490th post

this post is a meaningful post to me.
As in this post, i have taken my decision.
the decision to grow up,
grow out of pain,
to grow out of isolation,
and to become someone that i was last time..

after knowing the truth and the reason why it didnt work out,
i took the best option which is staying away and avoid,
but this year,
it seems like avoiding and staying away have never been the right answers,
avoiding would not solve anything,
and though i always deny it,
at the end of the day,
i am the one who felt the pain.

thus, i have made da decision,
to stop avoiding and start to embrace changes,
things might not be the same like it used to,
but at least i am trying,
we might not be as close as last time,
but at least i am trying,
not to get back together,
but to at least leave this campus on December with good memories, laughters and friendship,
and leaving no regrets,
and no more lingering questions of what-ifs..
and all i need is,
time.

Jenny~