after hols.

yeap, like wat da title mentioned above, cny hols juz finished and am back to routine life here.. well, im much stronger compared to last time and yeah, more enthusiastic in doin what in doin right now.. holidays with my parents and spending quality time with them makes me miss them a lot.. but i guess this is life.. life requires us to move on step by step independently.. we cant always depend on our parents till we're old right?

back to life, of course lectures, assignments and activities are waiting to be completed.. kinda worry of the time but am making sure to spend my time preciously... and this covers not only with my studies life but also with my r/ship.. lookin back at past weeks makes me think on why did i chose to think so much and making myself insecure.. and eventually i got my own answer and now is da time to change.. all da too-much-thinking has make me insecure and not him.. i guess its all my fault for thinkin so much.. so no more thinking too much and start to think positive all da time.. besides, i trust him a lot and i cant bear let my thinking-too-much to ruin our r/ship.. all i can do is to pray and hope that evrythin will go smoothly..

well, i guess those are my updates for da night.. hehe.. will update again soon. =)

Jenny~

holidays!

im on holidays again!

chinese new year is coming and i cant wait to celebrate it back at home with my parents.. and yeah, with all da food n delicacies, i think im gonna gain weight.. hehe.. but nevertheless, its a chance for me to get away from all these hectic moments in college and spend some quality with myself.. and of course after the holidays, it will be another round of super hectic days with tonnes of assignments, lesson plannings as well as handling big festivals.. but overall, i think i will be able to learn something out of it, right?

goin back home means not meeting my best friends and my piggy.. am gonna miss them a lot though its only a one week break.. but im hoping that wehn im back, evrythin will resume normally like how it should have been.. may all da grudges, anger and stuffs like tat disappear into thin air when im back.. hehe.. and of course may we have a tighter bond between one another.. to my piggy, i hope we're gonna get even closer like before and spend a lot of times creating memories together.. hehe.. i love my piggy and besties.. =D

anywayz, wishing all of my faithful readers (if got) a happy chinese new year and may God bless ya owes.. may ur life be filled with prosperity, wealth and good health for da whole year.. =)

Jenny~

hmm.

sometimes when i thought back,

i realised im a lucky girl.

i mean i hav a super loving family that supports me.

i hav friends that are as crazy as me, and cares for me no matter wat.

i hav him that loves me as much as i do.

but sometimes im worried.

worried that my luck will run out one day.

afraid that what i hav now might disappear one day.

afraid that i hav to go thru tat kind of feeling again.

and afraid that i would get over it again..

Jenny

updates...

woots.. haven been updatin this bloggie for quite some time.. well, am kinda busy juggling my time here and there.. and yeah, this year i took up like a lot of challenges in my life.. but i guess i need to learn somethin new right? so, this year:
1. am da class monitor... and luckily da class is workin wit one another well, though i know the reality... but so far, i havent encountered any difficulties in managing the class...
2. am da head of committee in handling the upcoming chinese new year festival.. actually, i didnt plan to be da head of committee since i was juz joking here and there.. but i elect myself and took up da challenge so as to prove to everyone that i can do something.. though its not gonna be as grand like last year and not as perfect like last year, i will still try my best to do my best in ensuring its success...
3. studies are ok ok.. i mean this year, we wont be having super-extremely difficult papers anymore.. so am striving for excellene and of course compete with my own abilities.. i guess my priority is to do my best and make sure that it maintains... i always believe that those who laugh at u or look down on u will eventually envy you at da end of da day..

so i guess u can see how bz i am for this semester.. so many things have to be completed.. tonnes of assignment, lesson plans, micro-teaching and so forth, came attacking me one by one.. i guess i hav to be strong and start doin something..

-time waits for no man-
Jenny

genie.

if only i hav a mr. genie here,

i wanna wish for one thing.

i wish u enter and never leave.

Jenny

thinking.

sometimes when i browse in facebook and seeing my friends whose either got married or are in a relationship for a long period of time, i actually wonders...

wonder how they can maintain such a long term relationship with one another..
wonder what remedy do they use to keep fighting for their love..
wondering how much obstacles they have gone thru within those years of being together..
wondering whether they ever got sick with it and wanna let go of it...
and i wonder if i can be as lucky as them..

sometimes, i juz wished i can look into my future..
Jenny~

dream

what if one day all da dreams that i dreamt off when im still sleeping come true?

will it make me happy or break me apart?

Jenny~

lightweight

im currently addicted to demi lovato as well as bruno mars... and their lyrics hit me deep inside.. and one of demi lovato's songs that kept me so much addicted with, entitled "lightweight"... this part of lyrics juz hit me deep inside:

"I’m a lightweight

Better be careful what you say
With every word I’m blown away
You’re in control of my heart
I’m a lightweight
Easy to fall, easy to break
With every move my whole world shakes
Keep me from falling apart"

i guess it simply describes me..
i may look strong outside,
i may look like i dont care,
and i may look like i can get used to things easily,
but da fact is im not what u see from da outside..

Jenny~

back to reality..

finally after spending almost two months on vacation, its time to get back to reality.. and somehow, im adjustin to it perfectly.. i guess, goin back to reality as well as routine seems to be a normal thing to do here.. but im gearing up wit all da busy-ness that's gonna hit my life soon.. gotta be strong and face all of it instead of hiding away and complaining..

hopefully 2012 will be a good year for all of us including me.. its kinda scary facing with reality especially when changes happen rapidly without u noticing it..

-Jenny-