another u~

i thought i forgot u...
but tonite, ur smile juz make me laugh again...
though i promised to eliminate u from my life, ur still a part in it...
not bcoz, i fell in love wit u,
but bcoz ur still my tat special friend...

I hope we were still friends till now..
Jenny~

donuts~

donuts are my MOST FAVOURITE fast food and guess wat, i super love donuts.... though its fattening and doesnt bring a lot of advantages to one, it does bring happiness and fulfill my cravings on my sweet tooth.. haha... i super love donuts... and tats da main reason on all da images of donuts... i think my bday will be da happiest to me if i have donuts as a replacement to my bday cake... hihi...

Something about love~

" Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on... One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her... "
-- Unknown

-picked this from a blog which i went thru when i was searching for blog templates... it juz caught my heart, thus this i share wit all of u... hihi... =)

love is undefinable~
Jenny~

what makes me happy?

ok, this is one of those random questions that i love to throw to myself.. so wat actually make me happy... haha.. da list are as follows...

1. love from my dady and mumy...
2. love from each and evry one of my friend esp when they send u random txt juz to remind u tat they still rmbr u...
3. gettin a glimpse of my good view in church...
4. a music box (which i still hopin for one)
5. a rare and unique necklace or bracelet..
6. something that would make me look pretty...
7. DONUTS!!
8. surprises and presents...
9. chocolates!!
10. last but not least, sincerity in evryone's heart in makin me happy n laugh when im down and sad...

FYI: this is not a wish list ok... juz a list to show that how happiness can be attained without sacrificing a lot of money.... =)

Happiness is in ur own hand
Jenny~

am cool~

ok, forgive me for those bad words tat i implement in my post previously... oh well, blog is da oni place for me to vent my anger, sadness, happiness and stuffs like tat... i mean, wats da point of keeping a blog when evrythin ur writing is happy... not evryone's life is filled with happiness ok... so i was mad and now i've cooled off... u seem, sometimes when im not in a reli good mood, even da slightest mistake one do to me, will reli piss me off...

but i juz dont like being angry... it makes me look so bad and evil,... plus it juz makes me feel worse... and i never like hating ppl bcoz of wat they did wrong to me... im a hper sensitive person and tat might explain why i juz get agitated easily... i might look like an angel but at times, i need to break out from being nice all da time... i noe how to get angry ok....

oh well, no matter howangry i am, i would rather keep it in me and explode thru posts in blog than expressing it verbally and physically... which i think will bring more harm than good... haha... u will never noe wat i can do when im super angry... for now, peace...

im not someone who wont get angry...
Jenny~

ANGER BURSTING!

u know how does it feels when ur beautiful mornin is being spoiled by a jerk??? omg~ do u hav to speak tat loud and bother like evryone in da class... i tink im like reli nice to u these days but sometimes ur stupid as in ur DUMB actions reli make ppl pissed off ok.... stop shouting and make ppl stuff their earphones into their ears juz bcoz of PATHETIC voice... dont u noe how does it feel as if someone is shouting at ur ears..... DAMN BASTARD AH!

nxt, if u dont wanna follow us by using taxi and doesnt hav da money to pay at least rm 30, THEN DONT! NO ONE ASK U TO FOLLOW US AND FYI, i have enuf money to pay even if thrs oni 3 person.... ur juz INVITed... get the meanin,,,, invited!!!!!!!!!! so stop makin a fuss and shut ur DAMN mouth and follow if u wan..... STUPID IDIOT BASTARD!

to tat IDIOTIC GUY READIN TIS, u juz make me hate u even more........... get tat or u wan me to CAPS LOCK IT, HATE! and now, im like not in a mood and gues wat, thanx to u, i dont feel nice now..... wit my eye condition like tis, u juz make me feel worse NOT NOW BUT FOR DA WHOLE DAY./......... and thanx to you, i never felt this kind of anger like since last time and guess wat, i juz felt like shouting at u, BASTARD........ if its not bcoz i respect u, DUMB BASTARD, i would hav slap da asss of u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID F**KER!

If u dont wanna read tis, den buzz off... dont mess wit me when im angry!
Jenny~

stars~

there's one night when my friends and i were walkin from our hostel to da lecture room for some talks and when i looked up, it was filled wit stars (and of course satellites) and da moon was reli round and big... somehow, it reminds me of my childhood memories....

when i was like 5 or 6 (which is when my sis wasnt born yet), i went back to my village and thrs one nite when we juz sat outside my kampung house lookin at da sky.. and it was full of stars, shimmering and blinking... when u look up da stars, it seems like they 're tryin to communicate wit u and somehow it juz make me feel calm and thankful to God for His creations...

when im sad or happy, i guess i juz nid a shining star beside me... and i wonder who might be a star to me... guidin me when im lost, cheer me up when im down and da best thing, make me shine like the way i am... i believe that thr will be a shining star not oni for me but also for evryone... u might meet ur star but im still here waitin for my own star to come and shine...

when will i get to c u, my shining star?
Jenny~

100th post~

i have like a lot of things to write in this pretty blog of mine but since its my 100th post, i guess i'll juz post something interesting... well, i guess i never expose da real facts about me i guess i'll take tis chance to list down 25 facts about me.. and credits to Dayu, my junior who tag me on da similar topic.. haha.. ok, here it goes:

1. my name is Jenny Lu and everyone calls me Jenny... oni those who are close to me are allowed to call me Jenn... so dont mind me if i juz show u a smile (which u wont noe if its true or fake) when u call me Jenn though i dont know u well....

2. i love window shopping.. i love seeing things though im not gonna buy it and da best thing is that during window shopping, it juz give me ideas to make something unique for my frens... =)

3. i admit that i am a hypocrite... i can be happy in front of u and angry with u behind u... so u juz gotta watch out wat u say, da way u act and da most important thing is da way ur tryin to joke wit me and not knowin its offendin me...

4. i forgive ppl too easily... agree? oh well, that's me.. i juz cant stay angry at a person for a long time.. but thogh i forgive ppl easily, i dont forget easily... i'll try to make walls against da person so i wont get hurt again...

5. i love makin friends and i LOVE them too... no explanations needed here.. hahaha...

6. i love my family like a lot... last time, i simply think that my parents are over-controllin me and right now, im thankful for wat they did... mayb bcoz of da way they brought me up, which forms me like da way i am now...

7. love and relationship is something im not lucky in.. END OF STORY...

8. da one i love doesnt love me back and da one i dont love keeps comin to me... haiz~ nvr mind...

9. random facts: my phone credits are always loaded and im not afraid of da number "RM 0.00" when i check my balance.. which da reason y i call home like evryday n night.. hahaha...

10: my fav color is NOT pink though u c me wearin it like evrytime im out... i prefer colors that juz strike me out...

11. i love watchin make-up tutorials but cant apply it since i dont hav da equipments... am gonna get one when im 20... hahahaha.....

12. i love Taylor Swift.. her lyrics and her songs juz make me feel like she knows my story... and listenin to her songs make me calm.. =)

13. i love surprises and i love when ppl surprise me on my bday wit anythin.. no matter wit gifts or words, as long as i can feel da sincerity in it...

14. im not smart or genius... im juz a last-minute girl who gets lucky at times... ahahaha...

15. i love to eat and i dont mind gainin weight if its eatin wat my mom cook for me.. hahaha... after tat, den baru lose weight mah.. haha..

16. im a stingy person... i love spendin my money on things that i reli need and things that will reli catch my eyes and heart... haha.. but da funny thing is that i dont mind spendin money on food!

17. im a friendly person (isit?) and im approachable to evryone as long as tat person dont take advantage on me.. i hate and sincerely hate those who get reli close to me and step over my head da nxt day!

18. i prefer walkin den joggin... honestly... walking makes me feel relaxed and its another way to keep fit bah aside from joggin...

19. this is my first time bein in sabah and da funny thing is when i told my mum i wanna be on plane like my bro when he went overseas, im in one rite now evry yr.. hahaha....

20. this i somethin i nvr said but i love my siblings.. i love my bangak punya brother and my piggy punya sis.. its juz tat we show our love thru different ways which is thru quarrels and arguments.. haha...

21. i dont noe how to show my love and da worst thing is i done even noe how to be a gf when im gonna be one.. so to my future Prince Charming, u gotta lead me....

22. i talk a lot and somehow ppl thinks tats annoying.. but da funny thing is tat when i stop talkin or i keep quiet, ppl tot im sick/bad mood/PMS and many more... =.='"

23. though im da youngest in class and in da batch itself, ppl owes think im same age or older than them (refer to juniors)... they say im mature and think maturely... oh well, i'll juz accept it jak lah...

24. i never do household chores and tis means i cant cook and other stuffs which u consider as household chores... hahaha.. and tat was changed since i entered hostel... ahhaha...

25. im a weak n fragile person... meanin i can cry over a slightest matter though i dont do it in front of others.. im super sensitive and u wont wanna mess wit me when im in my worst days...

so yeah, that's da 25 facts bout me.. i think i shud make tis frequently.. oh well, another 25 random facts as in SUPER RANDOM about me will be posted in my 150th post.. so wait and make sure to check it out ya... =)

im me and u cant change tat...
Jenny~

child development~

One of da compulsory topic that we hav to take in our degree years is child development.. as in learning bout how a child grows and develops in different aspects, learn to think like a child so that we know and understand about how our future pupils think and understand on wat we're teachin and stuffs like that...

for me, tis is one of da most interesting topic coz its like studying psychology which is wat i wanted to take when i was in my secondary school.. haha.. and da funniest thing is that when we're learnin about how a child grows which is when the mother is pregnant till given birth and stuffs like that, its like preparing us to be a mom eh.. honestly! and that was fun... haha... somehow it do give me impacts on preparing myself to be a mom.. haha...

talkin about being a mom... ok, last time i think that im super young to talk about tis bcoz im not ready to be someone's wife and hav kids.. plus im super phobic in matters that could cause pain to me so yeah, i keep tellin myself that im still a teen (which i am still one)... ahha... but thrs one time it struck to me that i am a woman and eventually i hav to get married one day... u might find it funny but i wanna get married and fulfill my dream of havin my own family...

mayb bcoz of that, im tryin to start another new life where i hav to stop dependin on my frens and my family and try to do things on my own no matter im learnin it in an easy or hard way.. haha... and rite now, da most important course that i muz take is cooking.. like wat ppl say, to get a man's heart is thru his stomach... bwahaha... oh well, wish me luck ppl...

single is an option but love is a must~
Jenny~

fighting addiction!

haha.. da topic sounds as if its so serious rite... addiction happens to everyone and on many aspects.. some are addicted to shopping which we call da "shopaholics", and so forth.... im not addicted to shopping coz i got this thinking where i believe that i shud use my money on da stuffs where i think its worth it... clothes and accessories are worth it when they are super suit me... haha...

anywayz, i believe that im addicted to chips as in POTATO CHIPS! OMG!! and these days i have been reli fightin my temptation to grab one at da malls and start munching it... coz based on sem 3, chips are da main factor of me gainin weight reli fast... ok, 2nd factor is due to my sleepin habit... haha... so this year, i hav to stop myself from takin chips.. sound childish but come on lah, chips are like drugs to me.. once u start to munch it, u wont get over wit it.. u juz wan more, more and MORE!

im glad that i am able to fight my temptation for chips and thus controlling my weight and body shape... haha.. though there are still several problematic areas but i believe that i will get back my original size... i MUST get back to my original body shape... haha.... pray for me, readers... ^^

eat to live and not live to eat~
JEnny~

monday~

monday... monday is da day when i felt blue as in reli blue.. haha.. i mean honestly that is the oni day which i do not reli like unless that day will make me like go high and happy.. haha... da reason why i dont like monday especially bcoz its like da startin day of da week and im juz not prepared to start lesson again... hahaha.... and its da tiring day of the week... imagine class started at 730am till 6pm (though we can go back early at times which is also around 530pm).. haha... and da good thing is that at least i can feel how a degree student start his or her life in da institute or college or even da university...

but da bad thing is that i lost my nap especially my beauty sleep... haha.. i love as in LOVE to sleep a lot.. and losing one of my beauty sleep is so depressing... hahaha.... and i think i juz look like a zombie without my sleep... haha... ok, gotta cut tat habit down as in reli down coz im so gonna be a pig in da end of da day... so in conclusion, monday is simply another hard day to endure... haha..

sleep is my medicine~
Jenny~

specially for U

seeing u makes me smile...
seeing u makes my heart beat faster...
seeing u makes me feel appreciated...
seeing u makes me feel calm...
seeing u makes me feel like da way u do...
seeing u makes me feel like ur a superstar n im a fan...
and most important,
seeing u makes me feel that love might be possible for me...

thank u for being in my memory all this while...
Jenny~

CNY~

CHINESE NEW YEAR is comin! haha.. da feeling is hitting straight into my heart.. gosh! haha... i mean cny doesnt reli bring any significant meaning to me last time excpet for da reunion dinner and oso da angpaos.. haha.. i mean those were when i was a kid.. but right now, after seeing so many cny stuffs on sale, wore a cheongsam last year and most importantly, being involved in a cny event juz make me feel so nervous and anticipates for it..

i wast able to go back last year in whic i have redeemed it tis yr by bookind da earliest flight back.. haha... i juz miss da family kind of environment which was like in me since i was a kid.. and this is another reason to be at home before da next trip back... and da happiest thing is that my mummy were super kind to make me a cheongsam and even bought a skirt for me.. haha... she's super duper nice.. ahha.. not forgettin my dady of course whose super nice in givin money fo my mummy ot spend on me.. haha... so i juz cant wait to go back home and celebrate cny!

CNY is not oni about angpao, its about togetherness..
Jenny~

childhood dreams~

everyone has a childhood dream/s rite including me... im not destined to be a teacher when i was small nor do i even thought of being a teacher when i was in my reli young age, say 6-10... at that time, i have a lot of ambitions and it kept changin till i found da rite one which is to be a teacher... i wanted to be a singer, artist, model, stewardess and even a nun (since i nevr thought of love at tat age)... haha.. but none reli came true since being a:

1. singer - i dont hav an angelic voice nor could i sing in a high pitch.. i dont reli can sing well like my other frens in which i do envy them... but at least i can sing without goin off da pitch and creating voices whr ppl would be irritated... haha...

2. artist - im not a pretty girl and i do not have da chance to be one.. haaha.... da truth is tat i wanted to be on tv like those celebrities but i juz couldnt overcome da shyness.. plus at tat time i never notice my real talents... i owes thought i couldnt act, sing or even be like an artist.. so tat one was out of da list...

3. model - haha.... tis is so impossible.. i dont hav da heights and da beauty like da models hav... am juz a normal girl whom beauty seems so far and difficult to reach... thus becomin a model was like a fantasy for me... mayb bcoz i juz dont noe how to make myself pretty like others or mayb i havent get da chance to learn... haha...

4. stewardess - another dream tat went into the drain.. da heights were not even attainable for me plus my parents were laughin at me when i told them that.. haha.. mayb i dont suit da job since im a bit phobic wit great heights and those stuffs... haha.. pluz another real reason is im juz not tat pretty... ahaha....

but somehow, a person made one of my dream came true... haha... and he's da irritating guy whom suggested us to make a special performance for an upcomin event.. haha.. n thrs when my dream of becomin an artist (part-time jak pun) came true.. haha.. i hav no fear to cameras and i do act well.. haha.. thoug its juz a short thingy but i was impressed of myself.. though im not as pretty like others but i can feel da confidence that outshine.. haha....

last but not least, i guess thrs chances for all my childhood dreams to come true though its gonna be juz for a short while... haha... im able to experience new things thanx to da chances that was given to me and da happiest thing is learnin somethin tat i have dread to learn like ages...

~can i be a child again?
Jenny~

Nt too late~

i guess its not too late to do some recap for 2010 rite... since tis is such a beautiful date: 11.01.2011, i guess i would reli love to share some of da happiest and saddest memory...

1. entered 2nd and 3rd sems in foundation and became da first mc for cny thingy... it was AWESOME and i love da feeling, support and also da environment tat simply can make u go high... haha...

2. my first loneliest bday celebration.. haha.. which eventually got into a havoc... haha.... all started when i, da usual naive ones, believe in my frens whom splashes me wit water mixed wit flour aka air tepung... my phone "followed" me into da party and guess wat, my frens who caused my phone to go sot2x, helped me to fix it on da nite itself... haha.. though we didnt hav cakes or stuffs like tat, but da best thing is they remembered...

3. went to salong for our first class trip and it was fun... da place was simply beautiful and da scenery was reli breathtaking... went thr for 2days 1 nite and da downside is tat thr were no phone signal at all, n da way to go thr was a lil harsh... crossed over da unstable bridge and actually overcome da fear of height... haha... but i tink da funniest thing is tat when a fren of mine acted like he's so brave but eventually started to get cold sweat coz of his fear of heights... bwahaha...

4. went to kk, esp la salle for drama competition amongst secondary skool... and da moments were great,.. learnt a lot from their skills and also how da teachers put all their knowledge into their hands.. but da downside is tat i got reli sick when i was on my way to kk till i felt like stopping at da nearby road and get down... haha... i simply cant stand da windy road....

5. had da first drama ever, macbeth... i was da narrator which is chosen by me since i dont hav any liking to da characters (oni if our guys are much more handsome...).. haha.. anywayz, i got a lot of attention since tat nite and i simply love da attention.. i juz got used to it and da best thing tat when da spotlight is juz shining on u, u juz feel like ur a superstar standin in da middle of the stage...

6. last but not least, did somethin wrong and causes a lot of frustration and unhappiness not only to me but also to my own frens... but one way or another, its a lesson tat taught me a lot of things in life... doesnt wish to mention it again since its a past and sometimes talkin bout it will juz make da matter worst intead of solvin it...

anywayz, i believe tat 2011 is gonna be a great and hectic yr for me.. but i hope tat tis yr, i will be able to discover da real me and hopefully conflicts will stop comin to me...

BFFs arent owes gonna be forever...
JEnny~

>,

i have feelings so do u... i understand ur feeling but do u? if u think im ok wit it juz bcoz im smilin and stuffs like tat, ur wrong... thrs time whr i juz wanna step away from evrythin that's bothering and juz stay alone... evrythin seems like not goin rite..... and i kinda hate da feeling... da feeling whr u dont noe whether they're fake or real... whether they're sincere or not.... and im super bored wit evrythin tats goin around me.... changes make me feel bored and sick of evythin......

- if oni i can turn da time back, i wouldnt hav to go thru such things......

Jenny~

changes in 2011....

ok, there were several changes happenin in my life in da yr 2011... some are which ought to be happy with and some, are mayb a bit depressing... i juz tink mayb im not used to da changes made plus i've get used to da old lifestyle so changin it requires new adjustments and alignments...

1. entered degree years
= a good thing and shud be happy wit it... coz its da yr of adulthood and yeah, mindset gotta change for a better year ahead,.. but da downside is that, its gonna be pretty busy year with camps all around and pbs (school-based learnin) coming soon.... it juz seem so fast and i wonder if im ready to accept da challenge or not....

2. changing roomate
= a good thing coz u gotta get used wit evryone... i mean tis yr, my good fren became my roomate so i tink it shdu be a happy thing.. but da depressing part is that i juz got used wit my old roomie and kinda miss her like a lot... and da best thing is that she misses me too... haha... i mean we juz got used to our craziness and rite now, we're somehow livin in a total silence condition is u understand wat i mean... im nice to evryone outside but when im back in da room, i juz dont get used to da environment d...

3. life and my own perception
= changes in it will make me feel defended and not bein stepped over like what i experience last times.. its time to stand up and speak... no more frightened Jenny, but a much mature and able to state what i want... though at times, i have to make decision based on majority's agreement, there are rules to stick... da disadvantage is that some ppl seem like they cant get used to it so gotta do it slowly...

4. lotsa activities
=ok, i admit im a real couch potato as in reli inactive.... sometimes im simply lazy... haha.. but now, with all kinds of camps and vigorous activities, i think its time to change... gotta be fit and not been looked down by my friends so hav to get up and start walkin or joggin... and all of this will start mayb nxt week... i dont mind goin alone since being alone sometimes do help me relax for a while... haha...

changes happened like evryday in our life... it depends on how we manage it and whether we are able to tackle it properly.. i hope wit all these changes, i could actually learn somethin from it and become someone whose strong not only physically but emotionally.... but one thins that will remain da same is that i will still hold my status as a SINGLE LADY... haha... =D

-changes are something tat happens evryday which will bring benefits or disadvantages dependin on how u take it....

JEnny~

pics...

me~

this is during dinner~

hiking at my mom's hometown...

my sis prize giving nite....

last but not least, F4....

ok, these are several pics that i have chosen to upload... for da other pics, juz check it out on my fb... enjoy~ =)

life is all about appreciatin da memories~
Jenny~

REcap~

ok, lets start da update from nov... haha.. ok, we had a party (class party) wit our lect and yeah, its celebratin our end of foundation and a new start in degree... so we ate and yeah, have fun takin pics... actually da place is kindanice but services and food wasnt reli wat i hav placed in my mind.. if i knew it wast such a standar place, i wouldnt hav borrowed and wore a dress thr.. so took lotsa pics and check it out in my fb.. haha... will upload several pics here...

next, dec... i had a lot of good times both at home in brunei, roban, limbang and also miri.. ok, i DO have a lot of homes... oh well, we're "NOMADIC" as some ppl call me but da fun of travelin here to there and there to here, is actually awesome.. coz it juz brings back all da memories especially childhood memories....

so in roban, i had a lot of nature exposure and had a lot of fun experiences... and not oni tat, i got to meet my aunts and cousins.. it was reli nice bein thr lah.. i was able to relax my mind and most importantly, i was able to forget all da stuffs tat has been buggin me... so, after spendin almost 2 weeks thr, i got a new resolution and da most important thing is that i was able to become a new person...

den went back to brunei and tat is when i spent like almost all my time chattin wit my dad n mum... and it was great... and i can see that i reli changed... talkin to them makes me feel that i am givin my fullest attention to them which i know they will appreciate it... they tried to giv everythin to me and bcoz of that, i love them a lot though i never said it in front of them...

den in limbang, we were given a surprise dinner since my uncle sponsored all of us.. it was delicious and i reli like da atmosphere where we all are eatin happily and its like goin back to childhood memories again... sometimes i wished i was a good kid last time.. haha.. oh well, all i can do is be a good daughter and not do somethin tat will hurt them or embarass them...

den its time for results... reslts was good.. it was more than i hav expected and yeah, im reli lucky.. haha.. am not a genius coz i wasnt reli studyin for da finals so i consider it as lucky.. haha.. anywayz, i guess tats all to update now... haha.. pics will b comin out soon... haha.. a few of it lah... haha..

holidays are da best memories..
Jenny~

back to where i "have to" belong~

finally, holidays end (which is not reli good)... kinda homesick since i've been spending two months with my family and da memories are never forgotten... lotsa updates and will update each event one by one... oh well, nth to do rite so will update tis blog a lot... am reli tired after cleanin ALONE... my rommie havent came back and sometimes, i juz dont wanna clean it but due to my so-called "niceness", i juz did it... SUPER tired o...

seriously, i never like cleanin unless da "mood" comes...

*tip: guys who like me, accept da fact that i dont like cleanin!