckily, due to my fear, i din get to play "space gun" which looks super fun and exciting.. i mean i watched them play but i din hav da guts to get on it... ppl can say me coward or stuffs like tat, but i reli cant make myself to get on it.. haha.. and thanx to him for understandin my situation.. hihi...

so in conclusion, i had a lot of fun last nite.. though din get to take a lot of pics but stilll, all those memories will be stored right up in my permanent "hard disk"... hihi.... will be uploadin da pics soon when i get hold of em.. hihi...

=thanx for makin me love u even more!=

Jenny~

sweet~

da nicest thing tat a person can do to u is picking up a guitar and play one of ur favourite song or even juz singin it to u....

=now, that's sweet=

Jenny~

me~

if there is a single word to describe this feeling,

i'll use it to say it out,..

if there is a single action to show u this feeling,

i'll use it to show u..

if there is a single thought to tell u how i am feelin inside,

i'll use it to tell u..

but,

i juz couldnt find any,

words, actions or thoughts,

to show it to u...

if fear is da word,

den it means im afraid in losin,

if anxious is da action,

den it means im worried in losin,

if tear is a thought,

den it means i will fall into pieces,.

if u decided to enter,

den please lock da door up behind u,

coz i cant bear to see u leavin me behind..

=what can i say?=

Jenny~

give this song to him!

I’ll back off so you can live

Say it directly, while looking at me
Say it looking straight into my eyes
Did you say you want to break up?
Do you want to end it with me?

(I know) you probably got a lady
(I know) you probably got sick of me
Even though tears are rushing to me

I’ll back off so you can live
That’s all I can say
I’ll forget you so you can live better
So that you will be happy without me
The love you tossed away
You can take it
Don’t leave even a trace behind,
And take it all
Don’t even say you’re sorry
Don’t worry about me

Sorry, my Sweety
Your lips told me that you’re leaving
Why does it give me a reason to be angry?
I need to stop you…
But the words just don’t come out
And you’re already moving far away

(I know) you will forget me
(I know) I will really hate you
Even though you know everything

I’ll back off so you can live
That’s all I can say
I’ll forget you so you can live better
So that you will be happy without me
The love you tossed away
You can take it
Don’t leave even a trace behind,
And take it all
Don’t even say you’re sorry
Don’t worry about me

(You) the reason I lived
(You) you were all that I wanted
You~ The only one I looked at

(Why) Why are you leaving?
(Why) Why are you tossing me away?
If you were going to be like this
Why did you love me in the first place?

Do you happen to remember that day
The day when we first met
I still remember it
The promise you made to me
That you will only care for me
That you will only protect me
That you will only love me
I believed your lies
I believed it

Did you really love me?

I’ll forget you so you can live better

this is actually a korean song but yeah, am givin da translation so that am able to share it with my friend.. to my friend: give this song to him and make sure he understand the lyric... and dont worry, my dear friend..thrs someone out there for u if it wasnt him..=)

=i'll owes be here for u, my fren!=

Jenny~

enchanted~

There I was again tonight

Forcing laughter, faking smiles

Same old tired, lonely place

Walls of insincerity

Shifting eyes and vacancy

Vanished when I saw your face

All I can see, is that it was enchanting to meet you

You're eyes whispered 'have we met?'

Crossed the room, your sillohuette

Starts to make its way to me

The playful conversation starts

Counter all your quick remarks

Like passing notes in secrecy

And it was enchanting to meet you

All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling

Don't you let it go

I'm wonderstruck

Blushing all the way home

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

I was enchanted to meet you

One game question kept me up

2 AM, who do you love?

I wonder till I'm wide awake

I know I'm pacing back and forth

Wishing you were at my door

I'd open up and you would say 'hey'

It was enchanting to meet you

All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling

Don't you let it go

I'm wonderstruck

Blushing all the way home

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew, ooh

This night is flawless

Don't you let it go

I'm wonderstruck

Dancing around all alone

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

I was enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that this was the very first page

Not where the storyline ends

My thoughts will echo your name

Until I see you again

These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon

I was enchanted to meet you

Please, don't be in love with someone else

Please, don't have somebody waiting on you

Please, don't be in love with someone else

Please, don't have somebody waiting on you

This night is sparkling

Don't you let it go

]I'm wonderstruck

Blushing all the way home

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless

Don't you let it go

I'm wonderstruck

Dancing around all alone

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

I was enchanted to meet you

Please, don't be in love with someone else

Please, don't have somebody waiting on you

=please dont be in love wit somebody else=

Jenny~

i dont know

tell me what i dont know,

coz i wanna be someone good enough for u..

dont hide it from me..

coz it juz make me dont know wat ur thinkin..

i dont know anythin..

all i know now,

is i still love you...

Jenny~

love,love,love!

my love to u, my friends, family and God..

Hello Panda biscuits!!

Big Apple donuts! (ooo, my all time fav!)

ice-cream of all kinds of flavours!!

chocolates no matter black or white!

=love! love! lovE!=

Jenny~

normal..

am back to da normal me... da normal me where anger, jealousy and stuffs like that wont conquer me that easily.. i think im much more lovable in this way, right? hihi..

to the person who hav to bear wit my anger,

to the person who hav to bear wit my jealousy,

to the person who hav to listen to me being sarcastic,

to the person who hav to bear wit my randomness,

to the person who hav to bear wit me being manja2x all da time,

i wanna say sorry and forgive me for being such a lousy person..

sorry for making u feel bad and makin evrythin looks so bleak..

and sorry is the only word that i can think of now...

right now, im back to my normal state...

and i promise u,

i'll do much more better and bcome da person u first fall for last time..

(lets go eat ice-cream! hehe...)

=i still love u=

Jenny~

heartbreaker?

this post is for general use, and is not intended to anyone... hihi... orite, da story is this... heartbreakers are the term where i used to those who breaks ppl hearts either that person is someone's gf or bf, or even someone's best friends and stuffs like tat... so, im wondering why do they break ppl's heart though intended or maybe not?

when u enter someone's life, ur meant to create good memories not only for urself, but also for others right? so it seems that ur part is a good part right? so why bother break ppl's heart in the end? i mean i did get heartbroken last time and its funny coz when i thought back about it, it seems like breaking ppl's heart is such an easy job... it is as if our heart is a piece of glass and someone juz threw a big stone against it, shattering it.... do u noe how painful is tat and how long does it take to recover all da pieces and stick it back to the usual place?

so these are da questions to those who loves to break ppl's heart out there...

why bother breaking ppl's heart if u don wanna get hurt?

why coming into someone's life, making good memories and eventually spoiling it?

why making someone smile when in the end, u make tat person cry?

and last but not least,

why enter someone's life and leave not wit a good purpose but causing so much pain and sorrow?

so before breaking someone's heart, answer all these and remember karma do happens... u do something bad, that something bad will come chasing after u... so to those who love breaking ppl's heart, stop it before it happens back to u...

=break my heart, and i'll break urs=

Jenny~