the word.

lonely.
one word.
depicts so much meaning or interpretations.
some people thought that being lonely means having no one beside them,
some thought of it as a kind of solitude that is enjoyed at times,
some thought of it as a depressing situation,
some thought of it as no one would ever understand their situations, which is why they depict themselves as lonely..

im a young 21 lady,
so i don't even dare to say that i have met all kinds of people from different walks of life,
i also dont have the courage to say that i know what's loneliness, 
because what i felt might be just a small part of what other people have been struggling with or fighting through,
sometimes, i wonder why?
why do people have to face the word loneliness?
why do people drown in that word with or without conscious?
why some people love it, and some people hate it?
why some people are happy to embrace themselves with it, and some cried while struggling with it..

in this age, my curiosity increases,
not on gaining knowledge in terms of academic,
because i know by googling it or reading it, i can get the answers,
but more on emotional and social sides of not on myself, but on other people,
people might think why do i wanna know so much?
why am i so busybody?
the real answer?
coz i would never be able to find all those answers through google or books..

people say i would know when i grow up,
but i want to know now,
and the main reason, i dont wanna go through another unexpected, unexplained pain,
no matter im a kid, girl, lady or woman.

Jenny~