Riding on the train carriage,
Sipping through her favourite cup of tea,
Reading her favourite book,
Watching the scenery that passes by,
Going through every bumps and ups and downs in the journey.
She felt free.
No one to tie her down with commitment.
She felt happy.
No one to make her feel anxious or getting mood swings.
She felt light.
No one to make her tied in one position and free to go anywhere.
But sometimes,
she is like us,
like you too.
She wants to feel how it is being committed with someone,
She also wants to feel anxious and get those roller-coasters feelings once in a while,
and she also wants to be tied in one position once in a while with someone.
Sometimes,
we thought that she is good being left alone,
but the truth is,
she too needs someone to rely on.
And it is never easy to do so.
I guess she fears of handing out her heart again.
I guess she is still broken inside.
And I guess she is like us too,
at the end of the day,
she wants to be loved.
To be different.
Jenny~
I am an imperfect human being,
who does mistakes here and there.
I am not a perfect human being who never done any mistakes before.
In my life, job, and relationship.
Mistakes always occur.
But I am thankful.
Thankful that all these mistakes remind me that,
I am a weak person who always struggles to be a strong person.
In life, I am thankful with the mistakes I have done.
Through those mistakes, I have changed and remembered of not repeating the same mistakes again.
In my job as a teacher, my mistakes are magnified.
All eyes are on me and my mistakes.
But no eyes are on me and my glory.
But I still go through with it,
knowing that I have chose this path of life.
And all I could do is to remind myself never to do such mistakes anymore.
Reminding myself that no one will understand that it was only a mistake,
instead they will only put the blame on us.
In relationship, my mistakes remind me of my worth.
That it is not worth to do the same mistakes again.
And I should never repeat the mistakes again,
instead learn from it,
get up from it,
and walk off from it.
So that's it.
I have done a mistake.
I learnt from it.
I remember it.
And it's time to go on with my journey.
After all, I am only an imperfect human being.
Jenny~
who does mistakes here and there.
I am not a perfect human being who never done any mistakes before.
In my life, job, and relationship.
Mistakes always occur.
But I am thankful.
Thankful that all these mistakes remind me that,
I am a weak person who always struggles to be a strong person.
In life, I am thankful with the mistakes I have done.
Through those mistakes, I have changed and remembered of not repeating the same mistakes again.
In my job as a teacher, my mistakes are magnified.
All eyes are on me and my mistakes.
But no eyes are on me and my glory.
But I still go through with it,
knowing that I have chose this path of life.
And all I could do is to remind myself never to do such mistakes anymore.
Reminding myself that no one will understand that it was only a mistake,
instead they will only put the blame on us.
In relationship, my mistakes remind me of my worth.
That it is not worth to do the same mistakes again.
And I should never repeat the mistakes again,
instead learn from it,
get up from it,
and walk off from it.
So that's it.
I have done a mistake.
I learnt from it.
I remember it.
And it's time to go on with my journey.
After all, I am only an imperfect human being.
Jenny~
Spent my weekends on a school camping,
and totally no regrets!
Despite the sudden bad weathers as well as some pupils' actions,
I had a lot of fun with the awesome teachers and pupils too..
From the camp, I learnt a lot of new things,
and I experienced a lot of new feelings again.
Drove myself to the camping resort which is seriously something I felt proud of.
Just by depending on a google map which I browsed 2 minutes before I started my journey as well as trusting my instincts,
made ma felt like what I have dreamt all this while,
Being independent.
Reaching there and saw the camping site which a traditional Iban longhouse was a shocking experience,
But it totally reminds me of my village back in Roban,
and I missed my childhood.
And activities as well as spending time with the teachers whom have so much to talk about made me felt that,
no matter how frequent we felt lonely,
there will always be people around you who will still cheer you up.
The night where we did night walk or better known as "burung pungguk" was the best part,
I didnt know I could scared kids out of their wits,
and that shows how "creative" I could be sometimes..
And the feelings where kids held onto my hands and not letting go made me felt that,
teachers are indeed superheroes to the kids.
I am thankful that despite a few minor accidents whereby I fell (as usual) and got bitten by ants (as usual),
but everything went well.
No hysteria cases and everything went well.
I had fun and this is one of the most memorable camp with my awesome teachers and kids.
More to come!
Jenny~
and totally no regrets!
Despite the sudden bad weathers as well as some pupils' actions,
I had a lot of fun with the awesome teachers and pupils too..
From the camp, I learnt a lot of new things,
and I experienced a lot of new feelings again.
Drove myself to the camping resort which is seriously something I felt proud of.
Just by depending on a google map which I browsed 2 minutes before I started my journey as well as trusting my instincts,
made ma felt like what I have dreamt all this while,
Being independent.
Reaching there and saw the camping site which a traditional Iban longhouse was a shocking experience,
But it totally reminds me of my village back in Roban,
and I missed my childhood.
And activities as well as spending time with the teachers whom have so much to talk about made me felt that,
no matter how frequent we felt lonely,
there will always be people around you who will still cheer you up.
The night where we did night walk or better known as "burung pungguk" was the best part,
I didnt know I could scared kids out of their wits,
and that shows how "creative" I could be sometimes..
And the feelings where kids held onto my hands and not letting go made me felt that,
teachers are indeed superheroes to the kids.
I am thankful that despite a few minor accidents whereby I fell (as usual) and got bitten by ants (as usual),
but everything went well.
No hysteria cases and everything went well.
I had fun and this is one of the most memorable camp with my awesome teachers and kids.
More to come!
Jenny~
The perks of being a teacher?
To have the power to create something out of nothing.
When I got my posting in Miri, I aimed for one goal.
Glory.
And because of that, i work towards that.
And I started to make little changes starting from the classes that I taught.
I felt that in order for people to recognise my accomplishments, I must do something that they can clearly see.
And thus, I started small.
By teaching and nagging my pupils about the need to greet with high enthusiasm while bowing down as a sign of respect,
By telling them to speak nicely to teachers and even resort to threatening them that if I heard any complaints, they will surely get punished.
By preparing my kids whom will perform in front of everyone,
By ensuring that whatever I learnt from other schools, I will try to be innovative and re-create it in my school.
And last but not least, ensuring that the teachers will see that their kids are as talented like all the other kids out there.
All you need is time, perseverance and commitment.
Kids might think that all this are just for my own intention of achieving glory,
but slowly, they too can see the changes happening in them.
How enthusiastic they are in the class,
How they got labelled from the worse class into a better one now,
and how the teachers paid attention to my worst class during their first-time performance in English.
As well as how teachers gave their compliments and applause after their performance.
That's the reward.
As for me?
Teachers found that I am special in my own ways.
Teachers complimented on the ways I taught my pupils to respect.
Teacher saw my creativity and my hard works in preparing kids in whatever I have planned for them.
And there is this sense of satisfaction when all the hard works I did behind the scenes get noticed and complimented.
And this drives my motivation to plant more seeds of changes in my school.
And all this thanks to my model teachers and lecturers, Mrs. Sharuliza, Mr. Charlton, Mr. John and Mdm. Vasanthi whom taught me that to create a great thing, we need to start slow and steady.
And because of that,
I will continue strive for greater things that I have in mind.
Let's do this!
Jenny~
To have the power to create something out of nothing.
When I got my posting in Miri, I aimed for one goal.
Glory.
And because of that, i work towards that.
And I started to make little changes starting from the classes that I taught.
I felt that in order for people to recognise my accomplishments, I must do something that they can clearly see.
And thus, I started small.
By teaching and nagging my pupils about the need to greet with high enthusiasm while bowing down as a sign of respect,
By telling them to speak nicely to teachers and even resort to threatening them that if I heard any complaints, they will surely get punished.
By preparing my kids whom will perform in front of everyone,
By ensuring that whatever I learnt from other schools, I will try to be innovative and re-create it in my school.
And last but not least, ensuring that the teachers will see that their kids are as talented like all the other kids out there.
All you need is time, perseverance and commitment.
Kids might think that all this are just for my own intention of achieving glory,
but slowly, they too can see the changes happening in them.
How enthusiastic they are in the class,
How they got labelled from the worse class into a better one now,
and how the teachers paid attention to my worst class during their first-time performance in English.
As well as how teachers gave their compliments and applause after their performance.
That's the reward.
As for me?
Teachers found that I am special in my own ways.
Teachers complimented on the ways I taught my pupils to respect.
Teacher saw my creativity and my hard works in preparing kids in whatever I have planned for them.
And there is this sense of satisfaction when all the hard works I did behind the scenes get noticed and complimented.
And this drives my motivation to plant more seeds of changes in my school.
And all this thanks to my model teachers and lecturers, Mrs. Sharuliza, Mr. Charlton, Mr. John and Mdm. Vasanthi whom taught me that to create a great thing, we need to start slow and steady.
And because of that,
I will continue strive for greater things that I have in mind.
Let's do this!
Jenny~
September has finally ended,
and here we go with October..
Updates!
Exams are around the corner,
Getting prepped up with preparing kids for the year end performance,
Had a lot of ideas,
but putting it into action requires a lot of time and hard work.
Online stuffs, deadlines and ever-changing policies here and there are making career life a little difficult,
but there is always an end about it though.
Just gotta grab a tub of ice-cream and complete all those online stuffs!
Life?
Nothing much.
Still prefer staying inside,
Not getting out is the best solution.
Typically avoid any talks or discussions on love and relationship.
Basically, am out of it.
I guess, that's it.
Nothing much happened.
Just normal routines,
day in and day out.
Jenny~
and here we go with October..
Updates!
Exams are around the corner,
Getting prepped up with preparing kids for the year end performance,
Had a lot of ideas,
but putting it into action requires a lot of time and hard work.
Online stuffs, deadlines and ever-changing policies here and there are making career life a little difficult,
but there is always an end about it though.
Just gotta grab a tub of ice-cream and complete all those online stuffs!
Life?
Nothing much.
Still prefer staying inside,
Not getting out is the best solution.
Typically avoid any talks or discussions on love and relationship.
Basically, am out of it.
I guess, that's it.
Nothing much happened.
Just normal routines,
day in and day out.
Jenny~
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