almost there.

I can say that I am almost there.
Almost reaching to the end of my studies..
By completing the hurdles that I have listed in my previous post, I would be there already.
And out of sudden, I felt like reflecting the past 5.5 years here.
From strangers to close-knitted friends,
From strangers to close lecturers who loves all of us like their own kids,
From strangers to people whom I knew,
From a strange place to a familiar place,
And lastly,
From a stranger to lover and now, stranger. 

This 5.5 years taught me a lot,
opened my eyes a lot,
let me see how people are,
both when they need and dont need you.
i was also able to see people,
people that loves me and those who dont.
but still, they are the ones who taught me,
that no one can be trusted.
No one would stay.
Everyone would leave one day.

Not only that, workloads, lectures,
taught me to be responsible,
taught me to see my career in another perspectives,
and most importantly,
shape me into someone I should be in the future.
Integrity is the theme for today's post,
But how many of us could do the right things at all time?
At the end of the day,
it is us who have to decide.
Decide to do the right thing not only in our career, 
but in life.
Coz at the very end, we only have us to help ourselves.

Jenny.

Seminar

Well, seminar.

What does seminar has to do with me?

AS some of you whose been in touch with this blog, I am now in my final semester..

and within, two more months, I will be out of this campus,

and eventually entering the world where people start to do similar things,

work, earn money and survive.

Anywayz, in order to get to that stage,

there are still so much more to be completed.

Seminar where I am required to present my action research paper,

SPP interview where it is a must to pass in order to get posted as a teacher,

MQA where all folios and stuffs must be well known, and it will somehow make us as the main sample to determine whether the whole TESL programme deserves to be accredited or not.

Courseworks which are still pending,

Exams which is a must to get through

and finally, the final product of Action Research..

So, can you see how much more things to be completed within two months?

No wonder, my head is filled with works and works,

and thanx to all those things,

my white hairs are coming out again, like seriously.

Anywayz, hoping that the seminar presentation will go on well next week.

Excited to present, however nervous with whom am i gonna get to evaluate me.

But nevertheless, I am confident (but not over-confident) with my presentation skills and I am going to boost myself up (coz i still have flaws here and there) on this part.

At least I can entrust myself to do well in this part.

My latest motto: No one could help me instead of myself. Therefore, love myself, do good to myself and always stay strong.

Jenny~

Vacation

For the past week which was coincide with the school holidays,
I actually decided to go for a short vacation with my classmates..
We went to Malacca and KL,
and going to these places taught me a lot,
open my eyes and having different perceptions about life and reality.

Well, first stop, Malacca..
It's a nice place filled with tourists from everywhere,
and the streets are usually packed with people..
There is no single time that the streets are empty except during the wee hours..
There is a lot of historical places in which I got to see in real life aside from only referring to the textbooks.
And it is quite interesting, but unluckily, the journey in which we traveled by foot is another excruciating experience..
Having to walk from one place to another, and with very limited time given,
it was super exhausting and to be honest, I didnt get to have the most fun out of it..
Did I add on that the weather played around with us too?
But, I love Malacca,
It is somehow another destination that I would like to re-visit again in the future with my family especially my sister whom doesnt get a chance to travel yet,
and maybe one of the destinations that I would like to spend my time with someone significant to me,
but that is another thing.

Next stop, KL.
It's busy, hot, packed with people and filled with weird people..
Ranging from tourists packed in shopping complex to unsound people who are sleeping at staircases and streets..
This is the reality of Malaysia that KL has to show to me,
and made me felt like I do not want to stay at that place.
I guess I was not used to it.
Not used to how fast things happen,
how packed are the monorails or LRT,
how money were spent like river flowing,
how people interacted with one another,
how PDA was performed right in your face,
and also how the reality it is there.

I guess being at my own hometown in Sarawak is much better,
At least I know my geography and history well,
and would not ask whether someone from Sarawak or Sabah comes from Malaysia. (seriously happened during my vacation.)
Anywayz, pictures will be uploaded in my facebook or instagram as I somehow dont really believe in the blogger's privacy..
Well, that's all for my vacation.
Will be sharing what i went through emotionally during my vacation and post-vacation here soon.
As a whole, it's a wonderful bonding time and memories created will always be cherished. =)

Jenny~

Water.

When my dad accompanied me to my campus five years back,

We were all gathered with all the other parents and students in a hall.

We talked about the future and the most important thing was the director told all the parents about the water shortage that have been bugging the campus for years.

And that was five years ago.

During the whole five years in this campus, 

water shortage became from a rare item into a norm.

There is no longer the element of surprise waking up in the morning, and realised that there is no water.

Coz basically we have been trained to get used to it.

And yet lecturers could come and say to us that these are all the challenges that we will face if we get posted in rural areas.

In which, I now know how precious water is and yes, it must be even more challenging and difficult for teachers in rural areas to get water especially clean supply of it.

But one day, while calling my dad and complaining like usual as a girl who still thinks that water shortage is ok but not in the critical moment like when she is having diarrhea (this sentence is too long!),

my dad said,

"Already five years and still no changes. Dont know where all those money go."

And that struck my mind,

How can water pipes can be fixed and damaged just like that?

We just fixed it weeks ago, and now you're telling me its broken?

Is it made of glass?

Somehow, though I could only complain endlessly, but i chose not to.

What's the point?

Will the superior even look at me and listen to me, a normal trainee teacher?

Instead of complaining, I tried to learn and make full use of this "special" experiences.

I mean who knows where I could be posted next year, right?

So, when life gives you lemon, take it and make lemon pies instead.. 

teehee..

Jenny~