im fine.

i felt really funny when ppl are asking bout my personal life.. all i could answer is my personal life is fine and there is nothing wrong with it.. we're still together and love one another... so what's with the fuss about my personal life? even my mom n dad didnt even ask bout it nor did they suspect anything, so what's the point of judging my own personal life?

everyone has their different styles of dating or "coupling".. and yes, we're different.. we date in our own ways, we are romantic in our own ways, we love one another in our own way but the most important thing here is that we still respect one another and make sure that we trust one another.. that's all.. ignore fancy gifts, sweet words and 24 hours "bodyguard-like" around u.. though i love to stick around with my boy, but i hav my own time with my girl-friends as well as him and his buddies as well..

and the next thing i would like to actually stress on is that though i hav my boy as well as my boy having me, it doesnt mean that we should stop making friends with other guys or girls right? i mean my boy trust me and that im given the freedom to make friends with anyone i want except if that person would harm me.. so why make a big issue when i hav a close guy friend here? jzu bcoz im being seen hanging out with my guy friends more than my boy in college doesnt mean im hooked on them.. so dont judge my personal life based on what u see or listened to.. its juz too cruel to simply label someone's r/ship when everythin is going perfectly well..

this post is not meant to blame anyone or asking ppl to stop being nosy about my personal life.. but as a sharing and to tell everyone that im fine and nothing is happening like what ur picturing in ur brain.. hehe.. im still happy with my personal life and im still carrying out my normal duties as a student, a daughter, a friend and as someone's girl.. that's all.. and if there is any parts whre ur curious, u juz gotta tell me instead of making it worse by telling others where they will interpret wrongly.. im ok in clarifying things up, juz that u gotta ask me.. and dont ever interfere with my friendship with anyone since u have no rights to do so with ur words..

Jenny~

bye bye april.

its da end of april and gonna be da beginning of may.. well, may seems like a good month since im gonna be havin my exam like in two weeks time and im gonna get really prepared this time.. i mean its time to get serious with Mr. Pointer.. and also it signifies the joy of goin home and spendin time with my parents and my long-lost friends back in brunei.. am crossing finger that the reunion can be done in a successful way.. hehehe...

well, lets take a long list of what i have done for this semester:
1. CNY Festival - became the project director and went thru a lot of stress and hardships in conducting the event.. but managed to pull thru with side effects on my studies but nevertheless, its a good experience and make me feel that i am able to lead though i have a lot more to learn..

2. Assignments - assignments are headaches... they juz keep flowing into ur desk and never flow out. but of course, everything has been completed at the very last minute which is something that i regretted on.. i guess that's the side effects and kinda felt reli sad when i was exposed of some truth on my assignments.. but of course this does not stop me but burn me up to strive my best for excellence..

3. BIG and all kinds of activities -  well, we had our BIG under the hot sunny day with community service as well as talks.. and it was ok except for the part where we were under the sun, painting lines on the basketball courts..

4. First aid workshop -  managed to finish the first aid workshop which stole my sweet weekends away.. but its worth it since i learnt like a lot of new things and make me feel much more confident in case i am asked to save someone's life...

and last but not least, this semester totally drain all our energy away since we have no time for ourselves and keep completing works and works, non-stop.. but luckily we managed to pull thru and right now, we're gearing up for the big fight which is exam.. im gonna strive for excellence with my luck this time.. i think its time for me to be mature and start to think about my own future.. i guess i gotta mould my own future this time...

Jenny.

current obsession.

my current obsession are these boys known as Big Bang! Gosh, their songs are like reli catchy and i have been listening to them repeatedly without even getting bored... hahaha... well, here comes pictures!

T.O.P and G-Dragon

 Seungri

 Daesung

Taeyang

i wish.

sometimes, im wishin for somethin that is so far away,
thinking of it hurts me and make me cry,
coz i dont know if im able to have it,
all i could is to stay strong,
and hope that im able to have it when the time comes.

right now, i tend to look at the present,
i dont dare to look to the future anymore,
bcoz im too afraid..
i dont wanna look behind coz im afraid im gonna cry again,
all i can do is to keep living each day,
and making memories everyday,
bcoz i dont know when will it end..

i promise myself to be strong,
but right now, i need u to promise that u will be strong too,
and keep holdin on,
coz i dont wanna be the only one holdin on,
coz it will hurt me the most when i realise im alone standing strong at the end.

Jenny~

today.

not really sure what to post for today..
what i am sure is da word busy has not faded away from my life..
just finished UAK today and yeah, this is the only time i can rest and do something i like..
before i have to start doing 5 reflections for 3 different subjects..
and the great thing is im gonna have to hand it in tomolo...
and then we will be havin first aid workshops which will take up da whole weekends..
and then folio for girl guide and not to mention the log book has to be handed in on mon...

its not the case of me procrastinating..
but its the case where things juz keep coming in merciless..
sigh..
i guess this is the life of a student right?
even after finish studying, the word tired does still exist right?
and in that time, where will the "me-time" goes?
sigh...

i wan my me-time~
Jenny~

happy bday to me..

finally reaches 20 years old..
thanx to God for allowing me to be alive till now..
thank u Lord Jesus Christ for allowing me to experience so much miracles and Your presence in my life all this while..
and thank u Lord for giving me chances to experience life..

thank u to both my mommy n daddy for giving me a chance to see the world..
now im a big girl and its my responsibility to take good care of u two..
thanx to my loved one for being wit me this year for my bday..
i wish that u will owes celebrate this important day with me every year..
i know there's no promises but at least im hoping for it..
thanx to my best friends for remembering my bday and da delicious cakes..
u noe its fattening for me and yet u still but my favourite ones.. thanx so much!
thanx to all those who wished in fb either thru writing on my walls as well as thru messages..
i appreciate every single thoughts..
and thanx to both my friends who are couple for their unexpected gift..
da gift meant a lot to me.. =)

and thanx to those who prayed for me, showered me with love and food (hehe), and ur warmest thoughts and care.. thank u so much and my prayers are with all of you.. love all of u loads.. xoxo.. =)

Jenny~

stay strong

i have thought about it..
and finally i have decided..
i am going to stay strong and hold on to it..
im not sure how far we can go but when seeing my best friend once in my condition too,
and finally has been accepted,
i felt hope..

i might get hurt or happy in da end,
but for now, i wanna appreciate everythin that is happening to me,
i dont wanna think of our future,
coz i noe God has His own ways for you and me..
so for now, all i could ask for u is to stay strong and hold on to me..
coz im not gonna let go..
as long as there is the littlest hope,
as long as i am still breathing,
as long as i am still in love with u,
i will keep holding on..

love makes me realise ur significance.
Jenny~

unexpected.

things happen when i least expected it..
i guess this is juz another process of life..
i receive what has been planned to me and im giving myself time to be prepared for whatever comes to me.
i never regret nor have i ever felt disappointed..
instead im happy and appreciate everything that happen to me..
and right now, i guess i juz wanna appreciate every single moment,
i wanna treasure all this memories so that i wont feel regret once all of this might disappear..
i know God has something in plan for me, so i guess i will follow Him and His plans..
God knows me better than anyone..

Jenny~

lucky.

my parents~

my siblings.

                                        
                                                                              my high-school mates

                 

me n my bestie~

me n my new friends.. =)

me and my girls.. ^^

and me n my him.

sometimes when i look around me, i feel really lucky..

blessed with a family that loves and cares for me no matter what happened,

blessed with friends from my primary schools who still remember me and find me through facebook, my high school friends who still maintain contact with me as well as my college mates who become my really good friends after going through so much including the new ones...

and blessed with someone who has entered my life and become my best companion..

unlike some of my friends who came from broken family, who has friends that backstab them in the end, or having a partner that cheats on them or deceive their feelings again and again...

sometimes, i learn from them..

i learn by looking at how they handle the matter as well as how they overcome this hardships as well as their sadness..

and i doubt i could be as strong like them when such things happen to me..

and i pray that these things dont happen to me..

maybe because of that, i feel really grateful for what God has given me...

Im grateful for the family that has been given to me..

though our home is juz an ordinary home and i have parents and siblings that are as normal as other family, i still love them a lot...

im grateful for the friends that has been given to me..

though some might have forgotten me, not as close like last time with me as well as might hate for my attitude, im still grateful that im able to learn stuffs from them... and for the new friends that i have made, im grateful for the friendship bond that u are willing to tie with me..

and im grateful for the one God has sent to me to end my waiting..

though i am not sure whether u are gonna be the one who will be waiting for me at the end of the aisle, but what im sure for now is i still love u for who u are..

 though i might be annoying and imperfect, but i hope u will be able to accept me as i am..
though ur not romantic and am not Mr. Perfect, i still love u as da old u.. hehe..

May God bless my family, my friends and my loved one so that we will remain attached with one another till forever.. Amen.. ^^

Jenny~