lets talk~

kept tis in me for a quite a time so yeah, time to let it out... first and foremost, am enjoyin my hols.. at least by avoidin certain ppl, i feel much happier here and am lovin it.. holiday plans havent work out coz am waitin for dmy dad to get his vacation.. and then it will be a whole lot of fun and pics will be comin out in fb n bloggie~~

nxt, i wanna stress here tat if ur reli close to me n understand me, u wud noe wat type of person i am.. seriously! so dont go around, labeling me and then tell ppl u noe me.. coz tats da worst thing u wud ever do to someone u wud consider as a FREN...

nxt up, i noe wat kind of person u are.. dont think u can treat me like tis today and then change the other day.. i sense and i noe.. so juz come to me and tell me wat did it went wrong.. if u cant say, then txt me or mail me... at least i noe... but for now, i dont reli care.. i guess treated like tis for da second times means total let go....

i hate the feelings and i went thru once,,.. for makin me go thru twice, i'll make sure i wont fall for those sweet talks and innocent face anymore.. coz now i noe who u reli are...

~wat goes around comes around~
Jenny~

I'm coming Home~

its saturday and guess wat, i'll be back soon, real soon... after 2 more torturin n suffocatin papers, and im gonna be back home! am gonna spend my first nite at da airport.. wonder how does tat feel... and i noe, dont worry, i have a partner wit me... haha... and i cant wait to sleep at my bed, watch my tv, and do stuffs tat i like.. but da bad thing is tat im not gonna be able to check my fb n update my blog... hmm, but its ok compared wit all da fun im gonna hav durin my long, long hols... haha...

anywayz, keep in touch wit me wit all da means u can think of aside from internet k... haha... will update my blog again b4 i leave for my hols... woohoo!

home without love is not a home...

JEnny~

time do pass~

SEM 1 - SEM 3
(is thr changes?)

i could still remember the first day i reached sabah and entered IPG Kampus Keningau... da whole journey was filled wit joy, anticipation and of course wit pride since im able to fulfill my childhood dreams... but the first week was terrible... orientation tat doesnt seem like one... filled wit much memories and most of it are bad ones... haha.. but somehow it bonds us with the seniors and actually, they are not tat evil though... haha...

then sem 1 started off wit a rather idle schedule.. mayb its bcoz we're da vry first batch here and no TESL seniors to assist us, we decided to be independent... and guess wat, evry sems, we do have conflicts to solve.. its da matter of internal conflicts or external ones.. anywayz, wont be talkin bout tat... and assignments started to come in without an end, and tats when all of us bcome cute "pandas"... stayin up till 3-4am was not a big deal for us tat time.. as long as we can finish our work, den ok na man.... haha... (i love tagalog!)

den all da feelings of homesick, missing home and lotsa flooded my head and heart and of course, till now, i juz wanna be at home.... sem 2 kick start wit a lot, a lot of fun activities and not to mention da tiring and stressful events we had to conduct... but those were fun, real fun.. got myself makeover for CNY and yeah, it became like da "ugly duckling who turn into a swan"... but it never last... ahaha.. anywayz, received criticisms which some were accepted and most are rejected... its juz a matter of some ppl who kept puttin his nose into my matter...

then, sem 3... sem 3 almost finish wit 2 more papers and DONE! sem 3 is mostly on courseworks, and study study study.... den wit all da attentions and pressure from various sides, we sat for our exams... and hopefully, all of us will get reli good results or at least da result that we all hope for... so da main point here is that, time waits no man.. sometimes i feel like goin back to sem 1 where evrythin was fun... and at least he's still thr, nxt to me unlike now, he turned into another person whom i dont think i know him anymore... but one thing that doesnt change is my friendship wit my BFFS (i love u girls!)....

and now i wonder wats nxt in degree programme...

Reflection of da day:
when u say u love someone, do u reli mean it or its juz merely words?

Jenny~

further lessons~

last nite, i somehow chatted wit a fren of mine who gave me like a lot of lessons bout life and love... i'll juz summarize da point here and yeah, it is up to one to evaluate the lessons given...

1. put thoughts into words and words into action...
2. change for someone else so that in the end ur not only main a favor to urself but oso to others... of course change for good and not the otherwise...
3. no point saying time heals if actions are not taken since the scar will always remain there...

ok, suddenly i cant remember wats da other so da person who sort of givin tis lessons to me, remind me if i forgotten anythin.. haha... anywayz, im juz a listener and im not in any position to comment on anythin... i have not been in a relationship juz yet so i could oni listen and thus try my best to giv my point of views... at times it might not be accepted but its up to u rite... its not like i noe evrythin bout love... so yeah, tats y i prefer to keep quiet and listen to wat others got to say...

oh ya, credits to Ulysses for the lessons given... haha... though i dont reli agree wit evrythin but i have my point and yeah, u have ur own point too... haha...

its difficult to forgive and forget... but dont u think its even suffering to keep rememberin all those memories tat keep stabbin ur heart?

JEnny~

lesson 1

ok, i noe i shud be bloggin bout my exam which started today... but, i dont think so... haha.. i dont wanna share not bcoz im selfish or i think im sper genius or stuffs like tat... i will only share my results since i myself am not reli confident wit my own skills of answerin da paper... but da best thing is tat the hardest part is finally done.. and now, my head is like thinkin of HOME!

anywayz, lesson 1? wats tat? lesson on english again? or literature? haha.. nope... its a lesson in life which i juz got from a fren of mine... last nite, we actually chatted and he told me this easy yet meaningful phrase, "time will not heal us if we do not take actions." i think by reading the statement, all of us would understand wat it is trying to tell us rite... time is like an agent which facilitates healin either physical wounds or inner pain... but without actions, nothing wil be fixed rite?

for example, if u hurt urself, of course u'll find bandage and start takin actions on the wound so that it will heal fast rite? same goes to ur heart... when it is hurt, u gotta start takin actions and treat it b4 it get worse... i noe it takes a long time to heal it especially for those couples who broke up after being together for a period of time... but if destiny or fate was meant for u two to go in separate ways, why dont juz accept it and face it wit courage... mayb im not an expert of these things coz i have been livin in da world of single... haha... but after listenin to so many stories and cases, why not move forward in life and stop putting urself in da past....

when we start to move forward in our life, we will eventually meet someone new whr u can avoid all the mistakes u have done against ur previous ones... juz love her or him without comparing her or him wit ur previous ones...

P.S: do u noe how painful it is knowin tat u are being considered as a "spare part"?

Jenny~

The KEY~

ok, i know im gonna take my final exam on mon and tat i shud not be wasting my time updating blog and bla bla... so wat? its my blog so i'll do wat i tink i like it to do... anywayz, da topic im gonna share about is "the key"... sounds interesting, i think... if not, whatsoever...

okey, thrs key to ur house, room, office and bla bla bla... tats not wat i wanna write here... the key tat i am gonna talk about is the key to ur heart (specifically my heart)... ok, most of us had found the right person to pass the key to their heart and eventually allowin the person to win their heart and start a new love relationship... some of us might juz wanna keep the key to their heart and wait for da right person to come and get it...

which one is u? the one who juz simply give it to someone who talk sweet stuffs and eventually gainin ur trust? or the one who keep it till u think the person deserves to get it? oh we, self-evaluation!

how bout me? u might ask... for me, the key to my heart is somehow lost... i think i misplaced it... haha.. no lah, right now, thrs seems to be no guys who could actually make me think he deserves the key.. therefore, i shut it up and sealed it wit a lock in order for me not to get hurt... i wasted too much tears on the guys tat i love but doesnt receive da same return... mayb da key would not be found at all or mayb it will be discovered by someone.. i dont know.. im juz here waitin..

P.S: dont say u will search the key when u dont even know whrs da key... ur juz givin somone a hope and then crush it.. dont u think tats a bad thing to do?

Jenny~

finally!

Yeap, its finally 3 mre days to exams... it seems tat tis time, i felt much more relaxed than b4.. im not smart or stuffs like tat ok.. i study and study but then it seems like thrs nth inside my memory card and stuffs like tat but when being asked, yeah, i can answer... ok, blur mode...

anywayz, am counting days to go home... a place where i can actually relax myself and do stuffs tat i like.. haha... and somehow these days, im captivated by someone's smile.. its wrong of thinkin him bcoz of several reasons but yeah, i think his smile is super sweet... haha.. so yeah, took da decision and texted him first tis mornin... but, i insist, thrs nth btw me n him.. juz frens...

and now i anticipate all the things that will come to me.. hopefully, i'll get to meet my Mr. Right soon... coz i cant wait to see wat kind of guy tat actually get to find tat lost "key"... haha.. =)

Jenny~

Kara-honey~

this song is entitled "honey" performed by Kara, a korean girl group... i super love this song because of its lyrics... somehow it reflects to mysef and it make me thought of someone who i always look for when im in church and yeah, "u have to turn around, honey"... haha... enjoy~

JEnny~

blur~

am in a blur mode rite now.. exams comin in 6 days... issues bout us movin away from here is like in da air and not clear... rumours and stuffs like tat comin up... not time to study due to all the activities that are rising up.. evry mornin gotta enter class and in class, it damn not conducive for me to study... all da pressure and stress is makin me feelin like im gonna experience severe breakdown like reli soon...

im not feeling good today, my mood is on and off, feelings are up and down, my head seems like empty and i dont even noe wat im learnin all this while.. im juz blur... blur wit evrythin.. blur bout exams, blur bout my feelings of thinking of movin away... everyone i damn excited about movin but i don reli wanna move.. too many memories here and people here tat make me feel unable to move away... home is far and now i need someone beside me... it feels like spm whr i need constant attention from my parents...

i hate this feeling.. and i hate evrythin tats happenin.. i hate all the stress and pressure given by our lecturers... i hate the feeling where everyone is putting high hopes on us.. ans i hate the thoughts of moving.... i juz wan evrythin to be normal.. like its used to be... like it owes used to be...

Jenny~

^^

~Dedicated to my beloved friends who have been at my side all this while,
who went thru sadness, happiness and sorrow wit me,
who cried and laughed wit me,
who actually spends and waste their time wit me,
and who loves me like who i am right now...

~To my friends and my BFFs, u guys are da best,
i might do wrong and hurt u, but u noe deep inside, ur da ones who are important,
though im not a prefect person, but u have been supporting me,
when im sad, u make me laugh like a crazy girl,
thank u~

And yes, im so glad to have a friend like you!!

Jenny~

Happy!

ok, first and foremost, this is nothing to be proud of or wanna show off about.. juz tat, i wanna share this lil new wit everyone... i actually got da first place in word puzzle during the English Week... the thing that make me go all happy is not bcoz of da hamper or stuffs like tat but then bcoz this is like my very first competition during my foundation year and got a result out from it... and it was unexpected... so getting a hamper actually make me feel more enthusiastic and hence, i felt like its time for me to get active and show everyone what i am made of... haaha..

anywayz, i was reli entertained by the performances especially by da juniors themselves... i mean they deserve all da praises so yeah, congratz again~~ haha... plus, da KPLI TESL was excellent.. they acctually portray da English nite like wat i had been expecting... and right now, i wanna make sure that if there are anymore events for us, we will be doing stuffs like tat tooo..... ngee~~

JEnny`

NotiCE~

yeap, its official... 2 more weeks to go for exams... and im not prepared.. ok, 1%... haha.. anywayz, mayb am not gonna update blog for these 2 weeks so yeah, u noe da reason.. hihi.. will be updatin my blog whenever im free k.. dont miss me ya,,, =)

Jenny~

Reality~

i think it is time for me to move on in life and stop holdin myself back in my imaginary world... he would nvr been mine and he will always remain a good view for me.. we are complete strangers and dont know one another.. though his smile and eyes will always captivate my heart, i must wake myself up and release myself from this fantasy... coz reality is not owes sweet... and in the reality, i am not destined for such a guy...

i think too much, imagine too much and put too much hope... im not hurt bcoz i noe im livin in an imaginary world all this while... i could have released myself but i didnt.. bcoz i hav a hope in it.. and now, i have realised that i can nvr live in an imaginary world too long... some day i hav to wake up and face the loss... he might juz not be da one for me.. he is too perfect.. and he deserves someone better...

i never loved him.. and mayb tats da reason i nvr let anyone find da key to my heart.. bcoz i cant love a person like i used to.. mayb time is da best healing agent... mayb not seeing often would make me forget him.. i will forget tat imaginary world.. but i wont forget those sweet moments...

JEnny~

cinta vs suka~

Got this from a fren of mine's blog.. kinda interestin though so yeah, i decided to share it wit u guys too... at least all of us noe wats da difference between love and like rite... anywayz, enjoy... P.S: love to God is a priority!

Apabila diajukan pertanyaan apakah perasaan yang terbit dalam hati mereka terhadap pasangan masing-masing sama ada cinta atau suka, pasti ada ramai antara mereka yang akan terdiam dan serba salah. tidak tahu yang mana satu jawapan paling tepat. ada rasa cinta dan dalam masa yang sama ada juga rasa suka. namun, harus diingat cinta dan suka adalah dua benda yang berbeza. diakui ramai yang keliru dengan dua istilah ini kerana agak sukar untuk mengenal pasti keduanya, berikut disenaraikan perbezaan antara cinta dan suka.

1. ♥ di hadapan orang yang kita cinta, hati kita akan berdegup kencang..
♣ tapi, di hadapan orang yang kita suka, hati kita akan gembira..

2. ♥Jikalau kita lihat di dalam mata orang yang kita cinta, kita akan kaku..
♣Tapi, jikalau kita lihat ke dalam mata orang yang kita suka, kita akan tersenyum..

3. ♥Di depan orang yang kita cinta, lidah kelu untuk berkata..
♣Tapi, di hadapan orang yang kita suka, lidah bebas berkata apa saja..

4. ♥Di depan orang yng kita cinta, kita menjadi malu..
♣Di depan orang yang kita suka, kita akan tunjukkan diri kita yang sebenar..

5. ♥Kita tidak boleh merenung mata orang yang kita cintai..
♣Tapi, kita selalu merenung mata orang yang kita suka..

6. ♥Bila orang yang kita cinta menangis, kita akan turut menangis..
♣Bila orang yang kita suka menangis, kita akan turut membuat dia gembira..

7. ♥Di depan orang yang kita cinta, musim sentiasa berbunga-bunga..
♣Di depan orang yang kita suka, musim itu cuma berangin sahaja..

8. ♥Di depan orang yang kita cinta kita takut untuk berterus terang kerana terlalu bimbang si dia akan terguris…
♣Di depan orang yang kita suka kita terlalu mudah untuk berterus terang kerana kita yakin terus terang itu paling baik untuk menjaga keharmonian perhubungan kamu dengan si dia..

9. ♥Perasaan cinta bermula dari mata..
♣Perasaan suka bermula dari telinga…

Jangan meninggalkan orang yang kita cinta semata-mata untuk orang yang kita suka kerana orang yang kita suka tersebut belum tentu sama dengan orang yang kita cinta dan belum tentu lagi orang yang kita suka tersebut dapat mencintai kita seperti mana oaring yang kita cinta mencintai kita..

Jikalau kita berhenti menyukai seseorang yang kita suka, ia umpama kita membuang telinga kita. Tapi, jika kita cuba menutup mata, cinta akan berubah menjadi air mata..

Get over it!

somehow, im sick wit ppl tellin that, "yeah, i forget bout him/her d.... yeah, he/she's a bad person.." and bla bla bla... i mean, stop sayin those nonsense if u cant forget... wats da point tryin to tell da whole world ur hurt if u cant forget tat person.. keep sayin ur gonna forget tat person doesnt mean u can forget him.. ur juz REMINDING urself bout him... lil sweet talks would make u go melt... come one lah.. do wat u say bah.. if u cant forget him then dont.. keep him in ur memory wit all those bad things he did to u.. and then suffer,,.. and then dont come to me tellin me all those bullshits lah...

im not angry juz pissed off.. wats da point of sayin u'll forget him when u keep sayin bout his smile and when u encounter him.. he dont even giv a damn about u ok.... next u keep lookin at his wall in facebook or stuffs like tat... and then get jealous bcoz he's commenting wit other girls... come on lah, is he EVEN URS?? juz get it over wit lah.... wats da point liking someone who dont giv a damn about u.. wats da point of hurtin urself and cry and keep whining bout da way he treat when he DONT GIV A DAMN BOUT U? bullshit lah bah~~

P.S: GET OVER IT.... ur not makin urself sad or look pathetic, but ur botherin other ppl wit those talks.. am so f***ing sick bout it ok... GO GET A LiFE LAH!!!!

Jenny~

Time is precious~

i realised da meanin of time when i reached here.. time is so precious that at times we have to chase after it... i could still vividly remember the time during sem 1 when time was crucial when we were handling our assignments... last minute preparation for our exhibition, assignments and all those stuffs were reli adventurous as it means we were lacking of da precious elements in life: SLEEP!

then, in sem 2 we had practices on Macbeth whr we had to sacrifice our sleep so that the drama will reach to perfection.. not only that, time was so limited for us to even catch a nap and yeah, we were super exhausted that time.. but when i reflect back on all da things that we went thru, i enjoyed all the memories we had.. and i missed the moments when we actually laugh together, argue together and even cry together.. and then in this sem too, i met back da person that i havent met for a long time since sem 1... and it was like a dream come true coz we eventually met in church.. Thanks be to God...

then in this sem, studying for finals is like the only thing that is in my mind... strivin for excellence is what i intended to do.. but due to me procrastinating and limited time to actually study everything as in from sem 1 to 3, i blame myself... but i believe that everything is possible.. like the motto of my ex-prefectorial board, Mission Possible! and yeap, im holdin on to this... and i cant wait to reach home.. but before home, there is one thing i wanna do.. i wanna make the fullest use of this time to see him.. at least, after im back from hols and he's no longer there, i wont feel regret coz i noe he had been a person that makes me feel appreciated..

Jenny~

My Mr. Right~

these are like a few characteristics of the guy that i wan in my life and i know it sounds like so perfect but yeah, im glad enuf if the guy can fulfill at least a few of these characteristics... haha.. P.S: for those who thinks its lame or stuffs like tat, F**K OFF!

so here goes:
1. older than me at least a few years lah.. but not more than 10 yrs....
2. mature and able to think independently (as in having their own principles)
3. taller than me (MUST!)
4. looks come second lah.. i mean at least he muz have a kind of looks that pleases my eyes.. haha..
5. caring and loving...
6. has those kinds of eyes and smiles that can make me smile..
7. able to entertain me when im bored
8. loves to make me laugh
9. confident with himself and not the type tats over-possesive
10. gives me freedom when i needed one as in i dont have to be 24 hrs stickin to him...
11. loves me as much as i do
12. able to make me laugh when i cry
13. always at my side when i needed him at all times
14. broad shouldered (reason: so tat i can lean on his shoulder whenever i want)
15. someone who wud give me a peck on the forehead
16: someone who would giv me free hugs when i needed one
17. and a guy who can make me feel safe and protected

and the list will go on like forever.. haha.. i know that this maybe like a dream which i can never attain.. but at least, i can still dream on rite.. haha.. but yeah, i juz nid someone who loves me for wat i am and not because of my looks.. i may be ugly but in me, i noe im ok.. i may not be the girl u want in ur life, but i dont k coz i noe im being brought to tis world wit purposes.. last but not least, i may not be the dream girl in ur life but i noe somewhere, im da dream girl of someone else... i give all to God to decide... =)

Jenny~

feelings~

Feelings are somethin which cannot be described and in the end, unexplainable.. for example, we cannot give reasons on why we like or love someone... no matter how many reasons u give, it juz seem like its not enuf... i listened to a lot of stories from my frens no matter those in secondary schools or my current besties and mates... its like everythin is connected to this feeling: love...

i dont noe or recognise love myself... i mean i never been in a relationship till now so yeah, i dont know wats love... mayb u may think that im an expert of love coz i juz noe wat to speak at da rite time but trust me, i gained all those advice from dramas, problems i heard from friends and also based on my limited experience... some of it are basically common sense lah.. anywayz, thrs tis fren of mine who keep sayin she could let go of this guy bcoz of the way he treated her.. i mean the guy was like treatin her as if she's a back-up or pillow thingy... when he nids her, he finds her and when he dont, she's left alone juz like tat... FYI: they're not in a relationship.. basically the girl like him like a lot, i mean it, A LOT!

so yeah, keep sayin u can forget him doesnt work it... i mean the more u say, the more u rmbr that guy and all those "sweet" stuffs he told u and blah blah blah... i mean such guys are pathetic.. and i dont respect guys like tat... i shud not call them guys but JERKS lah bah.. not all the guys i meet are like tat so yeah, not all guys are under the label JERKS... so for me, why dont u juz forget about him... sori lah but then keep thinkin bout him or jealous bout him wit other girls doesnt help... he dont even pay attention to u lah bah... haiz~~

anywayz, hope evrythin goes well for tis person.. i mean come on lah, no one wanna hear u braggin tat u can forget him and eventually ur still talkin bout him.. its pathetic, fussy and boring...

Jenny~

U-kiss!!

sharing another mv from my another fav korean boy band, U-Kiss... gosh they can actually speak english like reli well and they're so adorable... so in this group, my fav is Dongho who like 2 yrs younger than me and yeah, super cute as well as Eli, handsome dude~~ enjoy! =D

Exam TimeTable!

Yeap, its finally out and facing me rite now.... the dates are as following:

1st Nov - Language Description
2nd Nov - Language Development
8th Nov -English Studies
9th Nov - Social Studies

20th Nov- HOME SWEET HOME!!

so yeah, am not prepare for my exams and what more to say with current activities, i dont even hav da time to prepare.. but i know thrs time for evrythin so yeah, am gonna start it soon, real soon.. wont procrastinate, yeah i know... haha.. anywayz, i dont hav confidence in this final lah.. i mean i nid luck coz both LDS and ES are reli hard and gosh, no one knows wats gonna come out.. FYI: LDS are all about grammars and ES are like all about literature.. and its DAMN hard... am gonna try my vry best and hardest to score well in these papers... i know evryone especially my parents are putting their highest hopes on me so yeah, am not gonna fail em... i cant possibly disappoint them tis time.... pray for me, to those whose readin tis, tat i can get good grades in my exams...

Jenny~

B2ST!!

Ok, i shared mv on suju and CN Blue, so yeah, now am gonna share a new mv from B2ST... i love Ki Kwang!!

countdown to EXAM!

ok, my exams will start on november either early nov or a week later.. not sure coz honestly we havent received any timetables yet... its a norm here since EVERYTHING is informed in the last minute.... (P.S. U gotta change tat damn habit b4 moving on in life, k)....

anywayz, im not prepared.... RELI NOT PREPARED.... i mean who can prepare for exam when there's like dozens of assignments still pending.. and well, handed in two which is so heavy and wasting ink (sori, but ink is much more expensive than the time sacrificed to finish all those stuffs!).. then, now i have like two more pending... and i nid to get it done wit b4 moving on in preparin for my exam.. sometimes i got stresses out juz by thinking of it coz imagine notes from all 3 sems..... i barely can even imagine ow much white hairs that's gonna come out again....

then again, there's like so many activities in this mth.. i mean, plz lah... THINK!! how do u expect us to get good grades in our exams when u keep holding tis n tat, taking away all our times to study... MANAGE UR TIME PROPERLY? EXCUSE ME....... how do u wan us to manage our time properly if ur da one havin some nonsense activities at the WRONG TIME, i repeat, WRONG TIME!!!! we have to skip our nap to go and attend some activities tat i myself din even participate and then got back to our room, tired and then, how? u think we can study at that kind of mood???

im not angry wit the college or anythin nor do i have any grudges, but plz lah, do sth that's beneficial for us... i know activities are good in the process og learnin esp us, the future teachers but then plz juz try havin it at da right time.... sheesh...

P.S. To those who doesnt wanna read this post, get ur f***ing ass off my blog.... if u wanna be a follower, then respect wat i gonna say....

Jenny~

CnY~~

ok, it is reli early to talk about CNY but yeah, am gonna talk about it here.... its like tis.. i thought of goin back home for cny nxt yr so yeah, check out my tickets in airasia and mas websites... ok, honestly, airasia is cheaper than mas like a lot... but the problem here is that when should i go back or should i actually go back??

no offence, but after not going back last yr, so i dont reli feel like goin back... but then almost evryone was like asking me to go back lah since its almost 2 yrs not going back for CNY oni... haiz... i mean goin back for festive occassions are like the most important as it means that everyone gathering together and strengthen the bond between one another.... but if conditions are too hard for me to go back, then mayb i'll juz decide not to go back again nxt yr... hope stuffs go well nxt yr so tat am able to go back lah...

P.S. anyone sponsor me tickets to go home?
Jenny~

reflection of da day~

i love updating my blog... mayb its bcoz this is the only media for me to express my thoughts and feelings.. and actually, i dont reli care if anyone wanna read it.. so today's self reflection, love in loneliness...

loneliness is a word that i dread the most as in i dont like being lonely.. i never like the word lonely when i was in secondary schools.. and till now, i still dislike the word lonely... but being single for like da whole part of my life made me think.. why do i hate loneliness when it gives me time to think and reflect on my words and actions?

when i am writing this post, thr's this tree in front of my window and yeah, full of branches and leaves... but among all these greens, there's this pretty thing that struck me deep... a purplish-pink flower is there, all alone... and i wonder if that little thing has feelings, what would it feel?

single doesnt necessarily mean lonely.. if we're able to use it in a good purpose in this life, i dont think loneliness would exist... like me, i do wish i have someone to lean on, to make me laugh, to be thr when i cry, to hug me when i nid a hug and to giv me the love that i have owes dreamt.. but like wat my frens say, someone is juz out thr for me and being sent to keningau may serve me a purpose.. i might juz hav to wait patiently for the right boy to come along...

Jenny~

SpecialLY to GirlZZ~

Girls are like apples on trees... The best ones are at the top of the trees... The boys dont want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt... instead they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy... so the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they are just amazing.... they just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree...

Jenny~

CN Blue!~

Enjoy... somehow this group is different from other boy band.. maybe its because they do not dance but actually perform acoustically with their guitaars, bassist and drums... gosh, i love them a lot... its simply sweet and yeah, i kinda like the guitarist and da drummer here... =D

Jenny~

Life n Death~

Juz received news from my lecturer telling us that one of our lecturer's hubby juz passed away tis mornin... was quite shocked about it since we never expected such things would happen... i mean this month had been reli a stressful month not only for us but for our lecturers too... when i heard that she is not ok when she received the news, i was sad for her... reli sad fore her bcoz she had juz lost someone she loved so much and had plans in the future wit him...

"death are like thieves".. that's wat one of my lecturer told me juz now... it comes without any warning and took ur life away unexpectedly... death can happen to anyone no matter ur young or old.. so da most important thing to do is to take good care of our health and learn to appreciate evry single moments we spent on this Earth.. we never knew when God wants to take us back with him.. maybe tats y im afraid, afraid of losing my loved ones when im not ready to let them go... afraid that i wont be able to see them before they go... i hope that God will always pray for my family members and protect them from any harms and dangers... they are the most important part in my life and yes, im not ready to let them go yet...

appreciate ur life before its taken... appreciate ur friends, before u lose them... appreciate the feelings of being loved before u wont have any time to do so... and most important, appreciate the presence of God in our life and repent before our chance fly away...

Jenny~

someone gotta do somethin like tis to win my heart... haha...

Jenny~

dedicated to u..

i never revealed my true feelings to a person whom i call, my best fren... i first knew her when i was in Form 2.. she's reli sweet and at first i thought she is not a chinese or she didnt know how to speak in chinese... quite funny though, then all kinds of conflicts happened.. and tats when i felt lonely.. reli lonely.. its like in the class, there's oni u, a stranger... and it feels bad..

when i was in form 3, she approached me and in the end, we became reli close... i always listen to her bcoz im afraid that she will leave me and hence, i'll be all lonely again... but then she taught me that i must learn to say no when its a no.. n i shud not always follow what she says... and since then, i changed and become a better fren... whenever she needed somethin, i'll try my best to provide it to her.. when she nid advices, i try to give her some good ones.. when she needed a listener, i tried to be at her side and listened to her, and comforted her.. though we went thru "silent wars" every year if im not mistaken, in the end, we were together again...

but the event that i could not erase from my mind is when she started to blame for a lot of wrongdoings tat i did... i forgot my promise, i disappoint her for breakin my promises and tat i shud never make promises if i cant fulfill it.. at tat moment, i felt devastated... i could even hear my heart breaking into pieces bcoz i never knew that i had did so many things that hurt her... i apologise but in the end i felt reli bad.. till now, it seems like i did not much to make her forgive me.. mayb she had forgotten, maybe she had not.. but now, i sincerely apologise from the bottom of my heart...

im sorry for i have been an imperfect fren to u...
im sorry for i could not accompany u when u nid a listener...
im sorry for breaking my promises to u...
im sorry for causing so many troubles and pain to u...
and most important of all....
im sorry for im unable to be a good fren to u... a good fren tat u expect me to be... and now that, u have found someone who will always stay at ur side, im relieved... im reli happy for u.. and i hope that evrythin would go well to u...

mayb u might not consider me as ur bestie anymore, but for me, ur owes the bestie whom i love and care the most in life.. hope tat u would accept my sincere apology for all the stuffs i did in the past... at least, i would feel much better..

P.S: sorry~
Jenny~

ImperFectIons~

im a human being.... meanin im full of imperfections... im not a good girl like wat all of u think me of.. i have desires and i have wants like all other girls... the difference is that i know my limits and i know wat i shud do n wat i shud not do... my parents had taught me well enough about da boundaries that i shud not and never cross which i always remind myself and is one of the most important principles in my life...

but when it comes to being me, i juz wanna be the ordinary me.. i juz wanna be like u guys, like others and not being considered as the smart girl, the hardworking girl, the nerd in class, the unpopular girl, the girl who listens to everyone, the girl who dont get mad, the girl whose always humble, the girl who listens to everyone and do what others say, the girl who looks like she nvr got hurt b4, the girl tis n tat... do u know how suffering it is of not being myself? do u noe how bad it feels for being a hypocrite? do u noe how i feels of being ignored and received the false love from everyone? do u noe how much i need attention n love from everyone who can actually see the real me? do u noe how much anger i have to bear and stand ur DAMN behavior?

im fragile.. my heart breaks easily.. i nid attention.. i wanna fight back when ppl say me tis n tat.. but i juz cant do it.. bcoz im afraid.. im afraid of not being accepted in this friendship.. im afraid to tell ppl my secrets.. im afraid to fall in love to ppl.. im afraid to giv ppl second chance... im afraid... bcoz in my life, i have been lonely and ignored.. i have lost my best fren bcoz of my fault.. n i dont even noe if i have been forgiven.. i've lost someone i like n it hurts a lot.... A LOT.... ppl say open up, how do u expect me to open up if u dont shut ur f****** mouth and listen? ppl say give 2nd chance, how do u wan me to giv 2nd chance when everythin was washed away into the drain? U TELL ME!

im sick of these things.. i juz wanna lead a normal life.. i want attention and love.. i need true frens who understand me.. i need a guy who will be at my side when i nid him.. i juz nid a fren's hug and telling me that, its ok, everythin's gonna be fine.. im owes here for u.. i nid a fren who would come to me and say, "dont worry, i will nvr leave u.. coz we're frens, BFF, best friends forever..." i juz nid those kinds of words to soothe the inner me... i dont nid gifts, money, clothes or stuffs.. i juz nid a hug... which is y i miss my old frens..

those who r owes at my side, knowin when im goin to fall and cry... knowing how to make me ok, knowing that oni thru words, im gonna be ok... i miss them a lot.. i may look ok, i may look happy go lucky, but inside, u dont know how much pain i had to bear... how tiring it is to be enclosed in a shell, unable to break it open n reveal the real me...

i juz wanna be me.. i juz wanna be the real Jenny Elizabeth Lu and not the fake one..

Jenny~

FamilY~

arent they juz lovely?

me n my sis aka tung tung.. =D

me n my mummy.. =)

~I miss all of u... wanna go back home asap without worryin of assignments, projects, exams, some idiots in life and most importantly, im able to release all my sadness there.... i wanna go to a place where i can be myself and relax without thinkin of wat ppl hav to think bout me.. i juz wanna go home~

Jenny~

miss~

i miss home...
i miss my family...
i miss my old frens...
i miss stef, lulu, fi and da gang...
i miss smiling and laughin like crazy wit my frens...
i miss da carefree life without hectic n stupid assignments...
i miss my tv..
i miss my radio...
i miss da place whr im free to walk around and feel relaxed...
i miss da songs we sang together in primary schools...
i miss speakin tagalog wit my frens...
i miss my mom's hometown wit all the fresh air...
i miss u who owes texted me...
i miss u who owes smile when u c me...
i miss how u make me smile when u smile...
and i miss those feelings....

Jenny~

MakAN~~

we had a little gathering tonite and it was awesome despite all the walking here n there... and i shud have not wore my heels.. luckily its not reli high coz my feets are like screaming for help.. and yet i have to stand it coz its not like we have cars to go here n there... but overall, i had fun eating and eating and laughing like a crazy girl... haha...

so we went and had dinner at this restaurant and its kinda cheap.. at least each of us paid RM15 like that for the food and the food are delicious... of course u cant compare it with home-cooked food but so far its da best... then after eating, i was being asked again and again if i wanna 'tambah nasi"... sheesh... all thanx to my seniors, Kenny n Hayrold.. oh well, both of them are like big bros of mine and i respect them and love them like my brothers... ahha...

then, we went and "lepak" or i shall say, waitin for da food to get digested b4 movin on to another destination for food... hahaha... so we went to another place and i had chicken wings again.. so its yummy~~ haha... and guess wat, i love eating... though i noe i might get fat or gain weight and stuffs like tat, but still eating is owes a fav part in my life... at least im able to accept my image and unlike da last time me, im too afraid to gain weight bcoz for me, skinny ppl will always be chosen,...

rite now, in my head is: if u choose me for my physical beauty, then im sorry, im not the one for u... if u choose me for my personality and trust on me that im able to love u as much as u love me, then u hav made da rite choice.... =)

P.S: pics are gonna be up soon after i get some from those who took~~

Jenny~

My FaV~

i know that this drama would be like a last time drama coz its produced in 2008, if im not mistaken.. anywayz, i actually forgot the drama d coz i din even get to watch the last episode since i have to come here and study... oh well, went back during the hols, n luckily there was this repeat airing in another channel.. so quite lucky to watch the another part which i din get to watch and yet i could not catch the final episode...

but the best thing about this drama, is that there are like a lot of touching moments and reli beautiful songs to accompany the story line.. and sometimes the story reli touched me and my heart.. maybe that's why whenever i watched this drama, tears juz rolled unexpectedly.. and these few days, i began to search for the soundtracks and yeah, got some which keep reminding me the scenes in the drama... i prefer this kind of drama.. maybe bcoz its love story is not reli a made up, filled wit fairy tales and will not happened in the reality... its love story is more to how a person nid to sacrifice for family...

and from this story, i knew that loving someone doesnt mean that we have to have him or her... sacrificing ur love for that person's safety is wat the main character did.. and it is reli sad seeing two loved ones unable to be together bcoz they loved each other too much... and im touched, reli touched.. if im in that position, i dont noe whether im able to go thru it or not... but this story had a lot of moral values instilled and it will for sure make me cry again and again...

Jenny~

Bad dreaM~

last nite, i had a dream.. i dreamt that u came to my room wit a fren of mine and i actually dont care so much about u... u came with a crystal ball and told me that it is my gift which had been kept for a period of time... i took it and stared at it in awe bcoz it was such a beautiful gift.. and yet i did not talk to u...

u gave me a rose and a letter.. and before i was able to open da letter, i woke up.. I ACTUALLY WOKE UP!!! and da same dream repeat itself when i fell into sleep again... with the same kind of message, u are trying to mend thing up with gifts and words of sorry.. but eventually i turned away and ignore you...

but all of those are juz dreams coz i noe u will nvr do it in the reality.. bcoz rite now, i dont noe u and u dont noe me anymore...

PS: i wonder if u ever dreamt of me too?

update~~

sori for not updatin like a long time... haha.. am on vacation so yeah, da blog is on vacation too... anywayz, so many things happen during da holidays... and the most shocking news i received is one of my good friends' father had juz passed away...

~To ah yew,
sori for not being able to be thr when u had to undergo so much difficulties.. i hope that u will owes be strong and move on in life.. i know losing someone who is so near to u hurts a lot but time will be the medicine... dont think too much and always stay healthy ya...

movin on, came back from hols 2 days ago and then ya, start off some routine life which is, attendin class, afternoon nap, assignments, test, exam and holidays... somehow i wanna skip all those and am lookin forward to hols... haha.. then some of my frens turned single and stuffs like that... oh well, for me, i think they made da best choice for themselves and i will surely support them...

ooo, pics up thr is juz to show da latest me... i dont noe if i did change or whatsoever but then somehow i love myself now... haha.. choose one u like da most and tell me k.. haha... anywayz, i think that's all that im able to update u guys.. haha.. if thrs anything that come across my mind, i'll put it on for sure...

Jenny~

MiRaCLE~

miracles... it happens unexpectedly and for me, i believe its given by God... somehow a sign to show u that HE still cares for u and listens to ur heart... someone like me usually dont believe in miracles because i tot it would only happen in movies or dramas.. but when it happened right in front of my eyes, i started to believe that God has owes been thr for me, listeing to my heart and watchin me.. mayb u might think its more of coincidence than miracles but for me, i believed that its more of a miracle...

try to imagine a situation whr u do not meet a person that suddenly disappear for like almost half a year when u actually meet him at church one day... and he just thr, right in front of ur eyes... and yeah, tats a miracle for me... its when i believed that God actually listened to me... he's juz thr and we looked at one another, feeling so surprised to meet one another again after such a long time...

we are starngers and yet thr is tis bond between us that i can hardly explain... but im not in love... im juz happy tat he's thr... im juz happy that re-appear in my life again and givin me a reason to smile when i think of him again... and most important, he actually let me find a reason to giv second chances to other guys out thr who deserves it...

Jenny~

DiFFErenCE..

difference happens.. not only in our class but also in our life... u c, sometimes difference make us strong but sometimes it makes us feel frustrated... i mean, being different sometimes will cause ppl's anger and disappointment... so, its best not to think that everyone can follow ur steps or ur way of life... like, previously, i had updated my status where i have my own life and my own ways to handle it...

ppl say words are even sharper than swords... when some words are being expressed in a different way or even tone, sometimes it hurt... mayb u dont see it thru ppl's face but u can never udge a book by its cover... sometimes i wish that i have this sensory thingy where i can see wat ppl think or feel... but what to do,.. i dont have the sixth sense...

and maybe i look like a very nice person or easily forgive someone's mistakes or even seldom angry, but sometimes i do have my own limits too.. i know how to be angry too so plz stop thinkin me of a perfect person... all i can say is, watch ur words and actions.. it hurts my feelings as well as others though u may not notice it... u might be givin ppl pressure though u might not keen about it.. and most importantly, u might make someone hate u for no apparent reason...

Jenny~

MooD SWIng~~

Geez, i realised that i have been in a really obvious mood swing eh... i can laugh like a crazy person in the morning and cried like a baby when its time to sleep... can someone tell me what is wrong wit me??

my tears seem to flow whenever i hear certain songs.. and mostly those songs remind me of him... remind me that how close we were, funny times we had... and it remind me the painful criticisms i have to bear, and how much i gave to be a "good" friend... and now, it was forgotten.. juz like tat.. juz like how i cast him away from my environment and my life.... i hate him... and i cant even look at him or even smile to him... because i hate him...

Jenny~

random~~

these few days, i think i have been laughing too much eh... i mean, i kept laughin on and on in class... and sometimes, its like i could burst into laughter when my friends make small jokes or even their sign language which is completely weird could make me laugh till i wanna drop eh...

but ppl tells me tat laughing is the best medicine... but some do tell me not to laugh too much bcoz in the end i might cry.... and somehow, i agree on that.. well, for an example... i laughed like a lot this morning and then at night, before i fall into my sleep, tears start to flow without any apparent reasons... if u wanna say its bcoz i miss my family, i dont reli think so since HOME is like 2 weeks away oni... if u say i cry bcoz of that JERK, oso impossible... since HE is so outta my life...

so maybe the myth has its true side too... haha.. anywayz, i love to laugh bcoz it somehow makes my life happier.. and it will always leave a deep memory for me to remember when i graduate.... so live, laugh and love!! haha...

Jenny~

Assignments~~

Ok, i shall declare the month of September as the month of torture whr all assignments have been given to us... Ok, i know that assignments are given to us to evaluate our learning skills and so on, so forth... but then its a torture for us students especially when it is near to goin home... and i shall also declare the month of October as the month of torment and stress where this will be the month, all the TESLians will go crazy, random and pressured...

Guess why? yeap, we;re having our finals on Nov and we're different from our coursemates or even our seniors.. this is bcoz they have exams every sem and they are safe even if they do not do well.. but for us, we never had any exams in previous sems and its like our life and future and our everything depends on this BIG BIG BIG exam!!! so its unfair.... i repeat UNFAIR!! crazy ah, wanna study 3 sems of literature and language description so that we can complete and pass tat paper? apuu~~~

anywayz, degree seems to be so near and yet so far for me... mayb bcoz im still in a playful mood and havent settle down for a serious future... i know i always procrastinate but then if i dont, i might not be a human.. haha.. anywayz, i hope that the future post or shud i say the next post wont portray da stressful mind i have... hahaha...

Jenny~

tis is me~

im not owes nice and i noe da way to get angry too... i mean sometimes wat u say or do, u might think its right and doesnt even feel wat i feel... i am a sensitive person... i cry easily, laugh easily as well as get angry easily... and im not planning to change it coz this is me... so if u cant stand it, den get away...

i hate being wit ppl who is da same kind like me... i hate impatient ppl... i hate hypocrites and fakers.... coz i have met them and got hurt bcoz of them... and i hate those who breaks promises... i hate it... JERKS....

if ur uncomfortable being wit me den stay away from me... i dont look nice or act nice... i am only nice when ppl treat me da way i treat them... when u say i am over sensitive as in i get angry easily juz bcoz of ur STUPID AND PATHETIC words, WHO CARE? its me and only me who have da rights to determine whether i wanna be sensitive or not... so BUZZ OFF loser!!!

and if u hate reading all my angry feelings in my blog, den F*** u lah.... up to me to wat i wanna read so if u wanna read, then read... if not, DONT! im super uberly angry now so dont mess wit me.....

Jenny~

convo~~

Convocation for da KPLI had juz passed by and though i was not involved directly in it, i was able to feel the mood and excitement was in da air... all da graduates bringing their family and their loved ones to watch once in a lifetime event that might not take place anymore makes me feel so touched... ok, my part in da graduation was becoming a florist... and guess wat, i enjoyed being one... mayb bcoz i get to learn new skills and able to use my creativity in doing something which makes me feel appreciated.. and most important, customers' favours are always our favours..

when watching the graduates taking pics wit their families and friends, it made me wonder how will i be when its my turn to receive my degree, wearing the graduation robe and waiting to be taken pics... and when i saw all the graduates, it kinda inspire me to be like one of them.. i have a dream which is i wan my parents to wear the graduation robe and hat while taking pics wit me.. i wan em to feel how does it feel to be a graduate though it is not them who are graduation... moreover, i wan them feel proud for havin a daughter who is able to make them realise one of their dreams... God, help me to make this wishes and dreams come true.... AMEN!~~

Jenny~

this is the first time i actually experience miracle.. ok, i shud say its my second time... haha.. anywayz, i met him.. da person that i have been waiting to meet since last sem d... sem 1 was like the best sem ever bcoz he was like always thr and paying attention to me.. but when i went to sem 2, it seems like he disappeared without even saying goodbye.. which kinda makes me sad but somehow i got over wit it... i kept thinking that maybe thrs something else for me.. but last Sunday, in church, i met him... i was like overjoyed, EXTREMELY happy bcoz its like God reli answered my prayers and let me meet him...

and yeah, he did saw me and he was like CUTE as usual... haha... i went out together wit him and we shook hands outside the church.. and i was like smiling the whole time.. haha.. gosh, cant forget that memory... i mean he actually waited for me to face him and we shook hands... luckily, i didnt melt at that point... haha..

actually, im not like falling head over heels for him or whatever it is... it is juz that i felt happy seeing him and he somehow makes me feel the feeling i wanted to feel all this time.. but unluckily, he's juz another "good view" of mine which i will never erase from my head... its juz that he actually paid attention at me and reli look me in the eyes... unlike other guys... i can feel his sincerity... anywayz, i hope we will meet again somewhere and someday...

Jenny~

DonT ReaD if U Dont WaNT to

Weird o some ppl... bcoz sometimes it is them who did wrong and then still, they go blame other ppl... for wat lah?? weirdos.... ok, case is like this... when u keep offering ur help to someone who seems like they are ot interested yet, of course they say ur annoying lah... what else? i mean if someone needs us help, they will come asking for it.. so why do u wanna show off to da whole world that u are ready to help ppl.... come one lah.... STOP BEING HYPOCRITE LAh!

Next, it seems that gaps btw us and da juniors are like full of conflicts juz bcoz of some bad hats and guess what, NOT ALL are like that.. so why dont u get a hand of urself and start to stop bothering ppl before saying that they are bothering u.... i am like so patient to these things but come on, PATIENCE DO HAVE LIMITS ok.... weird ppl wit his weird attitude wit his annoyin behavior wit his FAKE OFF actions and guess wat I NEVER LIKE IT....

what else.. oh ya, wit all ur actions that seem so much not like u and stop saying other ppl when ur like them too... u know i started to hate FAKERS and HYPOCRITES since i met one... so BUZZ OFF, IDIOTS....

Jenny~

ThiNgs do ChanGE~`

ok, now i actually agree to this statement.. mayb bcoz now i have seen some changes in terms of my life, friendship, and also in my studies.. ok lets go from one to another... life seems changes a lil bit for me since i learn new skills and good news is, i am ELIGIBLE to be a housewife... hahaha.... if i wanna compare last time and now, i kinda like my life rite now since i am able to do something which i never tot i could so.. so somehow, i can consider myself as independent... hihi,..

friendship... i learn to make new friends and guess what, i tend to mingle wit ppl more easily... and i actually understand and identify who are my true friends and who are my false friends... that is what i learn throughout my life in keningau... and when i thought about my high school life, i am able to compare my life at that time and now... and i think i love my life now...

studies... it changes according to the lecturers... when i was in sem 1, all the lecturers look so stern and serious... and we cant even enjoy our studies life completely... but rite now, when i am in sem 3, it seems like everyone changes and i can feel that we're much comfortable wit one another.... so yeah, things do change... and the most important thing is, i love the changes that i have strive for and tha thad come to me...

Jenny~

THE MAN I WILL MARRY

This is the type of man that i will get marry too (i hope!):

1. someone who still thinks i'm pretty even if i have no makeup on & even if my hair is messy.
2. someone who still play with my hair while i'm lying down on his thighs.
3. someone who will give me a back and head massage whenever i feel pressured and stressed
4. someone who will buy me my comfort food whenever i feel bad
5. someone who will treat me right
6. someone who could get along with my family and friends
7. someone who will not think i'm stupid
8. someone who's very responsible to take care of me and our family
9. someone who will spoil me
10. someone who will cook for me
11. someone who will surprise me, big or small
12. someone who will watch fireworks with me
13. someone who's willing to do spontaneous stuffs with me
14. someone who hugs me on my waist surprisingly
15. someone who will passionately make out with me
16. someone who will never try to hurt me
17. someone who knows how to cry in front of me
18. someone i can trust
19. someone who trusts me
20. SOMEONE WHO LOVES ME THE WAY I LOVES HIM!

JEnny~

40th post!

well, ppl will celebrate their 40th post by writing somethin happy or stuffs like tat... but for me, i am "forced" to write on somethin which is not a happy one... IM SICK!! T.T

i have been havin fever since like yesterday when i was actually supposed to be good an dhelathy in no days after seeing da doctor a couple of days ago... sheesh... and im like so worried of it since its fever... and keningau have cases of dengue and stuffs like that... AND of course im worried about my health bcoz i know my family will be EVEN MORE worried than me...

medicines aka panadol have been my best friends for da couple of days and all i can do is lying in my bed, unable to do certain things happily and for sure, it is makin me emo.... i wanna get well as soon as possible... wanna go to da field and play around or hav fun during joggin... i wanna laugh as much as possible and not worryin bout my health... i juz wanna have my normal life back, that's it... gosh, plz pray for me, my readers.... pray that i will get well as soon as possible...

Jenny~

truth vs lie

which would u choose? a truth or a lie? sometimes truth hurts us a lot and we pot for lies so that we will not get hurt... sometimes lies leave us in a puzzled manner and we hope to know da truth so that we will be released from any puzzles goin on... so which do u choose? truth or lies?

for me, i choose what is best for me... there is no such thing as choosing truth and live in da truth forever... there are times when we are living in lies and for sure, we cant get out from it.... everywhere are lies and do u think human beings will be able to live in truth after all? it depends on ur judgement..

in my life, i have lived in lies and sometimes i lie... i dont show da real me to anyone except my family... only my family know da real me,... and da reason why i dont show da real me, is because i dont know whether ppl can accept da real me... i am happy living in two worlds where one, i can be comfy wit my own personality wit my family and another where i can live in peace wit da society and environment around me...

sometimes, living in lies does not kill as much as in truth... IGNORANCE IS A BLISS... that is wat i learnt from someone and guess wat, i am practising it rite now...

Jenny~

10 Reasons to Smile~

1. Smiling Makes Us Attractive
We are drawn to people who smile. There is an attraction factor. We want to know a smiling person and figure out what is so good. Frowns, scowls and grimaces all push people away -- but a smile draws them in (avoid these smile aging habits to keep your smile looking great).

2. Smiling Changes Our Mood
Next time you are feeling down, try putting on a smile. There's a good chance you mood will change for the better. Smiling can trick the body into helping you change your mood.

3. Smiling Is Contagious
When someone is smiling they lighten up the room, change the moods of others, and make things happier. A smiling person brings happiness with them. Smile lots and you will draw people to you.

4. Smiling Relieves Stress
Stress can really show up in our faces. Smiling helps to prevent us from looking tired, worn down, and overwhelmed. When you are stressed, take time to put on a smile. The stress should be reduced and you'll be better able to take action.

5. Smiling Boosts Your Immune System
Smiling helps the immune system to work better. When you smile, immune function improves possibly because you are more relaxed. Prevent the flu and colds by smiling.

6. Smiling Lowers Your Blood Pressure
When you smile, there is a measurable reduction in your blood pressure. Give it a try if you have a blood pressure monitor at home. Sit for a few minutes, take a reading. Then smile for a minute and take another reading while still smiling. Do you notice a difference?

7. Smiling Releases Endorphins, Natural Pain Killers and Serotonin
Studies have shown that smiling releases endorphins, natural pain killers, and serotonin. Together these three make us feel good. Smiling is a natural drug.

8. Smiling Lifts the Face and Makes You Look Younger
The muscles we use to smile lift the face, making a person appear younger. Don't go for a face lift, just try smiling your way through the day -- you'll look younger and feel better.

9. Smiling Makes You Seem Successful
Smiling people appear more confident, are more likely to be promoted, and more likely to be approached. Put on a smile at meetings and appointments and people will react to you differently.

10. Smiling Helps You Stay Positive
Try this test: Smile. Now try to think of something negative without losing the smile. It's hard. When we smile our body is sending the rest of us a message that "Life is Good!" Stay away from depression, stress and worry by smiling.

~Isnt smiling brings a lot of benefits? so why dont u and me start out by smiling to one another as it benefits not only me but u too... so, SMILE OWES... =)

FoRgIvInG~~

now i know why am i so easy when it comes to da part called "forgiving"... i tend to forgive ppl reli easy bcoz if they treat me nice, i sort of forget wat did they did to me.. of course im a person who will forgive but forgetting is not always my expertise... sometimes i'll remember wat they did to me but then brush it off, and get back to wat life reli wan me to do...

same case like tis time... someone forget my presents since like my bday a few months ago while me, actually remembered his birthday... so, i got a little pissed off by him since he has been promising me and yet havent fulfilled it to me... so, yeah he kept sayin sorry to me but not accepted...

so yeah, like wat was expected from me, i did acccept his apology... well, reason? maybe because i think he deserves another second chance.. tats it... i oni give second chances to ppl who deserves it so i might think he deserves it... anywayz, i juz hope wat i did was right...

Jenny~

SaLoNg~

Last fri, we had a school visit to SK. Salong which is almost 2 and a half hours ride from our college.... well, i had a lot of fun since this is my first time goin to rural schools... and i enjoyed all da greenery environment like a lot... so yeah, we started out and reached thr around 2pm.... had lunch and got ready to meet da students there... well, we had a reading programme with da students there and it was great as we were exposed on ways tp teach students to read in english.... but da sad thing is tat some hav da passion to study but were limited due to family backgrounds...

anywayz, we went thru da suspension bridge to reach da skool which i find a bit scary,... ok, its not a bit but its A LOT.... gosh, i got stuck halfway eh.... haha,... its kinda funny but then i went thru it and it was an ADVENTURE... BTW: da suspension bridge wasnt even short... it was like one metre or sth like tat... scary lah babe....

so we had everythin done on fri and it was reli cool wit its reli majestic view... GOSH, i miss da scenery thr... but da disadvantages being there is that it si totally cut off from da outside world... no network coverage at all.... thrs internet but then for me, da phone is much more important.... haha... da ppl thr could oni call out by buying telephone cards.... another thing is da cleanliness as in sanitary.. it was quite bad which discourages me even more to stay thr for a longer period of time... but overall, i enjoyed it a lot... hope tat thrs more activities like this lined up for all of us again.... =)

FYI: pics will be up real soon....

Jenny~