end of 2013.

today is 31.12.2013..
what does it mean?
for me, it means a lot..
it means the final day of the year 2013..
and it also signifies the end of an awesome year despite all the challenges that came to me in this year..
and it is also the time for us to let go of the past, and move fresh ahead while creating even more memories..

Recapping back to the year 2013,
there were a lot of nice memories and also bad ones...
but the most important is i learnt something in every experience that i went through or witnessed myself..
i learnt to be strong and always put myself as a priority..
i learnt not to give people 100% of my hopes and dreams...
i learnt to stand on my own and be more careful in taking care of my own feelings..
i learnt to take care of myself and be happy..
and most important thing is, i am still surrounded by people who loves me and makes me happy always..
i guess that's the most important thing that i want to keep till forever...

and next, recapping back on this year's resolutions, let's see if i actually achieved it or not? haha..
so basically the resolutions i made for the year 2013 was:

- to be healthy always by taking care on my food
= achieved! less Maggie and start to practice good food routinely.. good food as in rice and noodles (not Maggie).. haha.. 

- to be fit always by trying to go for a walk in the evening
= not achieved! haha... ok, i mostly spent my time in my room despite the time i have to go for a walk... and also i shall place a little blame on my practical since im in afternoon session..

- to focus more on studies so that i would be able to reach my targets
= achieved! i seriously place more time on my studies and do not stray too much from it.. and my target for these semesters' results are basically more than i expected... Thank God! =D

- to be happy by meeting new people and stop thinking about the past
= achieved! ok, second part was achieved.. haha.. i somehow deleted the past from my memory and by taking that courageous actions, i am now a better person.. haha.. the first part was un-achievable since there's not much social function or even new people to meet? hahaha... but there are some new acquaintances though.. =)

- to do something meaningful
= i dont really remember in terms of what, but i guess i did do something meaningful.. i guess, even by spending time with my friends or going on vacations with them is something meaningful for me.. seeing them happy makes me happy, and that is meaningful..

so, to end this post, i would like to wish all my readers a Happy New Year 2014! May the new year brings a new aura into you and makes u a better person.. God bless and may everything goes well for you and me.. ^^

2014 resolutions?
next post.. hehe..
Jenny~

Christmas wish list?

As I had stated in my previous post, this post will b about my Christmas wish list..
So, everyone of us celebrated Christmas in our most special ways..
Some went for carolling, others celebrated it with their loved ones in churches or homes..
Some brought their families or loved ones for dinner and last but nt least, getting presents for one another..
But for me?
Christmas has always been normal..
Dinner, church and that's it..
No expected presents or anything..
And thus, everyone would b like, you must have a lot to wish for ur Christmas right?

And my answer?
Every year, I wish for da same..
Good health for my family,
Peace and happiness with my family and friends,
And last but not least,
Able to celebrate it with someone that loves me and I love too..

So, I guess til da last condition is fulfilled, this wish list will always be what I wished for evry year for Christmas..
Hehe..
Simple but meaningful,
And could last forever.. =)

Jenny~

Christmas!

Christmas is here!
And it's the time of da year where we gather up with our family members, and celebrating it with Christmas songs and mass with all the parishioners from the same church, good food and good company..
And for me, Christmas is always special..
With the presence of my family members and friends, I guess that's da best presents I could possibly ask for (though I still wish for a lot more.. Hehehehe...)
My Christmas wish list?
Guess that will b posted in the next post.. Hehe..

Nevertheless, I wanna wish everyone who reads this, a Merry Christmas and may God bless all of u with lots of loves and presents..

Jenny~

Reading back

you know what is the coolest thing of keeping a blog where you have been writing for almost 3 years, and without deleting any posts?

it is the memories and the feelings that can be felt through each post..

i was reading back all the posts that i have been writing in a few months this year..

and i was laughing..

laughing at how naive were my feelings,

laughing at how much pain i must have suffered while writing those posts..

and laughing coz every post meant something that at that moment, i didnt know..

its really nice when i read back all those posts,

thinking back about what i have went through and the feelings i have been enduring..

it felt really nice though some posts are stupid..

haha..

it just help me reflect on whether did i actually learnt something from all i have been experiencing?

or do i just keep doing the same mistakes over and over again...

so for those who wrote almost everything about their life in their blog,

why dont start reading back on each and every post that u have made..

you would find that your blog could either be a love novel with tragic twists here and there, or simply a novel with different unfinished chapters..

mine hasnt ended yet and might not end, i guess..

coz this blog still has a lot of things to be filled in..

and a lot of memories to be cherished.. ^^

Jenny~

my current obsession.

ok, so ever since i turned single,
i am obsessing on almost everything...
food, pets, artists, celebrities, youtubers, cute animantions, u name all..
and yes, i am now currently deeply in love with this awesome youtuber..
and he is, tadaaaaa!!
Wesley Chan...

hahahaha...
even writing about him makes me smile awkwardly to myself..
ok, anyways, he is one of the members in WongFu Production which is an awesome youtuber group..
they made numerous funny videos, skits and also short movies..
and yeah, they are really recognized by their works...
and one of my favourite and also a place to see this awesome guy is in the WongFu weekends where the three of them, Phil, Ted and Wesley would gather and make something.. hehe..

ok, why am i so obsessed to him?
i guess, he just fits the type i wanted as a lifetime partner..
someone whose funny in their own serious ways..
someone whose really accomplished in their career..
someone who made me smile awkwardly again..
anyways, this guy will be my trending topic for the whole week or month or year, maybe?
hahaha... (and some more pics of him including the one on my wallpaper currently.. hehe..)

find me a guy like him and i would less than three him a lot..

Jenny~

ABCDEFG (part 2)?

ok, so i said in my previous post that i would relate the 6 qualities that my aunt described to me (in details) to my own selection for my future partner..
basically, i dont have anyone right now so yeah, i dont even know whether i would have the chance to use this checklist..
but anywhooooo, here comes the description:

A - age
~ so basically, she said that i should seek for a guy whose not too old for me or too young for me.. and yeah, i wanted someone whose older than me next time and i hope he makes the decisions in everything and compromise with me sometimes in certain choices.. =D

B - background
~ aunt say i must seek for a guy with a good family background.. well, i think this is because every good deeds start from home? haha.. well, a good family will produce a good child and i believed in that. the influences from parents are indeed strong enough to reflect through one's actions and deeds.. so yeah, i gotta find someone with a good family background..

C - character
~ so, understandable based on the key word.. a guy that has good characters.. u name it and yes, it goes under this point.. hehe..

D - dormitory
~ ok, aunt said that i must find a guy with a house first.. and this causes disagreement from my mom.. well, in my opinion, i think the guy must have started some investment or have some investment plans for the two of us in the future is he wanna be with me for a long time right? so, conclusion here, is u dont need to have a house to make me want u... haha...

E - educational level
~ this is important so the guy i chose is not dumb? haha.. basically, he must be of the same level or higher par than me.. and does this mean i should not go for masters till i find one? haha.. im confused! 

F - faithfulness
~ most important of all the qualities mentioned.. and this is one thing that i seek the most in one person, regardless as the one or as a friend.. i believe that if he wants me, he must be faithful to me.. pyhsically, and mentally.. seriously.. haha..

so in conclusion, this is the checklist that i might use when i meet someone next time.. but if i dont or unable to use this checklist, i guess my readers could learn and maybe adapt it and use it their own selection process? haha.. nevertheless, i have more things i seek in a person after the first failed relationship.. cant blame me though.. haha.. 

since when less than three became so complicated?
Jenny~

ABCDEFG

ok, holidays is showing its side effects on me..
and yes, it really does..
but am not gonna talk about it coz talking bout it would not help..
actions should help..
but today's post is not gonna be about that..

its about a family gathering i attended to last weekend..
so, yeah, we had a family gathering to celebrate my grandma's age?
or is it birthday?
ok, i am blur..
but anywayz, its a family event..
and yeah, as usual, my aunts and uncles would ask all of us, cousins about our life, careers for those working and studies for those whose still studyin..
and then, da word came up, 
RELATIONSHIPS!
and amongst all da cousins sitting around, i am the only one whose single..
blessings in disguise?
or just unwanted?
or maybe not ready?
i dont know..

so, knowing i am single, 
this is the checklist given by my aunt during those discussions..
she said to look at these 6 qualities in a guy before choosing him as my life partner (thanx aunt! ur awesome!)
so here goes the list:

A: Age 
B: Background
C: Character
D: Dormitory
E: Educational level
F: Faithfulness

so yeah,  these qualities absolutely solve the mystery behind my topic right? and how does that related to me now? check it out at the next post. hehe..

Jenny~

Distance

Please don't stand so close to me,
I'm having trouble breathing,
I'm afraid of what you'll see right now,
I give you everything I am,
All my broken heart beats,
Until I know you'll understand.

And I will make sure to keep my distance,
Say, "I love you," when you're not listening,
And how long can we keep this up, up, up?

An awesome song by Christina Perri feat Jason Mraz..
just struck me and yeah, felt like posting this extract of lyric...
it made me stopped for a while and think properly,
and eventually, i found my answer out of it..
i guess, keeping a distance till i'm pretty sure i am ready is the best..

Jenny~