today marks the last day of 2012.
also marks as da closing of a wonderful year which is filled with surprises, happiness, memories and sadness.
and with this,
i wanna apologize to everyone whom i might have cause pain, sadness and all the bad stuffs.
May u forgive me for my acts and hope we're gonna be ok next year. hehe..
and to those who brought happiness in my life all this while, thank you so much for being here.
all of u have light up my life and i will always remember those happy memories.
and to those who left, i wish u all da best and happy always with someone else.
dont worry bout me coz i know how to take care of myself and my heart.
for the beginning of da year,
i wish that happiness, wealth and luck will pour onto all of us including me.
may we all be blessed by God and happy always with the blessings that He give to us.
dont forget to thank Him and our family for every little things that they have given to us.
and appreciate whatever is given to u.
and with this,
i'm closing the chapters of my life in 2012 and begin another new chapter. =)
ok, actually i though of updating my blog after da 21.12.2012 to show that im still surviving in this cruel yet quite beautiful world.. haha.. but when i read my bestie's blog with so many updates and "copied-pasted" my 100 questions without givin me credits, i thought of updating mine.. haha...
lets see..
i wasnt really worried about the rumours about 21.12.2012, maybe because i have faith in God.. He decides everythin and we are always in His plans.. i believe that everything He do is for our own goodness because that is what i believe in.. so whenever he took something away from me, i hold on to myself and my belief, and know that He will give something back to me.. something that is worth my sacrifice and happiness..
next, about results.. im super worried about my results like what my bestie posted.. maybe because i didnt study hard enough or maybe because this time, i totally have no confidence in my exam.. and because of that, i waited and waited, hoping that it will be ok.. of course, gatherin up the strength and preparing myself for nxt yr is somethin i have to do now, especially when hols is gonna finish super fast.. but, i believe that i will be able to go through slowly with the support from my friends and family..
what else should i say ah? i guess that's all.. i learn one new thing, the Golden Rule which sounds like this, "Do to others as you would want them do to you". i guess this is going to be my principle starting next year.. hehe... well, will be updating soon with my my new year resolutions and reviewing what i have did, did not do and my regrets for the rest of 2012... hehe.. keep updated with me~ =D
Jenny~
i wonder why certain pl still avoids me.
i wonder if i ever do anythin wrong to him.
why does he stopped contactin me and start avoidin me from last time till now..
actually what had happened?
what does it mean by forgetting and avoiding memories?
do they mean somethin to u till u wanna forget about it?
does it hurt u as much as it hurts me last time?
if not, why avoid?
sigh...
Jenny~
i wonder if i ever do anythin wrong to him.
why does he stopped contactin me and start avoidin me from last time till now..
actually what had happened?
what does it mean by forgetting and avoiding memories?
do they mean somethin to u till u wanna forget about it?
does it hurt u as much as it hurts me last time?
if not, why avoid?
sigh...
Jenny~
so, i got bored during the holidays and came across these "100 Must Answer Questions".. well, went thru it and answered all of it.. and yeah, just shared it.. hahaha... some answers are only made-up.. hahaha... take time to read it, ppl~ haha..
1 - Who was the last person you texted?
= me bestie.. hehe...
2 - When is your birthday?
= 15 April..
3 - Who do you want to be with right now?
= all of my friends when we can hang out and talk.. hehe..
4 - What sports do you play?
= i dont reli play sports hehehe....
5 - Who is the first person in your contacts?
= Addy... my long-lost friend which never contacts me since he's in abroad.. hehe..
6 - What is your favorite song as of the moment?
= bad man by juniel~ hehehe..
7 - If you were stranded on an island, who do you wish to be with?
= i wish to be with someone who could get me out of the island.. hehe..
8 - What do you feel right now?
= no feeling...
9 - What chocolate is your favorite?
=dark and white chocolate.. hehe..
10 - How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have?
= 1
11 - Why did you create a Tumblr account?
= i love how they put words into pictures.. it is so much inspiring. hehe..
12 - Who is your favorite blogger?
= none.. hehe..
13 - Where do you want to be right now?
= i am already at the place i want to be.. hehe...
14 - What do you want to be in the future?
= a good teacher.. haha... and someone whose has everythin i dreamt of.. hehehe..
15 - When was the last time you cried? Why?
= few weeks ago.. cant rmbr when.. hehe.. bcoz of pain.. =)
16 - Are you happy?
= not really...
17 - Who do you miss?
= him.
18 - If you were given a chance, would you like to have a different life?
= no.. i love my life right now..
19 - What was the best thing you were given?
= love.. =)
20 - Who was the last person who called you?
= my bestie.. hehe...
21 - What is your favorite dish?
= anythin that has pork in it.. hehehe...
22 - Who is your bestfriend?
= da one whose always crazy wit me aka ah ma kong~ hahaha...
23 - What is your biggest regret?
= not studyin enough for my exam? ahahaha...
24 - Have you ever cheated on your partner?
= nope...
25 - Who do you spend crazy moments with?
= with the craziest bestie aka ah ma kong.. hahahaha...
26 - Name someone pretty.
= my mom.. haha..
27 - Who was the last person you hugged?
= him..
28 - What kind of music do you listen to?
= all kinds of music that suits my mood.. hehe..
29 - Are you over your past?
= i try but its haunting me..
30 - Who is the last person in your contacts?
= my rumet aka zizi.. ehhee...
31 - What kind of person do you want to date?
= someone whose funny, and give me tat protective feeling..
32 - Do you have troubles sleeping at night?
= nope..
33 - From whom was the last text message you received?
= my bestie.. hehehe...
34 - What do you prefer, jeans or skirt?
= skirt~ hehehe...
35 - How’s your heart?
= still workin, just need a bit of plaster here and there... hehehe...
36 - This was a stupid fucking question so I took it out. No one will notice.
- o...k...
37 - Do you like someone as of the moment?
= nope..
39 - Do you have any phobias?
= i think i dont.. hahaha...
40 - Did you try to change for a person?
= yes...
41 - What’s the nicest thing have you given to someone?
= a jar of stars made by myself.. hehehe...
43 - Are you in a good or bad mood?
= good mood.. hehhee...
44 - Name someone you can’t live without.
= my mom n dad..
45 - Describe your dream date.
= i dreamt of a date whr he will take me out for a dinner and watch stars together.. hehe..
46 - Describe your dream wedding.
= weddin in the church.. hehe..
47 - How many roses did you receive last Valentine’s?
= none..
48 - Have you ever been kissed?
= yes..
50 - Do you regret your past?
= no..
51 - Can you do something stupid for someone else?
= depends on how stupid it is.. hehehe..
52 - Have you ever cried over someone?
=yes..
53 - Do you have a grudge against anyone?
= hoeslty, no.. hehhe..
54 - Are you a crybaby?
= a little bit.. hehehe...
55 - Do people praise you for your looks?
= when i have my make-ups on.. hahhaa...
56 - Did you fall for someone you shouldn’t?
= i dont think so.. hehhe...
57 - Have you ever done something bad but you don’t regret?
= hmm, i think i did.. hehhe..
58 - Do you like getting hurt?
= absolutely no..
59 - Does anyone hate you?
= i dont know...
60 - Did you slap anyone whose name starts with an “R”?
= nope...
61 - What hair color do you prefer?
= black as in only black.. hehhe...
62 - If you can change anything about yourself, what is it?
= i wanna change my body shape.. hahaha...
63 - Do you love someone as of the moment?
= yes...
64 - Have you ever thought of killing yourself?
= never.. its painful ok.. hahaha...
65 - Do you have issues with somebody in your school?
= i dont think so.. hehhee..
66 - Can you live without internet?
= yes.. hehe...
67 - What’s the song that remind you of your special someone?
= all kinds of songs.. hehehe...
68 - Are you good at holding back your tears?
= not really...
69 - Are you a crybaby?
= a little bit.. hahaha...
70 - Have you ever experienced being hysterical?
= nope...
71 - Are you a KPOP fan?
= i think so.. but not so addictive.. hehehhee...
72 - Do you study hard?
= depends.. but when it is near exam, yes.. hehehe..
73 - Have you ever sacrificed something important to you for someone you love?
= im not sure.. hehe..
74 - Did you ever had a kiss under the moonlight?
= nope..
75 - Have you ever ridden a boat?
= nope...
76 - Did you have an accident last year?
= nope...
77 - What kind of person are you?
= im da type of person that looks happy-go-lucky outside but mysterious inside.. hehehe...
78 - Have you ever thought of killing someone?
= never.. hahaha...
79 - Have you ever been jealous?
= yes.. hehe..
80 - How can you prove your love to someone?
= depends.. sometimes thru my actions.. hehe...
81 - What are you thinking right now?
= what to answer next.. ehhe...
82 - Who is the 6th person in your contacts?
= my friend aka aileen~ hehhe..
83 - Do you have any memories you want to erase?
= nope...
84 - Have you been hurt so bad that you can’t find words to explain how you feel?
= yes...
85 - Did you ever badmouth someone?
= depends on whether that person ever gets on my nerve.. hahahaha....
86 - Have you ever had an argument with someone?
= ei, i dont think so.. i cant remember.. hehehe...
87 - Do you have trust issues?
= yes.. i can trust ppl so much.. hehe..
88 - Are you broken-hearted?
= nope. not really...
89 - Who’s the person who first comes to your mind when someone mentions “love”?
= him..
90 - Do you think all the pain is worth it?
= yes...
91 - Do you believe in the phrase “If it’s meant to be, it will be”?
= yes, i do... hehe...
92 - Who do you want to marry?
= i dont know.. haven found the right one yet... hehehe..
93 - Do you believe in destiny?
yes... =)
94 - Have you ever thought “I already found my soulmate”?
= not yet.. hehe...
95 - How do you look right now?
= like some housewife with my hair all tied up and clipped here and there.. hahaha..
96 - Do you believe that first true love never dies?
= i guess so.. hehe..
97 - Have you found your true love?
= im not sure.. hmmm...
98 - What should you be doing right now?
= sleepin.. hahaha...
99 - Name one of your ex-boyfriends/ex-girlfriends.
= no name~
100 - Did you ever feel like you’re not good enough
= always.. hehe..
done..
Jenny~
holidays make me learn a lot.
learn to cook.
learn to sew and making sewing as another method for me to relax.
and learn to face da reality.
reality is difficult to face and rather live in lies..
but its best facing da reality..
at least we know what we should do when we face such things again..
well, im not pro at facin reality.
but at least im tryin.
Jenny~
learn to cook.
learn to sew and making sewing as another method for me to relax.
and learn to face da reality.
reality is difficult to face and rather live in lies..
but its best facing da reality..
at least we know what we should do when we face such things again..
well, im not pro at facin reality.
but at least im tryin.
Jenny~
received a message that shocked me this morning..
i knew its gonna happen but not this soon...
and i dont wanna give up...
so much memories, love and acts that keep repeating in my head..
though i know why but i just couldnt face da reality..
i rather stay in lies than breaking out and feel da pain..
i've felt it once,
i never thought i would feel it twice..
no matter how much pain it puts me through,
i still wanna hold on to this..
i dont care what is da future..
i mean who knows da future, right?
coz i still wanna be in this...
we went thru this once,
and im putting all my hopes, prayers to God
that He will allow us to go thru this once more..
by da time, future comes knockin my door,
and it still remains da same,
den i would accept it..
but for now,
pls stay this way..
Jenny~
i knew its gonna happen but not this soon...
and i dont wanna give up...
so much memories, love and acts that keep repeating in my head..
though i know why but i just couldnt face da reality..
i rather stay in lies than breaking out and feel da pain..
i've felt it once,
i never thought i would feel it twice..
no matter how much pain it puts me through,
i still wanna hold on to this..
i dont care what is da future..
i mean who knows da future, right?
coz i still wanna be in this...
we went thru this once,
and im putting all my hopes, prayers to God
that He will allow us to go thru this once more..
by da time, future comes knockin my door,
and it still remains da same,
den i would accept it..
but for now,
pls stay this way..
Jenny~
back home.
full relaxation.
gain weight. =.="'
sigh..
i hate gaining weights..
but i love food..
and its so tempting...
i know, ppl say i should control my food intake,
or go for a walk and exercise..
but this laziness is killing me..
ahhaha..
well, started zumba-ing for a better me after holidays..
and start to change my hairstyle which might takes up da whole holidays..
not much, but juz a bit..
i guess change is good for me..
not that i faces any problems but at times, changes will make me feel much more confident..
^^
Jenny~
finally, da day that i anticipates the most..
HOLIDAYS~~~~
yeah, it's here and will be off for about one and a half month...
am anticipating what am i gonna be doing during thee holidays..
hehe...
btw, am so thankful to all my friends who went to kk together...
though we din walk together, but we did spend time talking all nite right?
P.S. for the RM 7.80 slice of cake will be paid soon.. hehe.. (u know what im talkin right?)
and i was so happy that my piggy was thr!
i mean last yr he directly went back...
but this time, he actually willing to go KK early and spent time with me thr...
aaawww, he's sweet...
love u piggy~
hehe..
well, this blog will be updated constantly with pics and feelings..
but overall,
i wanna wish everyone Happy Holidays and stay tuned to my latest posts ya..
Jenny~
HOLIDAYS~~~~
yeah, it's here and will be off for about one and a half month...
am anticipating what am i gonna be doing during thee holidays..
hehe...
btw, am so thankful to all my friends who went to kk together...
though we din walk together, but we did spend time talking all nite right?
P.S. for the RM 7.80 slice of cake will be paid soon.. hehe.. (u know what im talkin right?)
and i was so happy that my piggy was thr!
i mean last yr he directly went back...
but this time, he actually willing to go KK early and spent time with me thr...
aaawww, he's sweet...
love u piggy~
hehe..
well, this blog will be updated constantly with pics and feelings..
but overall,
i wanna wish everyone Happy Holidays and stay tuned to my latest posts ya..
Jenny~
for those whose always keep updated with my blog for da past 2 years (not including this year), i'm sure u would remember a post where i actually list down the type of guy i want to be my future partner right? well, i stumbled back to the post and guess what, let's see if my piggy actually fit in the list that i have made 2 years ago.. ehehe.. this is gonna be so funny~
1. older than me at least a few years lah.. but not more than 10 yrs....
- din went correctly.. my pig is at the same age with me and im older that him a few months.. ahaha....
2. mature and able to think independently (as in having their own principles)
- my pig? well, i guess so... i mean mayb in certain conditions? haha...
3. taller than me (MUST!)
- yeah, he's taller than me but if i wore high heels, i think we're at the same height or i might be taller? hahaha...
4. looks come second lah.. i mean at least he muz have a kind of looks that pleases my eyes.. haha..
- oh yeah, my pig isnt reli good-looking.. but at least he's pleasing for me.. haha...
5. caring and loving...
- yeah, total agree though he seldom shows it.. ehhe.. i can feel it.. =)
6. has those kinds of eyes and smiles that can make me smile..
- haha... this one makes me laugh... omg~ he doesnt have, i think.. someone else have it. hahaha..
7. able to entertain me when im bored
- yeah, he'll crack up some stupid jokes and eventually i laughed.. haha..
8. loves to make me laugh
- naaa, seldom... coz i owes make myself laugh with my thoughts and my naiveness hahaha..
9. confident with himself and not the type tats over-possessive
- yeah, he's super not over-possessive.. i mean he doesnt think of me like im his woman or something.. haha...
10. gives me freedom when i needed one as in i dont have to be 24 hrs stickin to him...
- yeah, agree... im da one who owes stick to him when thrs time.. ahha...
11. loves me as much as i do
- haha.. i guess so?
12. able to make me laugh when i cry
- haha.. nope, he'll juz look at me when i cry... haha...
13. always at my side when i needed him at all times
- i guess so, but at some point in life, i'll lean to my best friend.. =)
14. broad shouldered (reason: so tat i can lean on his shoulder whenever i want)
- hahaha... does he? i guess so. i mean enuf for me to lean on his shoulder when i want to.. hehehe..
15. someone who wud give me a peck on the forehead
- haha... yeah.. =)
16: someone who would giv me free hugs when i needed one
- haha.. always~ but of course not in public.. =)
17. and a guy who can make me feel safe and protected
- yeah, though he doesnt show it, ut i feel safe with him.. i mean he knows when i need him.. hehe..
so yeah, looking back to the list, some were achieved while some are not achieved.. i guess what's important is we look after one another care about one another and make sure our love stay strong.. though he doesnt fit in all the aspects that i have mentioned in the past, but right now he's still da person i held strongly in this relationship.. hehe... aaawww, am is sweet? haha...
Jenny~
1. older than me at least a few years lah.. but not more than 10 yrs....
- din went correctly.. my pig is at the same age with me and im older that him a few months.. ahaha....
2. mature and able to think independently (as in having their own principles)
- my pig? well, i guess so... i mean mayb in certain conditions? haha...
3. taller than me (MUST!)
- yeah, he's taller than me but if i wore high heels, i think we're at the same height or i might be taller? hahaha...
4. looks come second lah.. i mean at least he muz have a kind of looks that pleases my eyes.. haha..
- oh yeah, my pig isnt reli good-looking.. but at least he's pleasing for me.. haha...
5. caring and loving...
- yeah, total agree though he seldom shows it.. ehhe.. i can feel it.. =)
6. has those kinds of eyes and smiles that can make me smile..
- haha... this one makes me laugh... omg~ he doesnt have, i think.. someone else have it. hahaha..
7. able to entertain me when im bored
- yeah, he'll crack up some stupid jokes and eventually i laughed.. haha..
8. loves to make me laugh
- naaa, seldom... coz i owes make myself laugh with my thoughts and my naiveness hahaha..
9. confident with himself and not the type tats over-possessive
- yeah, he's super not over-possessive.. i mean he doesnt think of me like im his woman or something.. haha...
10. gives me freedom when i needed one as in i dont have to be 24 hrs stickin to him...
- yeah, agree... im da one who owes stick to him when thrs time.. ahha...
11. loves me as much as i do
- haha.. i guess so?
12. able to make me laugh when i cry
- haha.. nope, he'll juz look at me when i cry... haha...
13. always at my side when i needed him at all times
- i guess so, but at some point in life, i'll lean to my best friend.. =)
14. broad shouldered (reason: so tat i can lean on his shoulder whenever i want)
- hahaha... does he? i guess so. i mean enuf for me to lean on his shoulder when i want to.. hehehe..
15. someone who wud give me a peck on the forehead
- haha... yeah.. =)
16: someone who would giv me free hugs when i needed one
- haha.. always~ but of course not in public.. =)
17. and a guy who can make me feel safe and protected
- yeah, though he doesnt show it, ut i feel safe with him.. i mean he knows when i need him.. hehe..
so yeah, looking back to the list, some were achieved while some are not achieved.. i guess what's important is we look after one another care about one another and make sure our love stay strong.. though he doesnt fit in all the aspects that i have mentioned in the past, but right now he's still da person i held strongly in this relationship.. hehe... aaawww, am is sweet? haha...
Jenny~
i know i should be focusing on exams now..
and i know i should be worries of my own exams..
but i am also worried for yours too..
whether u need any help or maybe u dont understand something, and i can help..
so its wrong if i do worry bout u is it?
so its unnecessary for me to worry about u is it?
i worry because i care.
Jenny~
and i know i should be worries of my own exams..
but i am also worried for yours too..
whether u need any help or maybe u dont understand something, and i can help..
so its wrong if i do worry bout u is it?
so its unnecessary for me to worry about u is it?
i worry because i care.
Jenny~
exams were progressing well like i expected...
not that i did it really well, but one paper after another like what we all expected..
dont ask me how was it..
i myself dont know how i did..
all i could do is to leave it to those who are responsible and pray for the best..
well, thrs two more papers to go..
and yeah, am reli excited to get over those two papers...
why? nt that i am prepared but i just wanna go home..
hehe...
talkin bout u.
i knew im gonna mention u again after all those past posts..
but seriously, i dont even wanna see u..
seeing u gives me nightmares..
seeing u reminds me of those memories..
and i wanna forget those memories...
coz i moved on.
and i dont want those past memories tying me down.
Jenny~
not that i did it really well, but one paper after another like what we all expected..
dont ask me how was it..
i myself dont know how i did..
all i could do is to leave it to those who are responsible and pray for the best..
well, thrs two more papers to go..
and yeah, am reli excited to get over those two papers...
why? nt that i am prepared but i just wanna go home..
hehe...
talkin bout u.
i knew im gonna mention u again after all those past posts..
but seriously, i dont even wanna see u..
seeing u gives me nightmares..
seeing u reminds me of those memories..
and i wanna forget those memories...
coz i moved on.
and i dont want those past memories tying me down.
Jenny~
remember, one of my posts that i actually wrote that we went for a program which is Program Anak Angkat Big Fasa 2? well, few selected pictures are here.. i mean thrs a lot of pictures but i havent really gather it up yet... will upload more when thrs time.. ^^
us with wawa~
at da paddy field (before we got bitten by the ants) haha..
before aerobik yo~ with our family.
one big family~ ^^
isnt she cute? ^^
went for a weddin reception with family!
i love da arch~ aha...
so yeah, u can see how much fun i had though its tiring.. hehe.. ok, back to revising.. ^^
Jenny~
well, as i have mentioned on the previous post, i actually filled my last weekend with some college activities and yeah, got back with itchiness around my feet.. and i guessed that it is due to the little red ants that bit us when we were walking around the paddy field.. and another one, got stung by the bee when i accidentally stepped on it, which is super painful and super unlucky... sigh..
anywayz, sometime i think that God loves to play hide and seek with me.. sometimes He would hide that person away from me and will only let me see him when He thinks its the correct time.. no matter how much i longed to see him, it is as if he's perfectly hidden.. and i would only be allowed to see those who looks like him only.. sigh. maybe there is a reason on why he should stay hidden.. but i really hope im able to see him again before i leave for home nxt month.. no special reason, just wanna see him.. that's all. =)
Jenny~
anywayz, sometime i think that God loves to play hide and seek with me.. sometimes He would hide that person away from me and will only let me see him when He thinks its the correct time.. no matter how much i longed to see him, it is as if he's perfectly hidden.. and i would only be allowed to see those who looks like him only.. sigh. maybe there is a reason on why he should stay hidden.. but i really hope im able to see him again before i leave for home nxt month.. no special reason, just wanna see him.. that's all. =)
Jenny~
well, juz completed my BIG Fasa 4 at Kpg Banjar where we are placed under a home and under our foster parents.. well, i belonged to a big family where there were like 8 of us excluding the family members.. but yeah, i had a lot of fun and felt so much relieved knowing that im around those who are super nice.. not only that, our mama angkat was super nice to us and even brought ur to witness two weddings which is awesome.. pics will be uploaded soon after i get hold of it.. well, thrs so much memories there and i hope that we will always remember those memories..
Jenny~
as what i have promised, PHOTO SPLURGE... =)
my two crazy frens~
me with my little black dress...
taken at the lift.. hahaha...
weee~ =D
our love for our friendship... =D
heart~ =D
our awards (Puteri Komited and Puteri Berketrampilan)
before we went back.. (P.S. I love my bodyline~)
me n bestie.. =)
so from here, u can see how much fun i had all da whole night.. hahaha... and my little black dress was selected as one of the finalists for the Miss Dark Angel.. yeah, din get anythin but its worth the try and proud of being chosen.. hehehe...
Jenny~
just finished my UAK today and yeah, felt much more better...
though the big exam is juz around da corner, but am goin to prepare myself forthis battle..
and i wont let others to look down on me especially...
and yeah, tonite we're goin to have dinner for our Girl Guides society..
well, i feel kinda low confident..
coz, im only gonna be wearing my plain black dress and with little or not make-up at all..
i guess im not gonna be outstandin like other girls though...
am juz gonna be da normal me as usual...
pictures will be uploaded soon.. hehe..
Jenny~
though the big exam is juz around da corner, but am goin to prepare myself forthis battle..
and i wont let others to look down on me especially...
and yeah, tonite we're goin to have dinner for our Girl Guides society..
well, i feel kinda low confident..
coz, im only gonna be wearing my plain black dress and with little or not make-up at all..
i guess im not gonna be outstandin like other girls though...
am juz gonna be da normal me as usual...
pictures will be uploaded soon.. hehe..
Jenny~
when i was still single, this is what i believed in. And now when I am in a relationship, i still believe in this sweet truth.. God never send someone into ur life without any plans or intentions.. and i always tell myself that God sent him to me for a reason and my wait is worthwhile.. as long as i am patient and believe in His gift, i will receive something much more better in the future.
Jenny~
well, i'v shared a few pics of some good things that have been happening around me all this while... well, now as i have mentioned, assignments are completed and exams are like around the corner.. and the best thing is im goin home real soon!
and i juz cant wait to go home.. so much burden here and it feels like i cnt wait for the weekends to come every week... but still, i am really grateful.. grateful to have a bestie that understands me no matter wat.. though we have differences here and there, and envy one another, we're still da closest~ hehe.. am grateful to my piggy for his endless love, care and patience towards me.. felt much more better this year though at first we were like filled with all those petty arguments.. i guess we grew more attached to one another and starts to understand one another's needs.. but of course, some ppl still juz couldnt make it to my "treat-em-good" list..
well, its not me who waana be evil to them but sometimes those ppl are annoying with their attitudes, their two-faced personalities and their way of handling things.. yeah, i know im not perfect but at least, i did my best right? well, hope they would change or if they dont, hope they will..
anywayz, will keep updating with lotsa pics here and there.. ^^
Jenny~
and i juz cant wait to go home.. so much burden here and it feels like i cnt wait for the weekends to come every week... but still, i am really grateful.. grateful to have a bestie that understands me no matter wat.. though we have differences here and there, and envy one another, we're still da closest~ hehe.. am grateful to my piggy for his endless love, care and patience towards me.. felt much more better this year though at first we were like filled with all those petty arguments.. i guess we grew more attached to one another and starts to understand one another's needs.. but of course, some ppl still juz couldnt make it to my "treat-em-good" list..
well, its not me who waana be evil to them but sometimes those ppl are annoying with their attitudes, their two-faced personalities and their way of handling things.. yeah, i know im not perfect but at least, i did my best right? well, hope they would change or if they dont, hope they will..
anywayz, will keep updating with lotsa pics here and there.. ^^
Jenny~
last night, i got this song from a friend of mine.. and the beginning was really sad.. and somehow i really felt the song.. and it made me cry.. the song juz hurts me really deep.. as if its telling about my story.. and this morning, when i went to search for the song and read the meaning, it strikes me bcoz it tells how i felt.. sometimes when im sad, there will always a song that tells my story right on time.. yes, i believe that. maybe u wanna know what's da title of the song that i listened to, that would make me cry but i guess this will be a little secret between me and myself..
-saranghae neol gaseum apado-
Jenny~
it is so depressing this whole week...
i mean piles of assignments, loads of activities, heaps of presentations that is happening simultaneously and not mentionin the urge of exam is makin me feel stressed.....
and all this stuffs that keep coming up lately juz make me felt like giving up...
and its so difficult, u know...
assignments for instance, given to us like that, expecting us to complete it and not knowing how difficult it is to find the resources especially when the wifi was like as slow as a snail and such a pain in the ass,.. talkin bout broadband? oh plz, same thing with the current wifi..
activities for another instance, given to us at last minutes, thinkin we are robots to handle everything... sometimes i hate those who love to give last minute notice thinking that we are those machines that can finish a product in a split second.. we need time to plan stuffs, u noe.. and when things are not goin ok, we're da one getting all the blames, and remembered as the ones who did wrong... like anyone would even remember us when we did something good... ppl's perceptions, unpredictable...
and for my other aspects of life, i seriously need a time-out.. i seriously need to chill out at somewhere i love and to be with someone i love... sigh....
stress~
Jenny
i mean piles of assignments, loads of activities, heaps of presentations that is happening simultaneously and not mentionin the urge of exam is makin me feel stressed.....
and all this stuffs that keep coming up lately juz make me felt like giving up...
and its so difficult, u know...
assignments for instance, given to us like that, expecting us to complete it and not knowing how difficult it is to find the resources especially when the wifi was like as slow as a snail and such a pain in the ass,.. talkin bout broadband? oh plz, same thing with the current wifi..
activities for another instance, given to us at last minutes, thinkin we are robots to handle everything... sometimes i hate those who love to give last minute notice thinking that we are those machines that can finish a product in a split second.. we need time to plan stuffs, u noe.. and when things are not goin ok, we're da one getting all the blames, and remembered as the ones who did wrong... like anyone would even remember us when we did something good... ppl's perceptions, unpredictable...
and for my other aspects of life, i seriously need a time-out.. i seriously need to chill out at somewhere i love and to be with someone i love... sigh....
stress~
Jenny
u might think its small matter,
but its like ur big day and i was like really looking forward to spending the rest of the day with u..
but with such things happening which is totally unexpected, how should i be calm and not getting disappointed?
i was like thinking of capturing these moments and placed in my memory, u know?
its not like im gonna be stuck at this college forever, spending time with u always..
thr will come a time when its my time to get posted to schools and start teaching,
and this means we're not seeing each other what more to say spending time together again..
i juz wanna create lots of good memories before leaving, that's all..
too much to ask isit?
sometimes, its sad thinking bout how many things we missed together, u know?
everything is not as difficult as u think, it juz takes a little time and planning to make everythin work...
if and only if u know how i felt and what i wanted all these while...
-sigh-
Jenny
seriously, i never met any princesses in my whole life..
but meeting with u makes me feel like ur a princess..
dont get me wrong, ur not the nice-angelic-patient type of princess..
ur da type that acts like Cinderella's stepsisters...
and if u read about Cinderella, u might know what type am i talking about...
to u,
juz a piece of my mind,
with ur princess syndrome thinking that money is made of ur home's toilet paper,
with ur princess syndrome that refuses what ppl requested u to do for ur own good sake,
and for ur princess syndrome that thinks that everyone has to listen and look at ur face,
go be a princess in ur own "well-governed" country together with ur happily-ever-after prince.
Jenny~
but meeting with u makes me feel like ur a princess..
dont get me wrong, ur not the nice-angelic-patient type of princess..
ur da type that acts like Cinderella's stepsisters...
and if u read about Cinderella, u might know what type am i talking about...
to u,
juz a piece of my mind,
with ur princess syndrome thinking that money is made of ur home's toilet paper,
with ur princess syndrome that refuses what ppl requested u to do for ur own good sake,
and for ur princess syndrome that thinks that everyone has to listen and look at ur face,
go be a princess in ur own "well-governed" country together with ur happily-ever-after prince.
Jenny~
sharing is caring... time to share the story of the day... (^.^)
Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all constructed boats and left. Except for Love.
Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to hold out until the last possible moment. When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help.
Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said, “Richness, can you take me with you?”
Richness answered, “No, I can’t. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you.”
Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel. “Vanity, please help me!” “I can’t help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat,” Vanity answered.
Sadness was close by so Love asked, “Sadness, let me go with you.” “Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!” Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her.
Suddenly, there was a voice, “Come, Love, I will take you.” It was an elder.
So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went his own way. Realizing how much was owed the elder, Love asked Knowledge, another elder, “Who Helped me?”
So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went his own way. Realizing how much was owed the elder, Love asked Knowledge, another elder, “Who Helped me?”
“It was Time,” Knowledge answered.
“Time?” asked Love. “But why did Time help me?” Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, “Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is.”
Jenny~
some stuffs are meant to be secrets...
not that we're selfish or ashamed to share it,
but when we are unsure about how things are going in the future,
how do u want me to share it?
i mean,
im different from others..
i keep things to myself until i know its gonna be alright..
i will only tell ppl when i know its the right time...
and the right time has yet to come.. =)
Jenny~
not that we're selfish or ashamed to share it,
but when we are unsure about how things are going in the future,
how do u want me to share it?
i mean,
im different from others..
i keep things to myself until i know its gonna be alright..
i will only tell ppl when i know its the right time...
and the right time has yet to come.. =)
Jenny~
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