Christmas!

 Christmas this year has brought upon lots of joy compared to last year!

My parents are finally back from Brunei and we were able to celebrate this day together with my boyfriend.

It was also on this day that I, for the first time, brought back a guy to meet my parents.

And it is a huge thing for me as I never bring any guys home to meet my parents or even post any pictures with any guys on my social medias.

To be able to bring back a man who has been there for me all this while during this pandemic to my parents is definitely a huge thing for me,

and honestly, I was a bit nervous when they met him as my parents do have quite a standard of liking,

but thank God, all went well and they were super fine meeting him.

On this day last year, it was our first date out on Christmas eve with my lousy outfit and his dashing looks,

and on this day this year, I thank God that we are strong together and moving on to a new phase which is meeting my parents.

Thank you for being so kind and understanding,

and thank you for being there for me all the time despite how busy work is nowadays.

To more Christmases together, love!

Jenny~

His birthday

 Happy birthday to my awesome and most supportive boyfriend!

I never thought that this year I would be able to celebrate someone else's birthday aside from mine,

and what more to say, my own boyfriend's birthday!

Honestly, after being single for so long, I somehow forgot how to celebrate my other half's birthday,

thus, the last minute card and also the mini celebration.

And from there, I realised that I need to start working hard to plan more wonderful events,

and also prepare more meaningful gifts like how I used to years ago.

To my love who might or might not be reading this post,

happy birthday love.

May you be blessed with lots of love, good health and lots of money so we can on cake and food adventure more often!

And may we celebrate more birthdays together in the future!

Jenny~

10th month

 Happy 10th month anniversary to both of us!
Last year on this date, I was super stoked of losing weight and waiting to attend my friend's wedding,

and wondering if I am able to meet someone new during the wedding.

Fast forward to today, 

I am now with not someone new, but someone who have always been there!

Thank you for being so patient and considerate with me despite my frequent mood swings,

and thank you for bringing me to eat and always telling me that I look okay despite giving me big eye reactions when I update about my current weight.

Though sometimes I do feel a bit angry or sad when I wasnt given the same amount of attention as you are with your phone,

you always know how to make things okay.

Thank you, dear.

To more fun times together,

and to more future adventures and laughters!

Jenny

Updates.

 It's been a while not updating this blog except for the monthly anniversary with my love.

It has been a really tough journey during this year's pandemic,

and honestly speaking, it has taken a toll on my physical and mental health as well.

When it comes to working at home, it has been exhausting and tiring.

People think that its easy working at home,

that we all just lie on the couch, attends some online classes or sending offline tasks to our pupils,

and then we can relax and go shopping or binge watching our series,

but honestly it doesn't happen in such a way.

I have been having anxiety and panic attacks for several nights now,

and it has caused me to have difficulty to sleep and rest when it is supposedly time to rest.

Waking up in the morning, 

sitting right in front of the screen, doing online Google Meets with the pupils,

assigning tasks for them, checking their attendance, keying in their attendance in two different platforms,

preparing tasks and lesson plans for the next day,

finishing up school works here and there,

attending Google Meets for workshops, briefing and all sort of things till 5pm.

and then, getting calls and last minute texts about work.

It is seriously frustrating and upsetting.

and my mental health has been seriously affected to the point of getting anxiety attacks,

of getting burnt out,

of getting easily annoyed when getting calls from work,

of losing temper easily when last minute calls for work and sometimes matter unrelated to me.

And it has also caused me to gain weight due to this hidden stress.

It's not easy dealing with all of this and I really wish to go back to school and work normally.

I really wish to get back to work, and finally have my deserving rest at home.

Instead of messing up my work time and rest time at home.

I can't imagine the immense stress of having to deal all of this if I have a family in the future.

Gosh.

My mind is tired and unproductive,

and all the things that I want to do and focus on are all in arrays due to this pandemic.

The unforgiving higher authorities that seem to ignore the time that we should be resting,

The endless works that are not bringing any benefits to our career and our kids,

The illogical workshops that seem to share the best practices and yet can't be applied in the current situations,

seriously, can you just stop?

When the officer asked me the other day if we did any motivation talks or workshops for teachers,

all I could think of to answer him is this,

give us a break. 

stop pushing us to attend meaningless things.

and stop pressuring us to achieve the "perfect data"

Jenny

9.11

Today marks our 9th month together.

Time passes fast when spent together with people that we love,

and it's true. 

In a glimpse of time, it has been 9 months together,

and it's been a fun journey,

a journey where we unlock and discover each other's new characteristics,

a journey where we find comfort in each other despite the hectic life at work,

and a journey of trying to complete each other in where we lack of.

Thanks for being at my side all the time despite how much I am lacking,

and thanks for being patient with me though I easily lose my patience at times.

To more months and years together, love!

Jenny.

9.10

 Happy 8th month, love.

It was indeed a pity that we could not celebrate this day together due to the current situation.

Nevertheless, hope you are going to feel better,

and once we are free from quarantine,

we are going to stick with one another once more like how we used to.

Thank you for being my companion all this while.

Helping me to feel calm and peaceful at all time.

Thank you for making me feel the luckiest girl ever,

having someone who understand me and always there to listen to me.

Despite there are times where I easily got sensitive with you and your attachment to your phone,

but I am grateful that you would listen to me most of the time,

and accompany me while giving me your attention which I love the most.

Thanks for making me laugh all the time with your silly expressions and your laughter.

To more months and years ahead, bao.

Jenny~

Nightmare

 No matter how much we tried to protect ourselves from Covid, 

it's always out there.

My boyfriend was diagnosed positive today despite not joining any social gatherings,

and have been observing good hygienic practices.

But I guess, it's difficult to do so at his workplace,

and he might have caught it at his workplace.

It saddens me a lot when hearing he was positive Covid.

For now, he had flu and symptomatic.

I have also now started to do some self isolation at home to reduce any risk or exposure to people around me.

I did my first self test and thank God, it was negative.

And here I am hoping that the next few tests in several days to come would also be negative too.

I nearly cried when I told my parents about it.

I tried my best to be strong but I guess they can hear the crack of my voice,

so they tried their best to cheer me up and make feel less worried.

My boyfriend, knowing that I am a super worried person, tried to make me feel better,

and it saddens me a lot that I couldn't be there for him at this current moment.

So yeah, I shed a few tears here and there due to my current period and the current situation.

I just thought we were going to celebrate tomorrow a little bit, 

but I guess it can wait.

Hoping that all will be fine and then we can meet each other real soon.

Covid sucks.

Jenny~

9.9.2021

 Happy 7th month!

I noticed that I love to keep track of how many months we have been spending together, 

and I am so thankful and grateful that we have entered our 7th month together. 

Laughing, teasing and making each other warm and happy is a bliss despite the current curse of pandemic.

Thank you for always being at my side.

Despite how busy you are right now with your booming business,

thank you for making some time for me and making sure that I always receive the ample amount of attention and time from you.

May you earn more and buy more pork for me!

 

Thanks for being such an awesome boyfriend!

Jenny~

9.8.2021

 Happy 6th month, love.

Time passes so fast and we have been together for half of 2021 already!

Thank you for being the one who I can lean on during happiness as well as in sadness.

Thank you for accepting me with or without any lipstick,

and thank you for always being there for me.

There are times when I annoyed you and make you pissed off due to my ignorance,

and there are times when I got "shot" by you for days and eventually, I'm the one who got pissed,

but these are the little things that make us grow even closer with one another.

Thank you for everything, love.

May we continue to walk together with our couple shoes and have a wonderful time being in each other's company!

Jenny

If you can choose

 The other day, I had an online lesson with my pupils, 

and we came across this sentence in the stanza that mentioned the feeling of missing the old times,

and I struck up a question to my pupils,

if you choose to go back to a time, which moment would you want to be back and why?

They gave many different answers and mixed feedbacks as well,

some of them wished to go back to the past where they had more fun with friends,

and some of them prefer current moment as this is the time for them to grow mature and gain new experiences.

And then I thought to myself, which moment would I want to be back to and why?

I wish to go back to the times when there was no pandemic,

the time when we were free to go anywhere we want without any fear,

without the anxiety of we gonna get something bad when we go out,

the time when hanging out with friends or just having a meal at a cafeteria doesn't seem scary,

and the time when I can meet my pupils and colleagues and share wonderful times and stories with them.

But I am truly happy with the current moment as well.

This pandemic brought mixed feelings to me as if it's not because of this pandemic,

I wouldn't be able to attend my friend's wedding which was done at such a wonderful place,

I might not get the chance to be the bridesmaid and same goes to my other half,

and I might not get to meet him too.

I guess the only good thing this pandemic brought to me is my other half whom I love and cherish the most.

But honestly, this pandemic has brought its worst effects to me too.

The feeling of fear and anxiety is constantly there,

the feeling of loneliness especially during working hours at home has greatly impact my work performance to an extent of getting burnout.

The unbalanced lifestyle whereby I was not able to relax at my own home and constantly working day in day out has severely caused me to lose myself at times,

I was only able to pull through because of my other half who has been supporting me and calming me down during some of my bad days.

It is difficult, guys.

It is really difficult.

How I wish this will end now.

Please end now, Covid-19.

Jenny.

5th month

 Happy 5th month to us.

It didn't feel like it was only 5 months with you,

instead it feels like it has been ages with you.

Thank you for being my strength and my source of laughter.

Thank you for being at my side at all times especially during my down times, stressful times and also my sick and overthinking days.

To more days, weeks, months and years ahead.

May we laugh more and love more with each day to look forward to together.

Jenny~

My Love

 So I watched this movie, My Love, recommended by my boyfriend.

At the first glance, I thought it would be just a normal high school love story where at the end of the day,

the male character and female character didn't get together.

And it was indeed the plot of the story.

But there were several parts that triggered the sadness in me and as if it brought me to the past.

Words.

Words are the most wonderful things that could be spoken and heard.

And yet, it brings the most damage to the person closest to you when used wrongly.

Timing.

Not all timing was right.

Just when we thought that the timing was right, it wasn't,

and both parties were hurt because of it.

Moving on.

Moving on hurts.

Moving on after such a great length of year wasn't easy at all.

But the moment you decided that it's over,

and walked towards a new beginning,

it would be the most wonderful amidst the most heartbreaking thing to do.

Goodbye to the lovely days,

Hello to even more lovelier days ahead.

Goodbye to the lonely days,

Hello to brighter days ahead.

Stop pacing back and forth in darkness.

It's time to take the courageous step forward into the brightness,

and you might find someone is there to take your hands.

Jenny.

9.6.2021

 Happy 4th month, love.

Thank you for being there at all times for me.

Thank you for willing to pick up new skill which is cooking skill.

Thank you for making and sending me breakfasts,

You do not know how happy I felt these days having someone like you to cook for me despite still learning,

You make my dreams come true which is to have someone cook for me despite just a beginner,

and because of that,

I love you more and more each day.

Thank you for being there for me and dealing with my anxiety at all times.

Thank you for making me feel safe and comforted at all times,

and thank you for just being present in my life at all times.

To more months ahead,

and to more fun times together.

Love, 

Jenny

Frustrated

 Day by day,

I asked myself if it's really worth it to be as workaholic as I used to be.

I used to be someone who is ever ready to do what is instructed even though it isn't my work,

I was always ready to help out and assist,

I was always ready to take orders and force myself to work for long hours at school as well as home.

But now,

it felt different.

It felt frustrating when I am keen to complete the job,

and yet people above me is not.

It felt frustrating when I am all out to complete the job,

but the person above me is holding out and yet giving pressure on me,

expecting a great job done but not giving the essential information.

It felt frustrating when jobs that were not supposed to be done by me,

and yet, I have to be the one to assist works that are unrelated to my field,

and completely out of my expertise.

Once completed, I have to be the one to be submitting it as if it's my job,

as if it's my work,

as if it's my assignment,

when it is not.

I pity those who were forced to sit together and do the work,

when it is literally not our work.

Not even hearing the word thank you coming from him,

and yet, dare to tell me that if I am giving him a hard time, he will do the same to me,

when this is supposed to be his work.

It breaks my heart when this happened today.

I was always being respectful and always being helpful,

I guess it finally backfired in my face.

Wish I was not proactive and so busybody, asking for jobs.

Now, unrelated jobs are given to me just for the sake of completing it,

and they take the credits for it.

Damn.

Jenny

09.05.2021

 3rd month of being together makes me feel happier day by day.

Thank you for being at my side during my emo seasons,

and also during those random moments.

Though there were times that I always said the wrong thing at the wrong timing,

I'm glad that we talked it out and eventually knowing more about one another through the process.

Thank you for being such a caring person,

someone who I wouldn't be shy to ask for help and assistance,

someone who would always be at my side at all times,

and someone who gives me unlimited attention and making sure that I always feel accompanied.

Thank you for letting me into your life and your family too.

All these things that you have done for me make me happier and feel more loved day by day.

To more fun and better days ahead,

and to more lovely and funny moments to create with you!

Jenny~

May

 1st of May.

Thank God for such a wonderful month of April.

A month that I felt truly blessed with all the wonderful things happening to me despite the current pandemic.

Thankful and grateful for being able to see my kids in April though only for a short moment before school was closed again,

Thankful and grateful for the endless surprises for my birthday,

for all the well wishes, cakes, flower bouquets, cash bouquet, and of course, lovely presents from my partner,

it was something that I did not expect or anticipate at all especially during this pandemic season,

and I was touched beyond words for all the lovely things that were given to me on this special month.

Thankful and grateful that I received my certificate on my Masters right before the month ends too!

I am now officially a holder of Masters in Education (TESL),

after spending 2 years of working my ass off and turning myself into a workaholic,

after shedding tears and sweat during the past 2 years during my studies,

and also after countless times of wanting to just give up halfway and to enjoy my holidays instead of going to classes,

I am thankful that I persevered through alone and eventually, rewarded for all the sacrifices that I have done.

Despite unable to wear the graduation robe and attending the convocation due to the pandemic,

I am still grateful that I have finally ended this journey,

and now, finally some time to rest and recharge with my partner instead of being alone again.

Everything happens at the right timing.

Thank God I let it all happen in its natural course instead of pushing it through like how I used to do.

Thank God for everything.

To a better times in the upcoming months,

and to more fun-filled and happy events in the upcoming months,

may all good things happen in May and the next following months,

and may the pandemic starts to ease down instead of raging one.

Jenny~

29.

29.

I remember my previous birthdays were always celebrated alone at home with my own home-cooked food and a slice of cake that I bought for myself.

I remember the happiest day was 5 years ago when my pupils made a surprise party for me,

and showered me with lots of love and gifts too.

After that, it was a mundane celebration where I celebrated by having lunch with my colleagues,

and then home alone on that day.

I remember the birthday which was celebrated on top of the hill, waiting for sunset but ended up a rainy day,

I thought that would be the last thing someone would ever do for me,

and that my upcoming birthdays would be celebrated with me, myself and I.

Years passed by and as I expected the same thing to happen again this year,

it didn't.

Life is always filled with unexpected surprises and twists.

And yes, I agree.

This year, I am blessed with lovely birthday wishes from colleagues and friends from every part of the country.

This year, I received 3 cakes from my best friend, boyfriend and my kids.

This year, I received my first bouquet of flowers and a tiny pot of flowers which are my favourite kinds.

This year, I was able to not cook for myself and served with yummy food despite getting take away due to Covid.

This year, I received my very first handwritten letter from my other half.

And this year, my birthday has been the happiest day of my life,

and all thanks to those who celebrated with me indirectly and directly.

To my best friend,

thank you for the cake, baby breath and the video despite how it showed my past pictures. 

To my colleagues and friends from all over the country,

thank you for remembering and blessing me with lovely wishes.

To my parents,

thank you for giving birth to me into this world despite how you always told me the story of me not wanting to come out to the world as easily as you always expect it to be.

and to my other half,

thank you for making me the happiest woman that night with all your lovely gifts, food, cupcakes,

and most important, your attention and time for me.

You do not know how much it meant for me when you gave me all your attention and time.

Thank you love.

Jenny~

Update.

Hello April.

My favourite month is already here and it has started in a good way.

School has been reopened despite the pandemic,

and though I was worried of how to handle and meet my pupils at this time,

I am glad that I was able to stand in a classroom filled with my favourite people,

and do my work like how I have always enjoyed it.

Even though it was tiring waking up early in the morning,

the thought of seeing those excited faces and hearing their laughter in the class,

those are the things that kept me wanting to do more for them even though in a limited situation.

Relationship has been going well.

Despite the days we couldn't meet due to us being close contacts or casual contacts of an infected person,

we tried our best to be there for each other through text messages and phone calls,

and it helped us to pull through this situation together.

And I am thankful that everyone who was involved were tested negative,

and that both of us are able to meet again soon.

Do pray for us that everything is going to be okay for us soon.

Last but not least, I have started and ended my drama session despite taking such a long time to do so.

It was a great drama and I cried a lot at most of the scenes.

And somehow, I felt that instead of crying at love scenes, 

I cried more when it comes to family scenes or when it was about just being there for each other.

Those are the scenes that somehow tug my heartstring and make me felt touched.

For the times when I was lonely,

For the times when I wished someone was beside me,

to comfort me, to make me laugh, to listen to me and to be there when I cry,

those were the times where the feelings were akin to how the characters in there must have felt.

Therefore, I thank God for that particular moment,

the moment where I coincidentally met you. 

Here is a quote that I fell in love to in the drama,

a quote that I could relate to so much,

a quote that reminds me that no matter how much fear or doubt I had in me,

it will always take me to my destination when time comes.

"I got on the wrong train, and that very train brought me here. 

It brought me to the place I've yearned to come every morning and night. 

It brought me to my destination."-CLOY-

Jenny~

09.04.2021

Our second month.

Grateful to be in love and be loved.

To more days being together,

To more days listening and comforting each other,

To more days being in each other's presence despite the obstacles faced during this pandemic,

To more days eating together,

To more days laughing together,

To more days disturbing and making fun of each other,

To more days of sharing "common" knowledge with each other,

To more days to lying next to each other and embracing each other while feeling warm, 

and to more days enjoying each minute as we are close to one another.

Despite the constant fear of this pandemic and the risks it might pose to both of us,

I thank God each day for His protection on both of us and people around us.

Thank you for being close to my heart at all times.

Jenny~

My new co-writer, A

Hi guys.

It's been a while after the last post,

And as I have been juggling my time between my career, hobbies and also my relationship, 

I have not been updating for quite some times. 

So here it goes. 

I have a new co-writer!

He will be updating it from time to time,

Not too sure what's he is going to update you guys, 

But I'm sure it's going to be wonderful for you guys and me to read!

Till the next post from me. 

Jenny. 

Hi, readers around the world! Thank you for supportting this blog for all these years. I am “A”, the new co-writer for this blog. Due to the main writer being busy parto (dating!),  I have been assigned to become the co-writer for minimum wages. 

How i met the main writer, you ask? We met at our friend's wedding. She said that she was looking for someone handsome to be the cowriter, so,  here I am, the most handsome man in the wedding at her service. 

I like pizza, pork, meat and curry (TMI). (Mentioning it here to let you all know a bit about me and also to hint that someone to cook these food for me.) 

To be a good co-writer, I had been studying and reading the past posts in this blog to slowly understand the whole thing about this blog. I found out that our main writer likes to go to the train station a lot. Well, I will be with the main writer at every train station next time. Therefore, if you want to find us, please seek for us at the train station (if you can!) That's all from me. Stay tuned for the next post.

A. 

09.03.2021. Our first month.

Today is our first month being together as a couple.

Honestly speaking, till now, I couldn't believe that you are my boyfriend and I am your girlfriend.

The countless times that you touched my heart with your words and actions,

makes me feel lucky each day that I have met you on that wonderful day.

Thanks for making me feel warm each day through your words and actions.

Thank you for appreciating me and giving me little gifts that meant the world for me on normal days instead of during festive times.

Thank you for making me touched by your constant reassurance that we are going to be in this adventure together in a long run.

Thank you for making me smile during my most emotional times and holding my hands tight to make your presence known.

And thank you for choosing me and loving me in your own unique ways.

Though many would say that this is just a honeymoon phase where everything seems beautiful,

I know that there is a long road ahead of us,

obstacles and challenges are bound to happen,

and I am ready to take on with it as long as you are by my side.

Let's do this, love.

May we go through each day together and be in this adventure of ours in a long run.

Love you.

Jenny. 

Happy Valentine's Day.

 14.02.2021.

Valentine's Day used to be a day where I would sit in my room alone,

lying on my bed,

scrolling on social media and seeing all the happy couples posting pictures of them celebrating,

while I'm all alone in my room.

And eventually cried myself to sleep or bringing work to my table and worked till I'm tired and dozed off.

But this year, it was different.

For the first time after almost 10 to 11 years,

I finally get to spend it with someone special who I am glad to call as my boyfriend.

And for the first time, I felt so lucky to have spent this day like how I wanted it to be,

simple.

Instead of expensive flower bouquet that wouldn't last long,

he gave me a pot of orchid that will bloom always when taken care of with love and attention.

Instead of spending time at town,

he came to my house, gave me lots of hugs and kisses, and brought me for a short walk while holding hands at my neighbourhood.

Instead of fancy dinner and steak + wine,

I cooked simple dishes for dinner and he finished everything up though I doubt whether it was really nice or not,

Instead of going home after dinner, he insisted to stay longer to accompany me and to listen to all sorts of stories,

while laughing and having a great time.

This is indeed the kind of Valentine's Day that I wish to do with my partner.

Simple and filled with love is more than enough for me. 

Thank God that you were here.

Thank God for sending you at the right time.

Thank God for everything. 

Jenny~

She said yes.

She woke up in the morning,

smiling while replaying all the moments previous night.

The moment when he lights up seeing her,

The moment they were laughing and talking with one another,

The moment they first embraced one another warmly,

and the moment when he smiled shyly before asking her to be his special one.

And she said yes.

It felt so unreal and yet, it was real.

She looked outside her window and was glad that she made the decision.

The decision to stay in this town.

The decision to let God to handle everything.

and the decision to fall in love again with the right man.

Yes.

Jenny.

09.02.2021 *hearts*

 Today is the day that I was embraced warmly by you.

Today is also the day that I somehow drove you to the corner by asking what am I in your life.

I wanted a label,

and I was actually scared that one day this sweet dream of mine would pop,

and things will become the worst nightmare.

At least, knowing what am I in your life will help me to determine my feelings in the future.

I didn't expect you would ask me the ultimate question,

and I am sorry if it felt like I forced you to do so.

But my answer is yes.

And no matter what, it has always been yes.

And I am ready to go through this together with you.

Let's embrace each other strengths and weaknesses as we go through each day together.

Thank You God for answering my prayer.

Thank You so much.

The day I am officially taken but not announced to the world. 

Jenny~

Thank you.

 Thank you for being at my side during my mood swing session last couple of days.

Thinking back about the past,

none of the guys really comforted me during my emo sessions,

instead just stayed quiet or making me feel even worse by having to attend their emo sessions instead.

I have been so many people's centre of relief,

and to be able to be relieved by someone else,

to be able to be comforted by someone else,

and to be able to laugh at silly random TMI and pop quiz,

is something that I really appreciate.

Thank you, you,

for making me felt accompanied the whole time I was feeling down,

for making me feel that you are right next to me the whole time,

for making me laugh at your sudden TMI and also pop quiz that makes me blur and speechless.

Thank you, you.

Jenny~

Warm and fuzzy

 Thank you for making me feel warm and fuzzy yesterday.

It's been a while not feeling the warmth from someone else.

And it's indeed quite some time not sitting side by side with someone who makes me feel so safe and warm.

Thank you, you.

Jenny~

February

 February.

The 2nd month of 2021.

And I am still working from home, 

not able to see my kids at school due to pandemic,

staying at home to avoid crowds and to safeguard myself as well as my family.

It hasn't been a great start of the year,

and I thank God that I am surrounded by wonderful people who kept me company.

Thank you for keeping me accompanied through daily texts and occasional calls.

It made me laughed and smiled a lot while going through difficult times of working at home.

Thank you making me feel safe and warm at the same time too.

Thank you for sending food and spending time with me at my home.

It meant a lot to me that you would take out some time to come and see me.

How silly was I before this.

Thinking that I wouldn't be able to meet someone better than the previous one,

for keeping hold on to the guy who brought more misery that happiness in my life,

and for beating myself up over a guy who made felt insecure the whole time.

How silly was I to think that no one could replace him.

And now, right here,

I am so thankful that you are present in my life,

making me feel so warm and happy.

Thank you, you.

You indeed meant a lot to me in the past, present and hopefully in the future.

Jenny. 

Unexpectedly

 Just when we thought 2021 would be a start of a probably great year, 

it feels like chapter 2 of 2020.

At the time of writing, Miri, which is the city I am living in is in red zone due to Covid-19,

and now undergoing CMCO to keep it controlled from getting spread even further.

Uncertainties started to flow in.

Going out for necessities or for leisure seems to be impossible for a moment now.

Going back to school for teaching seems to be the scariest thing to do especially when being in the red zone.

Not mentioning the weirdest weather where it has been raining and pouring almost daily,

causing wreak and havoc in certain parts of the city.

It has been only 13 days into 2021,

and yet, things seem to be getting more serious.

It feels like driving in an endless tunnel with no lights gradually.

Thank God, I have my sister beside me to keep me off from overthinking.

Thank God, I was able to call my parents daily just to update what's happening on both sides.

Thank God, I still have my best friend to text though not as often as before just to keep in touch.

and thank God, I have you who would text and the occasional calls to make me laugh and forget all these darkness for a while.

I hope that things will get better soon.

I hope we can meet up soon.

And I hope to see you and hear you laugh endlessly soon.

Jenny~

The feast.

 After a long journey, 

she had reached her destination.

She walked through the town and was in the middle of a feast.

A wedding feast, to be exact.

With the bride and groom dancing with delight,

and with the guests clapping, tapping and enjoying the feast,

she came across someone who looked familiar.

She walked nearer and nearer to get a clear glimpse of him,

and who knew it was someone who had accompanied her in her previous train journey,

a friend who was close for a period of time before he dropped off at the other station.

He smiled and said hello,

she smiled and waved back.

And it's the start of a new beginning.

A new beginning in a new town,

surrounded with new people,

and feeling warm again.

Thank God she decided to stop by,

Thank God she decided to join the feast,

Thank God he turned and said hello.

This is going to be another long stay.

And may this be a permanent stay.

Jenny

New Year resolution?

I guess it's not too late to wish all a Happy New Year 2021!

May this year be a better year to all, 

and that this is the year where we all would be able to bloom in our most wonderful ways.

I do know that entering 2021 with the current pandemic scare,

and also, with lots of obstacles and hardships that stemmed from the pandemic,

each and everyone of us is going through a tough time.

But may this tough time bear fruits,

and that all of us would be able to go through it and eventually, see the light at the end of this tunnel.

As for me,

I entered 2021 in a different way compared to last few years.

This year, I was accompanied by my family and a close friend who have kept me accompanied during New Year eve through texts.

And when I thought that it might be over there,

it didn't.

Thank God for sending me such a wonderful person whose by my side from the day I met him by accident till now.

May good things come from this.

New Year resolutions for 2021!

I do not have much resolutions to be made this year but here are some of the goals that I wish to achieve b the end of the year.

1. Maintain my 62kg, pls! 

2. Appreciate and cherish the moment spent with him.

3. Appreciate and cherish myself each day.

I guess that's it.

2021 will be a year where I will try my best to reduce my workaholic attitude and spend more time on myself and this newfound warmth. 

May 2021 be a great year despite all the negativity and dark holes.

Jenny~