thank you

Has not been updating this blog for quite some time.

Put the blame on MQA for taking so much of my "me-time" as well as making me tired and stressed out physically and mentally,

which basically equates to adding fats into my body..

And yes, i am fat now.. sheesh!!

anywayz, wont be talking about that instead.

I mean, talking about fats in my belly wouldn't make much changes to me after all.

Gotta find a way to eliminate them!

Anywayz, back to the topic.

Why thank you?

Have I not thanked someone today?

I did.

And I wanna thank another person again,

Its Him.

Thank You for letting me hear things that will now cease me from developing weird feelings again.

Thank You for opening my eyes to see why I should be glad to be the one who got away.

Thank You for reminding me that You only take away those people who are not worth it from my sides.

And thank You, for letting me see how love could drive a person evil and heartless.

And last but not least, thank You for the strength. Without You, I would have stuck in the same place.

And now by clarifying up things that have been on my mind for quite some time, I finally able to see the lights.

I am now able to tell myself that looking back is a no-no to me, and that it is stupid to do so.

because, at the end of the day, i whom got away is now living in a better situation than you who still dwells in darkness..

I wish you would get out from it soon too. But if not, it's now no longer my concern.

Jenny~

Lucky.

Lucky is a word that I have been using always,
whenever I see good things happening to others and not on me,
I would say,
"Aawww, ur so lucky!"
whenever good things happen to me and people were giving me praises,
I would say,
"Aawww, I was just lucky!"

But does everything really happen because that someone is lucky or I am lucky?
Does people get into relationship with someone good because he or she is lucky?
Does people who earned awards and recognitions because he or she is lucky?
Does people who always get high grades in their exams is because he or she is lucky?

It took me a while to realise this fact,
until a friend of mine came to me and told me she was selected to represent the campus for a competition,
And I found myself instead of saying that she is lucky,
I told her she deserved the rights to enter that competition,
at that right moment, it struck me that not everything happens out of luck.
It happens because of the efforts, time and patience given on it.
She deserves the rights to be chosen for the competition because of her endless efforts, passions, time spent and her patience in completing her research.
And that is something I envy as well as wanted to build in me.
To be honest,
I wanted to take part in that competition as well,
I wanted to stand in front and take the spotlight, making myself the center of attention,
but I didnt put in the efforts, passions, time as well as patience like my friend.
And because of that, she totally deserves it.

Thus, I taught myself,
Things does not happen because someone is too lucky or because luck was not on one's side.
Things happen because it is us who put our utmost efforts in making things happen.
By putting efforts and time, things will eventually come our way.
I might not be able to join this time,
but I believe that opportunities are always there.
I just have to work harder a bit and make sure I make the fullest use of my talent.
And for my friend, I wish you all the best in the competition and I anticipate your sharing after you are back from it. Am so excited for you! You deserve it. ^_^

Jenny~

My brothers and sisters

I realised that I rarely talked about my brothers and sisters in this blog,
And it is selfish not to do so,
Therefore, here we go.. ^^

Those people that you can see in this picture is my five long years of brothers and sisters plus dad (my lecturer right there.. hahaha..) ..
Each one of them has their own unique personality,
They have those parts where I could remember the best,
those parts that I could always imitate,
the way they talk, take selfies or even the way they dress are something that all of us know by heart right now..
Even though there are times where we get annoyed with one another,
pissed off with one another,
unable to achieve agreement with one another,
and always having those silent wars or fights with one another,
at the end of the day,
we are still one.
and because of that, I never regretted choosing this path..
This path showed me a lot of things, the good ones and the bad ones,
This path showed me my talent and helped me to change my perception about life, love and friendship.
And if i return back to five years before, 
I would still pick this path.
Thank you, wonderful brothers and sisters..
We still have less than two months to be with together,
Let's make full use of these two months and create unforgettable memories!
=)

Jenny~

Done!

Finally,

completed my thesis presentation during the seminar,

and I actually able to overcome my nervousness that time!

I had done my presentation on my action research,

and I was glad that I was able to keep calm and did it well,

despite several factors that might have caused a little distraction,

but thank God, everything went well..

From these two days, i discovered a lot about myself.

I found that despite I am talentless in music, singing, dancing, doing crafts or whatsoever,

I found that presentation skills is somehow a talent to me,

being able to stand in front of people and share what I know,

made me felt excited instead of being nervous.

I was not scared, instead wished I have more time to share what I have done to people.

And I can say that, if i was given more time, I can do better.

I also learnt that,

sometimes when past haunts us,

instead of being distracted or feeling sad about those reminiscence,

I felt motivated and even more confident.

Not that it injected me with support or motivation,

but instead,

it made me felt that I should do even better,

show that I am good,

and last but not least, show that i have changed.

I grew up and I wanna thank to whoever that "forced" me to do so.

Because of you, I became someone I never knew I could be. =)

Jenny~